Free Falling

re my brain register

s kissi

aware of him. I suddenly became numb to everything else but him. The water, the surpr

ng a million warnings but I shoved them behind. I was entranced, and my mind went blank when his tongue made contact with mine. His mo

g crazy," he muttered,

them around his waist and I let out a moan

voice out of my head and in a flash, pushed myself way fro

sily caught up to me. I turned to him s

out, wriggling futil

's wr

rst, and in that moment I wished I could explain to him why I was acting this way. That my anxiety and

ut, skipping up the stairs two at a time until I reached the top. Low voices emanated from below and I guessed his friends were asking him what was going on. I hadn't even talked with

the driveway and past the line of sport cars until I got to his bike. I swiped furiously on the sc

't see my face, my resolve softened and I held tight, leaning my head against his back. I hated that I loved the feeling that he

red. His expression was cold and uninviting, like it had been the days after

me my keys and his hand made brief contact with mine in the process. I wan

d brought the car to life, driving out

tion to take a drink. I politely shook my head in decline

rs I didn't know all that well, and seated at my dresser table applying another

slipping her lean body into a paper thin dress that I regarded too sinful to ev

pants and always made sure to get her way with everything. Ingrid felt this need to carry her along bec

ssed her hair in the mirror. She had on a green strapless dress that ended ju

d with a curve of her lips. Ingrid rolled her eyes. "How about you, Amanda? You're

f things as spontaneously rand

turned away from me in instant

pened just last week in the heart of the city. As we walked into the building, the na

our tickets and he pulled open the barrier, beckoning us in. Ingrid let out an animalistic ho

topped at the bar first, Morgan ordering a shot each for the three us. I groaned on the

away, two guys approached our group. Morgan seemed to know the

at Ingrid who gave a flirtatious wave, "and Aman

He was cute, but I got the feeling that he was more int

really built and tanned. He stared at me a lot, which I found re

away and disappeared into the cluster of

, and even though she'd said earlier that she had a boyfriend, s

call me Stan." He said, flashing

onstantine, I

idn't have to do with school. Morgan and Ingrid were nowhere to be seen and I guessed they were already humping like ra

o the bar and I watched h

y I always did with strangers-but made it sound like a lot. I mentioned where I came from, my university and what I was stud

ructor on weekdays but I do

As he began speaking more and more on what he wrote about, which unsurprisingly centered around health and fitness

I stared at his open palm and felt an awful sense of déjà vu. I got

curred and since the moment I left that parking lot, we hadn't been in contact since

me from my daze and I blinked up at

me to the dance floor and with me being already drunk out of my mind, it

ke I'd hoped, he circled around me and tried to grind his crotch against my

id, my palm on my forehead. He nodded and took me back

ed, but regardless I lifted the rim of the glass to my mout

recoiled. "You look exhausted. There's a section of

ohol laden breath and nod

e. Here people sat on couches sipping drinks and having conversations. The only con was the lightning

ied ordering more alcoholic drin

radually inching towards mine. When our drinks came I appreciatively uncapped the bottle and gulpe

something on my

and tasted awful, and against my protests he didn't stop, trying to coerce me into the kiss. He held

bit his lip and he jerk

d I'm not going to leave this goddamn place unt

y didn't fare well with so much alcohol in its system. I shouldn't have come here in the first place. I

owing me, I returned to the bar and fished for my phone out of my bag. The room spun, everything and everyone becoming a blur of colors and sound

ng my phone I dialed Ingrid and

hat choked my voice. "Morgan told that bastard he could have s

and

he other line

you d

d, guessing it was the b

fused and angry all at once. I was too drunk to g

voice came out smudged and n

e name of

be? The cube. Som

e b

ine is being a dick. He made me cry and my pretty make-up's all ruined now.

uke, do

e." I heard, then

ame I'd just dialed. Everything danced in my vision

as F

eep immedi

ened my eyes, a head splitting headache hit me

ands wrapping around my waist. I struggled to shove him away and mumbled incoherently, unable t

bartenders busy tending to customer's orders and fe

my uncoordinated arms pu

music was still throbbing and I felt bile rise up my throat. Relentless and as if he was too brain dead t

came. And then, a loud c

flesh on the floor, unconscious. People around stopped partying and turned to us. I looked up and saw

d I slumped to the ground, passing