Surviving Gangster's Love

s of femininity. I stuck to my large sized t-shirts and baggy bermudas throughout my early teens. Others called me 'the Tom Boy' and I had no problems with the label. It seemed to fit my style s

me. My roommate told me I had androgynous aesthetics and I felt it fit. I tried dating in college but

eyond making out. Intimacy felt bland to me. Katy told me I might be a lesbian, since I never felt anything while kissing

y was the only suitable choice, it was not like I had to explore more of a sex life and then settle down. Marrying at the age of twenty-three seemed perfectly normal to me. I knew I was never getting into

ed to believe it was fear. And only fear. Not some weird sexual tension or something, I was not supposed to feel that, that too for a Mafia boss who was apparently wanting to get into my pants, as it seemed. When he said that he wanted me

s possible. He was doing something with my head. I had never felt conscious of a man, but with him I would get all tangled up in the head. Thinking of Katy reminded me that I had told her about my situation last night. I wondered if she could help me in someway. Is she going to report me missing? I was worried that it would make her the target of these people. It was all so stressful. Even if I had made it to the subway and managed to run off to some suburban area the night b

arted feeling sleepy. I was half asleep, sitting up on the corner of the bed, when he finally returned to his room. It must have been way past midnight. I woke up with a start when I felt something on my face. He was sitting next to me, stroking my cheeks gently. The lights in the room were dim and I could not see his expression. My vision was also a little blu

er in his mouth. I could smell the mint in his breath and on his tongue. We were going in and out of each other's lips at a rhythm to which our upper bodies were moving in sync. I could feel his firm chest under his dress shirt, under my hands, and his fast beating he

at that point. I couldn't understand what just happened. Was it a ki

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t all I wanted to say. I could not see his expression but I he

." He said as he slumped down

about this tomorrow." He said

settled my nerves. I could never imagine him doing something like that. It was as if we were lovers. Weren't such actions something that lovers do? Embracing each other to sleep and k

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