My world shattered twice. First, the ocean claimed my son. Then, the mountain road took another, a direct sacrifice to the man I loved and the woman he chose. In the hospital, beeps marked the emptiness where my second son used to be, echoing the first loss, both involving Holden and Giana. During the car crash, I was pinned, bleeding, and trapped. Holden, my partner, looked me in the eyes, then chose to save Giana, abandoning me and our unborn child. Soon, I overheard Holden praising Giana for turning our tragedy into a PR win. His hollow apologies and focus on Giana's "miracle work" reignited the brutal memory of her push and his past denials. A decade of sacrificing my life and two children for a man who saw me as a liability left a bitter taste. His choice was clear; only profound abandonment remained. But this time, I was choosing me. From my profound loss, a dangerous spark ignited: I would not just survive; I would find freedom and make him pay.
My world shattered twice. First, the ocean claimed my son. Then, the mountain road took another, a direct sacrifice to the man I loved and the woman he chose. In the hospital, beeps marked the emptiness where my second son used to be, echoing the first loss, both involving Holden and Giana.
During the car crash, I was pinned, bleeding, and trapped. Holden, my partner, looked me in the eyes, then chose to save Giana, abandoning me and our unborn child.
Soon, I overheard Holden praising Giana for turning our tragedy into a PR win. His hollow apologies and focus on Giana's "miracle work" reignited the brutal memory of her push and his past denials.
A decade of sacrificing my life and two children for a man who saw me as a liability left a bitter taste. His choice was clear; only profound abandonment remained.
But this time, I was choosing me. From my profound loss, a dangerous spark ignited: I would not just survive; I would find freedom and make him pay.
Chapter 1
Elise May POV
The sterile white of the hospital room was blinding. The rhythmic beep of the heart monitor was the only sound, a mocking metronome counting the seconds of my empty existence. A dull, throbbing ache radiated from my abdomen, a phantom limb where a life used to be.
"I'm so sorry, Ms. May," the doctor had said, his face a mask of professional pity. "The trauma from the accident... we couldn't save the baby."
Our son. Gone. The first time, it was the icy depths of the ocean. This time, it was the crushing weight of twisted metal and a man's choice.
The ocean. Even now, three years later, I could still feel the cold. I could still see the whitecaps under an overcast sky, hear the roar of the wind and the waves. It was supposed to be a celebration-Holden had just closed a major funding round for Nexus Dynamics, and Giana had insisted on a weekend yacht trip. "Just the core team," she'd said, her smile sharp and proprietary. "We've earned this."
I hadn't wanted to go. I was seven months pregnant with our first son, heavy and tired, my ankles swollen and my patience thin. But Holden had begged me. "Please, Elise. The investors will be there. I need you by my side. You're my anchor." So I had gone, because that's what I did. I anchored him. I held him steady while he chased his ambitions, believing-foolishly, desperately-that one day he would stop chasing and simply stay.
The yacht was opulent, a floating monument to wealth I had never felt comfortable inhabiting. I spent most of the weekend in our cabin, queasy from the motion of the sea, while Giana played hostess on deck. She was effortless in that role, all champagne laughter and strategic charm, working the investors like she'd been born to it. Holden watched her with an admiration that made my stomach clench for reasons beyond morning sickness.
On the second night, I couldn't sleep. The baby was kicking, restless, and I needed air. I made my way to the upper deck, thinking I would be alone. Instead, I found them-Holden and Giana, silhouetted against the navigation lights, their heads bent close together. Giana's hand was on his chest. His hand was on her waist. They were speaking in low, urgent tones, the kind of conversation that excluded the rest of the world.
I must have made a sound, because they both turned. Giana's expression flickered-surprise, then something cold and calculating-before settling into a mask of concern. Holden's face went pale.
"Elise," he started, stepping away from her. "It's not-"
But Giana was already moving toward me, her heels clicking on the deck. "Elise, you shouldn't be up here. It's not safe in your condition. Let me help you back to your cabin." Her voice was honeyed, but her grip on my arm was iron. She steered me away from the edge, away from Holden, her body a barrier between us.
"Holden and I were just discussing the investor presentation," she said smoothly. "He's nervous about tomorrow. You know how he gets."
I looked past her, at Holden. He was standing frozen, his face a mask of guilt and something else-relief? Relief that Giana was handling me?
"Holden?" My voice came out smaller than I intended.
He opened his mouth, but no words came. Giana answered for him. "He's exhausted, Elise. We all are. Let's get you to bed."
She guided me back down to my cabin, her presence suffocating, her perfume cloying. At the door, she paused, her hand on my shoulder. "Get some rest," she said softly. "You need to take care of yourself. For the baby."
The way she said "for the baby" made my skin crawl. There was something in her eyes-a flicker of something dark and satisfied-that I couldn't name then. I know now what it was. It was the look of a predator who had already marked her prey.
I didn't sleep that night. I lay awake, feeling my son move inside me, and tried to convince myself that I had imagined it all. That Holden loved me. That Giana was just an ambitious assistant, nothing more. That my marriage was solid, my future secure.
The next morning, the storm hit without warning. The sky turned black, the sea churned, and the captain ordered everyone below deck. But Giana insisted on one last photo for the investors-a shot of the team braving the elements, "authentic leadership" she called it. So we gathered on the deck, the wind whipping our clothes, the rain stinging our faces.
I don't remember falling. One moment I was standing, gripping the railing with white-knuckled hands. The next, a wave crashed over the side, the deck tilted violently, and I was in the water.
The cold was absolute. It stole my breath, my thoughts, everything but the primal terror of drowning. I thrashed, trying to stay afloat, my pregnant belly weighing me down. Through the churning water, I could see the yacht, could see figures on deck-Holden, his face twisted in horror, shouting something I couldn't hear. Giana beside him, her hand on his arm, holding him back.
Holding him back.
I went under. The water filled my mouth, my lungs. The last thing I saw before the darkness claimed me was the blurry shape of the yacht, growing smaller and smaller, and Holden's face-frozen, indecisive-as Giana pulled him away from the railing.
They pulled me out eventually. A crew member dove in, risked his life to save mine. But by the time they got me to a hospital, it was too late for my son. The trauma, the cold, the lack of oxygen-his heart had stopped. They delivered him still and silent, a perfect little boy who would never take a breath.
Holden held my hand through the aftermath, his face wet with tears. "I'm so sorry," he kept saying. "I'm so sorry, Elise. I should have jumped in. I should have-"
"Giana stopped you," I said. My voice was flat, dead. "She held you back."
He flinched. "She was scared. She panicked. She didn't mean-"
I turned my face to the wall and didn't speak to him for three days.
Later, I learned the truth from a crew member who had seen everything. Giana hadn't panicked. She had been standing behind me when the wave hit. Her hand had been on my back-steadying me, I had thought at the time. But the crew member said he saw her push. Just a small, precise shove as the deck tilted, enough to send me over the railing when I was already off-balance.
I confronted Holden with this information. His face went pale, then hardened. "That's a serious accusation, Elise. You're grieving. You're not thinking clearly. Giana would never-she's been nothing but loyal to this company, to us."
To us. The irony was a bitter taste in my mouth. There was no "us." There hadn't been for a long time. But I was broken, hollowed out by loss, and I didn't have the strength to fight. So I let him convince me. I let him tell me I was imagining things. I let him bury the truth under layers of denial and expensive therapy and the slow, painful reconstruction of a marriage that had been dead long before our son hit the water.
I stayed. God help me, I stayed.
It took me a year to even look at Holden again without seeing my son's still face. Another year to let him touch me. And when he started talking about "trying again," about "healing through new life," I was too tired to resist. I convinced myself that a new baby would fix everything. That it would bind us together, fill the void, make me forget the cold of the ocean and the weight of what I had lost.
I got pregnant again. And for a few fragile months, I almost believed it was working. Holden was attentive, present, the man I had fallen in love with before Nexus Dynamics consumed him. He talked about the future-our future-with an enthusiasm I hadn't seen in years. He even mentioned marriage, a real wedding, not the rushed courthouse ceremony we'd had when we were young and broke and desperately in love.
I started sketching again. Wedding dresses, at first, daydreams on paper. Then nurseries, baby clothes, a life I was building one pencil stroke at a time. I let myself hope.
And then came the mountain road. The landslide. The crash.
This time, I was barely two months along-not showing yet, a secret I had been holding close, waiting for the right moment to tell Holden. I had wanted it to be perfect. I had bought a tiny onesie, wrapped it in tissue paper, planned a special dinner. I was going to tell him on our anniversary, three weeks away.
I never got the chance.
The screech of tires on the wet mountain road. The horrifying groan of shifting earth as the hillside gave way. Our car, tumbling, crashing, finally coming to a rest against a tree, dangling over a ravine. Holden was driving. Giana was in the passenger seat-she had insisted on riding with us to "review the presentation" for a meeting we were heading to. I was in the back, as always, an afterthought in my own life.
When the car stopped moving, I was pinned, my leg trapped between the crushed back seat and the door. Holden, dazed but mobile, had turned. His eyes met mine, wide with panic. "Elise!" he'd gasped.
But Giana was already screaming, her voice a sharp command. "Holden, get me out! The car is unstable! It could go over!"
He hesitated. That single, agonizing moment stretched into an eternity. He looked at me-pregnant, trapped, bleeding-and then at her.
He chose his company. He chose his ambition. He chose her.
He unbuckled Giana's seatbelt and dragged her from the passenger side, pulling her to safety on the road above. He left me and our unborn child in the mangled car.
By the time rescuers freed me, it was too late.
Now, lying in this hospital bed, the irony was a bitter taste in my mouth. This child, conceived in a desperate attempt to rekindle a dead flame after our first loss, had met the same fate. Sacrificed for the same woman.
A muffled sound drifted from the hallway. Laughter. Giana's bright, sharp laugh, followed by Holden's deeper, placating tone. My blood ran cold. He wasn't by my side. He was out there, with her.
"The board is thrilled with how you handled the press, Giana," Holden was saying, his voice low but audible through the door. "Turning a potential disaster into a PR win for Nexus... brilliant."
"They were eating out of my hand," Giana purred. "And you, my hero, pulling me from the wreckage like that. It's all anyone is talking about."
My hero. The words were acid in my ears. He was her hero. He had left his pregnant girlfriend to die, and he was her hero.
The door creaked open. Holden entered, his face arranged into a somber expression that didn't reach his cold, calculating eyes.
"Elise," he said softly, reaching for my hand. I flinched away. "The doctors told me. I'm so sorry."
Sorry. The word was meaningless. He was sorry for the inconvenience, for the mess.
"Nexus Dynamics' stock is already stabilizing," he continued, as if that were a comfort. "Giana is a miracle worker."
I stared at the ceiling, a knot of ice forming in my chest. I had sacrificed my career, my dreams, and the lives of two children for a man who saw me as nothing more than a liability. The first time, I had let him convince me it was an accident. I had let Giana's hand on my back become a blur of trauma and grief, something I couldn't trust my own memory on. I had swallowed the lies because the truth was too heavy to carry.
But this time, there was no ambiguity. No ocean waves to obscure what happened. This time, he had looked me in the eyes and made his choice.
This time, I was choosing me.
He Chose Her Over Our Child
Barr Wettlaufer
Modern
Chapter 1
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Chapter 2
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Chapter 3
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Chapter 4
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Chapter 5
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Chapter 6
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