Inevitably Captivated

I think we can all agree that life is unexpected. Everything can change in the blink of an eye and matters can slip out of your hands faster than you can imagine; it may be faster than how your mind can process what has happened. Pretty worrying, huh? But it can also be exciting. You never know.

It's easy to say you've got it all planned because I used to say that too. I was completely wrong and naïve. I've never thought that my plan could go wrong. No matter how precise you are and how in control you may be, if something is bound to happen, it will happen- whether you like it or not.

What you plan is something and what life throws at you is something else; a completely different story that you may never have prepared yourself for. It may be better than what you've expected, but it can also be worse. Everything depends on your luck. As for me, I don't really trust my luck to be much of an optimist.

In my case, I don't really know if what I've once planned for myself was better or worse. I might have tried to fight life's plan more than once, but I have to say that I was blessed with the best days of my life. What life has thrown in my way wasn’t that bad; however, I have also experienced many emotions in a short period of time; maybe more than what I've experienced in my entire life.

I tried to fight my destiny. I fought hard, but I lost the fight and honestly, I don’t even know if I’m glad that I lost this fight or not. All I know is that I'm not the same. I'm a whole new person; probably a better version of myself. At least that's how I see myself now. I'm stronger, more experienced, and even wiser.

Better or worse, it doesn't really matter. There are too many things I'm not sure of and too many thoughts running through my mind, but I'm sure that I regret nothing. If I was given a time machine, I would repeat everything. Another thing I'm sure of is that I was inevitably captivated.