Fragile Heart

It was a bright morning, I woke up from bed and hurriedly took my bath. Just like any other day, I had work and today was no different. I need to be in the office at eight in the morning...my name is Ava Dawson, I am twenty-one years old and I have a fiance or should I say a boyfriend whom I love so much. His name is Jamal Nohea and he is twenty-three years old to be precise...We have been dating for three years now but after our graduation two years ago, he left for Mexico for work while I stayed back in Texas...

We hardly meet and I can't remember the last time we kissed, we only talk on the phone through video calls and chat for a few hours.

I pick up my bag from the bed and walk outside, my car is bad for now so I have no choice but to hire a taxi and as always I was one of the first people to reach the company...well, the second to be precise. The first has always been James and I wonder if he sleeps in the company...

" good morning, James" I greet and walk to my desk...

" good morning, Ava...how are you this morning?" He asked me with a polite tone...

" I am good, thanks, and you?"...

" As you can see, I am awesome" he responded and shakes off his coat smiling...

"good to know" I smiled at him before removing my phone from my bag and call Jamal on a video call...It rings for five seconds before he picks up...

" hi babes" I beam happily..." Hi angel, good morning" he smiles at me making my heart swell in excitement. I just love everything about him...

" How was your night?" I question ...

"I had a beautiful dress about us" he informs...

"care to share?" I asked, Abit eager to know what he has to say...

" Sure...in the dream, we girls married and had two beautiful kids...little Jamal and little Ava" he said and I laughed...

" Jamal the dreamer...till then, we are still together" he laughs at my words ...

" Talk later, have to go now" he said and ended the call...

I spent my whole day working, that's the only thing I could do. I am working hard for me, Jamal, and our future babies...I don't want to put all the work and stress on Jamal, so I decided to save money secretly without his knowledge. After my work at four in the evening, I walk outside and stood by the roadside waiting for a taxi...

" Ava?" a voice calls from behind as I turn the person only to see Clara...my friend from college...

"OMG! What a pleasant surprise...what are you doing here?" I asked feeling all happy to see you again for a long time ...

" Just came back, how have you been?" She hugs me for some time before letting go...

" I have can see.." I said smiling ...

"that's good," " oh, by the way...Jamal...he is back in town" her word made me frown a little...

" he won't be coming anytime soon...he is in Mexico," I told her thinking she was asking a question...

"no, I am telling you not asking...we boarded the same flight to Texas" ..."are you serious?" I asked feeling confused...

" wait... don't tell me you had no idea?" She asked and I nor my head felt sad..." maybe he is planning on surprising you" I could only agree with her words. I have her goodbye and took a taxi home. Though I was happy that Jamal is in town, I was a bit hurt because he didn't tell me he was coming, even when we speak in the morning. If he is planning on surprising me, then he should just know his plane has failed because I will go to his apartment and surprise him instead. I even have a spare key to his apartment which is a great advantage to me. I smile to myself at my plan.

I enter my house and throw my bag on the couch as I hurriedly went to the kitchen. I was damn famished, I open on the fridge and remove the orange juice, and gulp on it without bordering to pour it into a glass. After drinking to my satisfaction, I place it back in the fridge and remove an apple and bite at it. I start preparing dinner for one and when I was done, I ate and wash my plate dry before placing it back on the shelf.

I was just too excited in carrying out my surprise plan, I quickly took my bath and came out looking all fresh and clean. I was confused about what to wear, I don't want this to end only as a surprise, I want to give myself to him tonight...it's been three good years since we started dating and whenever we are together, the highest level of intimacy we can get is kissing and it ends only there but today, I want to give him all of me 'cause I know he deserves it, he has been patient enough and making him wait for any longer isn't worth it...I am not too good at dressing sexily but at least, I know a little. I check out the dresses in my closafterwith what seems like forever, I finally settle for a straight red handless gown that has a space in front exposing my cleavage and only reaches me on my thigh. A sweet smile on my lips at my choice as I put it on and spray my favorite perfume before letting loose as I brush on it, letting it fall to my back...I brush on my brows and apply light mascara on my eyelashes before putting on red lipstick complimenting my red dress. I didn't forget to put on some blush, I want to be at my best today, for it will be a special and the best night in my life...

" I will finally be yours...Jamal" I murmured staring at my reflection in the mirror. I was damn beautiful. I turn around and put in my heels which were also red, before picking up my purse from the bed. It was the only thing that was black complimenting my dark twilight hair...I check myself out in the mirror and I was good to go, but there was one tiny problem, I am not used to wearing such exposing clothes, and going outside was one hell of a thing...I turn to my closet and there, I saw my black cloak and a sweet smile formed on my lips as I pick on it and puts it on and I was now more than ready with nothing stopping me...

I hire a taxi that took me directly to my destination, when I stepped out of the car, I check on my watch and it was eight at the dot.

I walk into the building heading to his apartment and when I was at the door, I remove the key from my purse and opens the door...I walk in and the nature of the living room was not good at all, there were two glasses on the table with an empty bottle of wine and there, I saw his shirt on the floor...what surprises me the most was not the nature of the room but a lady's gown and handbag that was lying carelessly on the floor.

my heart crunch at the sight of it and quickly, I rush to his room and open the door, words were unable to leave my mouth as I stare at the two on the bed...I could feel my heart shattering into million pieces as tears rolls down my cheeks profusely as I watch Jamal, busily working on the lady and the lady was...Clara? I gasped in surprise and my hands flew to my mouth...

I couldn't believe my eyes, Jamal cheating on me with Clara? It feels like a dream and I shake my head to see if it would go away but the scene before me kept on playing...

" J-Ja-Jamal?" I stutter calling out his name, he turns in my direction and the moment his eyes met mine, he froze on his spot before he hurriedly climbs off her and starts putting on his trouser...

" baby...it's not what you think" he said and a bitter yet painful smile appears on my lips, like what the hell does he take me for? Seeing with another girl, in the act and yet, he still says it's not what I am thinking? How ridiculous...

" How long has this been going on?" I asked as tears keeps on falling off my cheeks nonstop..." three years" Clara said and I snap my head in her direction only to see a smile of victory on her face ...Does this means he has been fooling me all these years? I asked myself as I turn and run out of his apartment, I heard Jamal calling me from behind but I didn't stop, my heart aches...the pain was just too much for me. Immediately I step out of the building, I saw a taxi and stop it without delay and enter ...I don't want to see Jamal, I don't want him to meet up with me...

" Move please" I beg the driver in a crack voice, feeling betrayed by the person I loved the most, I didn't mind Clara, we were never that close in college but Jamal? All these while I have been living in lies and deception thinking I was living a good life...I trusted him with everything I have but I guess it was never enough...there is nothing like love, it has never been and never will...I was just living in my imagination calling it love that has never existed.