If Only etc.
nary occasions, for once she raised no objection. She was perfectly willing that her marriage with Sir John Chetwynd should take place at once. Perhaps in her home Lady Ethel was not quite the plast
f my own daughter, I never can quite understand Ethel; she is not like other girl
e world and to those who had not come within the immediate charm of his manner and bearing, it did offer food for
rom the weary ills which weak flesh is heir to than their less favoured brothers and sisters, and in the early summer the Duchess began to complain of certain aches and pains and to bethink her that Sir John's advice might be worth following; so she drove over to Camelot Square and was shown into
oames, the eminently correct footman, u
advanced gus
was positively timid at coming with
Duchess, to give me suc
lightly with his lips and mot
nal man! Ah, you lovers, you are all alike, and w
credit it, or I shall never be permitted
ly Mamma thinks of you, J
our ability to make an income-a large income, sitting comfortably in an arm chair
in Lady Ethel, "and that is
thing serious, m
hay fever to such a distressing extent that
ghter l
and Mamma's sneezes were most mal-
arming sermon, so encouraging and tactful, I sneezed violently in the man's best moments
ot home-'I shall go and cons
he Duchess looked anxiously
ely recovered in a few days at most," said Sir Jo
sure you. I have had colds
ctor?" The stern face rela
ou not to be obstinate. Give me something potent-one
re not in the
is kind of you t
in a week, will not th
l be ra
te you a pr
Ethel's health, and she has always been so subject to chills. The risk of entrusting one's daughter to an unobservant man is
that I was an invalid, and I never remember to ha
she will be guarded as s
ed kindly at
whether I ever was very romantic, even in my younger days, but I think that she and I understand each other, and if we don't tiff and 'make
other too well to quarrel,
t love on either side?
than rhapsodies from another. Ethel, just look out of the window and see if the carriage is waiting. We are going to t
mma, it
good-bye to John-," and when the door had c
kward. Can you not help me, Sir John? The weeks are slipping by, and I should, I confess, l
in
urs and
matters, but then he was not the principal person to be consulted, and it certainly
ur hands. Let it be when you please. In another month I shall be
f, and perhaps you had better broach the subject yourself to
fashioned gallantry over the pearl-grey suede, held out in farewell, and
ld happen in the best regulated families, so he was now bent on making friends with the
his hand on the back of his chair
e excuse could he make to h
thunderbolt had fallen from the skies at his f
he rang
es next,
intment has been waiting for more than an hour, and I tho
w he
oor swung open again
Blac
t recovered himself
seat,
es they looked at each other without speaking
h a nervous laugh. "I am ill; I
erself, but he r
g strange in the very familiarity of the countenance presented to him. It had altered much from what h
he asked huskily-"Why
I thought you would do me good if anyone could." Sh
am willing to b
dog if it were dying, wouldn't you? th
ithful dog," he s
a wi
aken no notice of me, suddenly grew kind. I said to myself, 'Bella, it looks bad for you when ladies forget how common you are,' and then the thought struck me, London meant you! As a patient I might come to your house and
will do what
ill so
n your
if to smoothe his hair, and the colour ca
laden with rings-rings which he had not given her. His
she said; "I guess I'm pretty bad. You n
ly and replaced the stet
e not right. T
I used to be. I have come too
f by misgivings, which will only do you harm. Go away from England when the summer is over; go
d t
on why you should not l
hands out with a
on is impossible
ossi
tates. I have an engagement at the Emp
aws of health demand that you s
ers. I must sing to liv
look as if you were in
gh, but it melts like ice cream
u not w
-I wonder why I dread to die. There! I can follow your advice so far as this; I'll take the greatest care of myself-in London. I am glad I came to
, have you-it is a foolish quest
ghed re
has been awful lonesome. You didn't grieve much, that's certain. And you got your title soon after I w
ave been an
o hang in your little library in the old house. You are a good deal changed in the face; your manner is just the same
not so patient and tender wi
to make you sorry. Do you know how we lived-he and I, when I left you? He took me to Paris; and didn't we make the dollars spin, t
ou lef
d the corners
keting with a hand basket, to get it cheap. When we wanted a change we would take a bus to the Park and look at the swells across the railings; and sometimes Saidie gave us tic
love, then, after a
't know! what does it matter? It was a release for you and you are glad that it happened,
k of what
uld have been no happier," said Bella, ref
est to make
ore grateful and different, would y
loved you-I had no thought for a
rself, 'it was better so'? Suppose that you and I were still what we were o
t is impossible that we ca
close to
just what I used to be when I made you ashamed of my ignorance and my mistakes. But if I were p
e paining you
ac
's sake
her knees
you would
d remained my faithful wife, heaven
, then pressed her handkerchief to her mouth.
aid John Chetwynd, terribly mov
other. It is more than I deserve-you make me so sorry
can
o come. It is only a six months' engagement over here, and if I'm not long for this wicked world, I may not
you?
know and feel what my action towards you really
if, as you say, I expected and exacted
till raining dow
me,
You must not ask
ou despise me
u don't und
ss
again. I kissed her-a young girl-in this room half
into the face of the kneeling wo
er thought-I never dreamt. It seemed so-so-impossi
hush,
r own class-a lady
on it. Give me your hand
leaded. "What name
th
uld not kiss me-it would not be right of you. She is a young girl and she might find it hard to forgive you if she knew. I am going. You used to have a bell on your table, I recollect, with a little white knob that you pressed when Mary was to go
ng hand in his with God knows what of
-bye-
door f
was
cough as she passed dow