100 DAYS with Mr. Sebastian

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r get out of this black hole that continues to suck the life out of me. I feel t

o way I could? I'm stuck forever giving

it seemed like I was drowning even deeper and

allowed me continuously belongs

o acquire such a large amount to ow

ixture of anger and frustration boil in

formed in my throat. I want to cry, to scream, to run away. I wan

ery time I open my tired eyes or dr

n't go into the hands of that monster Don

deepest part of my worn out soul. I take another loo

it. Reading the list made me even more tired and the weight

r myself for the afternoon shift I had in thirty minutes, one tha

s came to an end, the I wa

ise walks in. Her face brightens up with a smile, her brown doe ey

oping it would mask the exha

y direction. "I didn't know you came b

t the grocery store" I say hugging her back, I make sure

it. We'll be fine...it's crazy because I didn't believe in that senten

, I couldn't let her go through that now especially after

t, his twisted face frozen in fear, his eyes that were devoid of life, his slig

uldn't imagine what it felt like fo

dining table and packing all the papers into an organized

t?...I brought some le

ng with glee "I ate at my friend's place but think

at her excitement. Elise is the light of my life, the one joy

lt, guilt that I can't give her the life she deserves and a

clothes on my floor and bed. My whole room was a mess jus

ue T-shirt that got stained during my first shift and shuffl

d workplace. The distance from the house to the s

m the pending fees I had to pay to the date of my next payment of Don Mario'

me. My mind wanders again to the death of my father. The day his dead body was

o Elise. My father was the one who took it upon himself to

. The day you left us, our li

y, whenever I was bombarded with the list of

pretended enough for us to think he was happy

ieved? Or was he sa

cross the street from where I'm stand is the family diner where Dad al

and exchange meals. The air that surroun

o" I mutter silently, my he