Forbidden fruit

No one knew it would come to this as I stood there naked wearing nothing but shame. As I stood there looking at the man I was married to for ten years. His face was full of confusion, sadness, and heartbreak. He is looking at the man I fell in love with. My husband realized everything he felt about my infidelity was true. He had the feeling of hatred written all over his face. The man that stole my heart, this tall, dark, and handsome man swept me away. I loved both, but my heart belongs to my best friend. Samir came into my life where I was full of self-hate and loveless nights.

I was once so happy in my marriage to Lamont. He showered me with love. He showed me that I am capable of loving someone. However, we had our issues. I was ready for marriage and yes, my mouth was ruthless, however every single time we got over a hurdle another tragedy stopped our progress. He has cheated on more than one occasion. The first time was with his ex. The story behind that is we argued over a stupid car. You see I wasn't working, and he was, and we just purchased a car. The car was in his name and as a married man he had the mentality that since he bought it then it only belonged to him. He always drove the car. Now without me he wouldn't be able to drive off the lot because negro was illegal. However, the argument led to him going over to his ex-house and he kissed her. Now I know you are saying a kiss is just a kiss, but his ex-girlfriend wasn't just an ex. He was going to marry her, but she cheated on him. She was the friend of the family, so she was close to him.

So, we moved past his one incident, but it came to him denying our marriage to strippers and random girls. We had a rough marriage in the beginning, but I stayed. You can call me crazy or stupid, but I loved him, and I fell in love with his potential. Now what drove me down this road was the last hurtful thing was he created a baby with a random. You see that took my soul and my joy, but I still stayed. Now we are here nine years later and I'm standing in this triangle I created. He had the best of both worlds. This man would be married Monday through Thursday and single on the weekend. I learned a man will do what you allow him to do. I know I shouldn't be mad because I allowed the foolery, yet again I loved him.

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Chapter 1

Samir's Intro

Samir O'del Jackson, the man that pulled off the greatest robbery. He stole my heart, but not at first. I met him at my darkest moment, when life was hell at home and the world seemed so helpless. We met during a parent teacher conference. I was talking to one of my student's parents and walked past a tall smooth glass of milk with pretty teeth. He was dressed in his work clothes all dirty but looked so clean. He was one of our schools' construction guys. I got so distracted I totally lost my train of thought and had to excuse myself. On my way to the restroom I bumped into this strong and tall man. Lord behold it was him and I just knew all of my juices started flowing. "Excuse me, I didn't see you there. Are you okay?" Lord I couldn't find the word yeah, yes, I'm fine, no words could form. "Miss are you okay?'' Oh, I'm fine. I'm sorry I bumped into, I wasn't paying attention. "No, it was me, every man should make way around such a beautiful woman such as you. Hello, I'm Samir. Nice to bump into you." I'm Mrs. Williams and it was a pleasure meeting you. "You have a nice day Miss Williams." It's Mrs. Williams, but you do the same. I walked away with a huge smile on my face. He was so fine and when I say fine I meant he is up there with Morris Chestnut and Kofi. His hands were so soft and his teeth were so pretty and white.

I arrived home and now I am welcomed to hell. Of course, Lamont is not home too busy with his friends. At this point I'm used to it. I can only try to be the best wife I can be. Life here was not all bad. We had good days, but bad arrived when he lost his job and from there he just didn't give a shit, but I stayed hoping he would change. The next day I was so happy to go to work. I never used to watch what I wore to work. I made sure I got to work early so I could see his face. Since I knew they were working on building a new library, I knew he would be there early so he can make sure his crew is okay before morning traffic. I arrived at the school with such joy like I'm meeting Morris Chestnut or something. I walked into the building heading to my class and it was chocolate standing at my door. "Hi Mrs. Williams, I wanted to come and apologize again for my mistake yesterday. I didn't mean to harm you in any way." It is okay. I was not harmed in any form or fashion. You can come in if you would like, I don't bite. Lord his cologne was the heaven of me. He smelled like fresh sunrise and Irish spring.

Mrs. Williams I wanted to apologize and make sure you were okay. Well it was sweet to come check on me, but I'm fine, I'm a tough woman so not much can make me fall. "Yes, well I will go back to my men to make sure we build this school properly." He started to walk out of the room and I guess something came over him because next thing I hear "Is there a way I can make it up to you and invite you to lunch?" Now you guys know every inch of my body wanted to shout because this man just asked me out, but you know I had to keep my cool. Wow I mean the teachers and I are going to a dinner tonight if you want you could join us? You can tell he was disappointed, but even though my marriage is in shambles I will not cheat or entertain anyone. "Yeah I can meet you guys, here is my number just text me the location." He left as my 3rd grade class began to enter. This is a form of cheating and I can't go out with him, but then again, it's a group outing so what can go wrong.

It was the end of day and I knew I had to hurry up and head to XOXO where we will be having our dinner. Lord, why did I allow April to pick the place? She is the ratchet one. I finally made it. I walked in and I can really say it was not loud and ratchet at all. Very elegant but with a splash of it was a man that built this company. I walked over to our table where I saw April, Michelle, Candace, Michael, Tyrone, and surprisingly Principle Stewart. "Hey girl, how are you, I'm glad you came." I am happy that I'm here. We need a break and celebration for our raises we will be receiving this month. The waiter approached me "Hi, I'm Sam. I will be your waiter. What would be your choice of drink?" I would love a Sunrise Ocean. "Oh, you're trying to get drunk?" shouted April. Everyone started laughing. The waiter left to get my drink while I patiently and nervously waited on chocolate. Hopefully he shows up. The waiter delivered my drink. April took it upon herself to order our food. I hope it is good because I am starving. "Hi, is this seat taken?" No, everyone, this is Samir. He is a part of the construction crew for the school. "Samir Jackson, but you can call me Samir. Lord all my juices were flowing, but I knew I couldn't act on it. This is April, Michelle, Michael, Candace, Tyrone, and of course you know Principle Stewart. He sat next to me as he started greeting others. He embodies sex and wears it well, but Ren you can't act on these emotions. As we sat and ate, talked, and drank I realized it was late I had to go. I have an early morning with my Saturday class. I began to gather up my things and said goodbye to everyone and began to exit. " Wait, let me walk you to your car. I don't want you to walk alone at this time of night." We exit the building together and I promise you it was the sweetest thing that anyone could do for me.

Seems like we made it safely to my car, Mr Jackson. I gave a small smile and as I was about to get into my car, I felt a hand press up against my hand. "I don't want to sound out of the way or overstepping any boundaries, but this is the best time I've had in years and I thank you for inviting me." You are welcome. It was my pleasure. I had a wonderful time as well. "Maybe one day you and I can have a moment, in a strictly platonic way. I know you are married so I don't want to seem like I'm overstepping, just want to personally thank a friend." Wow well I will see you at school from time to time, maybe we can have lunch at school. I got into my car and drove off. It was a nice gesture, but again I'm loyal to my husband even when he is not there, two wrongs don't make a right. I can say this though I'm so horny right now he really got me going. I arrived drunk and horny terrible combinations. I walked in and it's Lamont rushing to get off the phone. I don't know why he is trying to hide it. I know he is cheating. Hell, his messages pop up on the iPad.

"Hey babe how was your night with your coworkers? It was fine just going over school stuff. Now I'm tipsy so I don't want any conversation. I just really want to be fucked right now. I walked over to him and hopped on his lap ready to have my back blown. I started kissing his neck which smelled like a woman, but I didn't care because I just wanted to feel something even if it's temporary. He ripped my shirt off and began sucking on my nipples. He slid his hand down my skirt and started fingering me. All I could do was think of Samir and hands on me and his voice whispering in my ear. He started pulling my hair and grabbing my ass. Shit this shit feels good. I unbuckled his pants and started kissing his chest. I needed to lead myself down there just in case a bitch pussy was on his dick but surprisingly no pussy smell. I began sucking his dick. As I hopped on his dick, putting his balls in my mouth, swallowed every inch of dick. His toes curl up and he is grabbing my hair. I started going faster and faster. I know it's wrong for thinking of another man, but I haven't had attention in so long and sex is far and stretched. Before he could cum, I started riding his shit like a cowgirl. I started fucking him harder. All I hear him say is oh shit, fuck girl. I know that's when he about to cum, but no I'm not finished yet I got on my knees and he began to fuck from behind. I love this position. He began pounding harder and harder from this I feel like he was fucking another bitch. Next thing you know I'm squirting everywhere. Shit I didn't care if he got his, but somehow, he did.

Damn Ren we haven't fucked like that in a minute, you show go out more if you come home to me like that. Now in my mind I'm like you barely home for me to fuck, but I just agreed and proceeded to the shower. All I could think about Samir was a fine ass. I couldn't wait to go to work tomorrow. I'm glad they work on the weekend. I laid down to catch my breath and ended up falling asleep. The next morning, I was ready to get my day started. I couldn't wait to see Samir today. Even though I've been dreaming of him, it is still not cheating. I made it to work and the sight of watching my babies play brings me so much joy. As I approached my door, there was no chocolate man standing there. I was disappointed, but at the sametime I was relieved. I knew this was wrong. I'm here looking for a man that does not belong to me. Also I am a married woman and I shouldn't be entertaining him. I started my lesson for today. My kids were so happy to see me again. My mind was everywhere but the task at hand. It's the end of the day and no visit. A married woman shouldn't be doing this. I began cleaning my room, the kids made a huge mess. I heard a knock on my door and it was Samir. "Hi Mrs. Williams, I'm sorry to bother you, I just wanted to come see how you were doing. I see you made it home safe. May I enter?" I gave him a smile and nodded yes. This man is unbelievable. I couldn't get my words out right. I was stumbling over my words. How are you? And thank you for walking me to my car the other night. "I'm okay, I just wanted to check on you."

I'm so confused as to why he would even want to talk to me. I mean someone fine like him shouldn't find any interest in me. He looked at me with a smile with his strong voice "Well I will let you go and be safe." He left the room, but his cologne lingered for a while. His body would leave the room, but his presence is like a ghost haunting you. I finished cleaning and finally was able to leave work.

On my way home I received a text from April wanting to go out and talk. I already know what she wants to talk about. Her man has been getting on her nerves and all she wants to do is get drunk and talk about our failing marriages. I met up with April at her house. All she could do is talk about Mitch don't spend time with her, if only she knew about how my man keep cheating and fucking other women then she will probably be grateful about her working man. I spent at least two hours over there drinking and eating.

I went to the bar to drink some more. I have so much to drink off. When your friends give you their problems, I swear I take them on and then I feel their pain. As Jill Scott was playing and I'm on my third Sex on the Beach I feel this soft, but manly hand on my shoulders. It was Samir and the boy looked like he had a rough day. "Hello, Mrs. Williams, I didn't expect for you to be in a place like this." Well it is a bar and there are a lot of places you wouldn't think I would be in. How are you? "I'm okay, I just had a rough day at the construction site. My men are getting sloppy and I want it to be perfect." Well I'm sure they are just tired, but they will be fine, here go right ahead and take a seat. We sat there drinking and having a good time. I have not had fun like this in years. It started to get late, so I needed to leave. I could barely stand, so I knew I couldn't drive. "You are not in the shape to drive under these conditions, is it someone I can take you to, or can you go home?" I can go over April's house, she lives a couple of minutes from here. We proceeded to his truck. He picked me up because I was stumbling and could barely walk. "What is her address?" It is 2226 1st Street SW. I laid back, while he started driving off. "Why are you drinking on a school night? It is not safe for you to be like this." Look I had a rough day and I am pretty sure I will have a rough night. I don't need someone who dont know me to add his unwelcome advice. Don't sit there and judge me. At least I know my life is a fucking problem. He pulled over and parked and faced me and said," Your life is not a fucking mess. This marriage may be in shambles now, but things can change, your husband could change. If he dont change then that's a shame because if you were mi......." He couldn't finish his sentence. I could tell he had something on his chess, but he respected me too much to say it. He took a small deep breath and said," I'm going to take you to April's house so you can sober up, I don't want you to do this again, I'm happy I was here. Who knows what could have happened if I wasn't here or anyone for that matter". We locked eyes as if time stopped and no one in the world existed. I knew this was the moment, I knew the kiss I was waiting on was about to happen. As I got closer to him the emotions in my body started to rush. As I leaned in to kiss him, he snatched away. "I can't do this, we can't do this, I respect you and your relationship, and as a man I will not step to something that's not mine." Wow, my feelings were hurt. I really wanted that kiss, but it still turned me on. It was sweet, he didn't take advantage of me, but I wanted him to take all my clothes off and give me every piece of him. He started driving, it was so quiet in the truck. We arrived at April's, I got out and proceeded to walk to her front door. "Do you want me to walk you to the door?" No I'm okay I can take it from here, I'm sober now.

The next morning I woke up with a terrible hangover. "Girl what happened to you last night? You look like you had a rough ass night." April, I had a rough time yesterday. I had too many last night. " Who dropped you off? I saw a truck, it looked like Mr. Samir's truck." It was his truck, he dropped me off. We ran into one another at Bar and I sort of got wasted and he drove me here. I would tell her we almost kissed, but I think I'm going to save that for myself. "We'll get dressed, you can borrow an outfit for work. We have to get dressed for our meeting. It starts at nine so get to stepping." I took a shower and got dressed. I tried to look for something that wasn't too revealing. April knows how to flaunt it, so many can want it. My phone started ringing and it was Lamont. There were 30 missed calls. I called him . "Hey bae I'm sorry I didn't come home or call last night. I got drunk with April and passed out on the couch. "It's cool I didn't know you were gone, I just got home and didn't see your car this morning. "Well if you are just now getting home, what is up with the missed calls? "Oh sorry baby I guess I butt dial you, you know my phone is tripping, but I'm happy you are okay and I guess I will see you when you get off."

We finally made it to work. I ran to my class to make sure my babies were okay. I walked in my class and as usual my babies were loud. "Hello Mrs. Williams! Hi class, I want you to work on page 82 in your English book while I go to this meeting. I grabbed my laptop and proceeded to exit the class. "Mrs. Williams!" I turned around and it was Samir. Hello, Mr. Jackson. What is it I can do for you?"Well I was just checking on you. I wanted to make sure you made it safe and you were okay." I'm fine thank you for asking, but I have to go. "Will I see you later?" You can always come visit me in my class if you have any questions. I walked away, I know I shouldn't be having these feelings, but I do and I know I can't act on them. So I'm going to leave him alone. After two hours of talking about planning for the remaining school and funding, we finally ended. The kids were at lunch so I decided to spend my time in the classroom. All I could do is think about Samir. Okay Ren you have to focus on something else, he is not your man and you are not his woman. Knock, knock, and it was him. "You said I can come visit you in class so I'm here." Okay, you can come on in and sit. "I want to say I'm sorry, that night was messy." It was okay, I'm sorry for coming on too strong. It was not my intention to scare you or to come on to you. I was drunk and I do apologize. " I understand when it comes to having a stressed day, sometimes you have to let go and enjoy yourself." Smh, you are so correct, but I will not get drunk like that anymore. "You have a good day and I will see you tomorrow." A couple hours later and it was time to go. I'm so happy it is the end of my day, but I have to do this again tomorrow. I love my kids, but damn I am tired.

Driving home and all I can think about is that night of shame. A notification pops up on my phone and it is My Car app that tells me if something is wrong with my car. It looks like I have a flat tire. I pulled over and sure enough it was a small hole, but it looked like it was going to be nasty once I got on the highway. While I waited for roadside assistance, I called Lamont and of course he didn't answer, so I just waited. Time was flying by so fast. I called RSA again to see when their ETA and these fools said they would be here at 6. Lord, how am I going to make it to six? I'm tired and hungry and really need a drink right now. So it's now 5:30 and I just knew they were going to arrive early. A truck pulled up, but it wasn't a tow truck, a man jumped out and it was Samir. "Hey I saw you on the side of the road, do you need some help?" Yeah my tire is completely gone. I can't continue driving on this tire. " Do you have a spare tire? I can switch the tires for you. I have a spare tire and thank you so much. He switched the tires in no time. Do you want to get some coffee? I know it is late, I figured coffee is better than liquor. We drove to Mama Joe Ann Cafe, the best cafe in the whole state. I want to say thank you for saving me, you have been doing that a lot lately. "It is no problem, I hate to see women out alone, too many people dying. How is it being a teacher?" It is a struggle sometimes, not with the kids, but with their parents. You have some parents who don't want to participate in their kids' lives, and it hurts me. So I try to treat each child like my own. "Do you have any kids?" No I don't, I want some, but Lamont decided we need to wait. "Who is Lamont?" Oh sorry, he is my husband, his name is Lamont. We've been married for nine years. "How is being married?" It is good and sometimes you have your bad, but you hope the good overcomes the bad. "Do you love him?" I almost choked on my coffee, I didn't expect him to ask this question. As soon as I was about to fix my mouth to answer the waiter came over. "What can I get you two love birds today?" Both of us blushed as if we were teenagers again. We are not a couple, I'm married, we are just friends. The waitress had a confused look on her face. I will take a ham egg and cheese omelet with hash browns with cheese and orange juice. "What about you sir?" I will just have a BLT no butter. The waitress walked away. I see you are trying to stay fit. We both smiled. *You didn't answer my question." Enough about me, what about you? Are you single? He replied "Yes, I am, but I am exploring my options. I haven't found a woman that can steal my heart." Do you love construction work? He responded with a long breath and replied, " Yes, I have been building things since I was little."

We were there for at least three hours. It lightens my heart to see we can enjoy conversations. We left the building and started walking to my car. I was so tired, but I had a good time. I got in my car and for some reason it wouldn't start, I underestimated my gas tank and now I need gas. "If you want to, I can run you up to the gas station. I have a gas can so we can get the gas and come back and fill you up." I got into his truck and we started driving to the gas station. Lord knows I need to keep my composure. His scent, his voice, his touch, his everything just causes my blood to rush. We stopped at a gas station and he proceeded to enter the station to fill up the gas can. I'm sitting here contemplating if I want to hop on the dick or not. He got back in the truck. I could tell he was nervous about something. I hope he wants it as badly as I do. "I got your gas, let's get you up and running. He started driving back to the cafe. I began praying for composure, this man is too fine and I havent had any in a long time. We made it to the Cafe, he pulled over and parked. "What's wrong? You look like something is bothering you. Is it something I can help you with?" If he only knew what I would like for him to do to me. I'm Fine, I guess I am tired. My mind started wondering about every nasty position. The nerves in my body were in control. I started biting my lips. "Serenity, are you okay?" The next thing I knew I started kissing him. His lips tasted so good, like the kiss of life with a taste of honey. He kissed me back and grabbed my hands and pulled me closer to him. The kiss got intense, I found myself on top of him kissing him as he massaged my thighs, then my waist. I started kissing him on his neck, I promise you another beast appeared, this man took off my shirt and started kissing my nipples. I found myself riding him, his dick was marvelous, it had to be only made for me. I don't know why I am doing this, I know this is wrong in every way, but it feels so good. He pushed the seat back and laid me down and began eating me out. I never had this type of head, he was cleaning his plate like he was a dishwasher. My legs started shaking and I was so fucking wet. He had nothing but my juices all over his face. Shit is all I could think to say. Shit Samir, I am about to cum, damn stop, stop , stop, shit I'm about to cum. He stopped eating and lifted my legs up and began pounding. That shit was wonderful, he gripped my waist and pound faster and harder. "Shit Ren, fuck your pussy so good, can this be mine?. I found myself screaming yes. We both climaxed together.

We got dressed and prepared ourselves. It was pure silence. I felt so good, but felt horrible. He gave me this long stare as if he was trying to guess how I was feeling. Mrs. Willaims, are you okay? Did I do something wrong? You didn't do anything wrong, it was perfect. I got dressed and got in my car. "Hold on, let me walk you to your car." It is fine, I can walk by myself. I got in my car and drove off. My face was full of tears, I really betrayed my husband. I don't know how Lamont does this because I am sick inside. Driving home wondering if I was going to tell Lamont, how was I going to break the news, should I tell him even though he has cheated on me countless times. I arrived home and he wasn't there. I'm thinking, while he is still out, that I can weigh my options if I want to tell him or not. So I took a shower, and all I could think about was Samir and how his hands felt all over my body. His dick inside me, so long and thick. I swear he was trying to make a baby. I end up falling asleep. All night I dreamt of him. It was so intense and powerful.

I woke up the next day with a headache. I looked at my phone and I had 5 missed calls from Samir and 2 from April. I didn't want to talk to April because I knew she would see it all over my face. I definitely didn't want to see or speak to Samir. What will we talk about? At this point I am at the edge of the clift and ready to jump. All I can do is think of this man that I just gave a piece of me with no shame, no regrets, I just gave him all of my body. It was something about him, his charm, his personality, and how fine he was. I got dressed so I can have a moment to myself. I had a long night and no sleep. I went to Organic Park, this fabulous park where there is nothing but green grass, fresh water, birds chirping, and ducks eating. It was a piece of fresh air. This was the only park that gave me peace, hell I think it gave everyone peace. "Hello Serenity, is this seat taken?" I looked and it was Samir. My heart dropped. I can't believe he is here, I'm starting to believe he is a stalker. You can sit, it's a free park. "Thank you." Silence became the new song of the day. You can tell both of us were shy and scared to say anything. My heart was racing a thousand miles per hour. "So are we going to sit here and not speak to one another? I have a lot to say to you Serenity. I need you to know that I don't regret anything, if I offended you, I do apologize. I don't want you to feel ashamed, because it was me, I should have never kissed you." It wasn't your fault, I kissed you Samir. I don't want you to take the blame, I caused this. I'm the one that is married and I crossed the line with you. I should be apologizing to you. We need to set something straight, Samir. I don't want work to be awkward, but I don't want you to think that we are a couple or anything. I am still married and I plan on staying that way. You can tell his heart broke when I said those words. Look I don't want you to think this will go anywhere. "It is okay, that's what I wanted to tell you as well. I know you are married and again I apologize for crossing the line. I respect you too much to put you in a position of confusion." Thank you, we will need space, no need to be around one another. I don't want it to be weird at all between us. Are you okay with this agreement? All I can think about is our one night together when my problems didn't matter. "I can do that, I think that is the best option for us." He stood up with so much emotion on his face and said goodbye. As he left my sight, all I could think about was him and his smile, his laugh, his voice, everything.

My phone started ringing and it was Lamont calling. I was so happy to hear from him, which is strange. "Hi babe, I'm on my way home, do you need anything while I'm out? I'm not used to him caring for me. No babe I'm fine, I'm at the park getting some fresh air. What's wrong? Are you okay? "Yeah I am okay. I'm going out with Lawrence tonight, so don't wait for me tonight. I'm going to head over to his house after work." Sad man, he pays more attention to his friends than me. Yeah bae, thanks for letting me know. I held back my tears of disappointment and grief. This man I said yes to, the man I said I will love you for better or worse is not showing me the love I need from him. I'm trying not to go out looking for it in the wrong places. Then I have this other man that shows me the attention I want, that I crave. I know I made a mistake and it will never happen again, but how much disrespect can I take?

"Can you handle it, can I go there baby with you." Nothing like having some music playing in the background with a bottle of red wine. In this empty home yet again, another night with no one to talk to or hold me. I'm so ready for work already. The week I have had, I need a strong drink. I feel such a strong connection to Samir, but I know it can't happen. Laying down in my bed and enjoying this blunt and shot of brown. I'm too gone and trying to drown my issues and emotions. I have an empty marriage with a man that doesn't want to be bothered by me. He gives 5 percent of himself to me while I make up the 95 percent. I can't continue to keep creeping. Samir and I already fucked, but cant lie I want more, but the side that wants to continue playing dumb to Lamont's games is speaking louder than normal.

Bright and early morning and I am excited to focus on my kids at school not my confusing life. Good morning class, how was your weekend? Did you do anything fun? I can't lie, I do not want to see him at all. My head is too fucked up, I already have a hangover, but I have to get through this day. I will not get drunk again the night before work because my head is killing me. Okay class it's time for your lunch. I need you all to quietly go down to the lunchroom and I will be right behind you. As I gathered up things in my classroom I heard a knock. "Hello Ms. Williams, these flowers were left at the desk for you." One of my students handed me a vase full of roses. I can't believe Lamont surprised me with flowers and my favorite pink roses. I looked at the card and it read

"The Past left and never to return, but our Future is now and there is more to learn, love Samir"

Oh my God, this man does not give up. I placed the roses on my desk and proceeded to the lunch room.

"Mrs. Williams, could we talk?" I looked behind me and it was Samir. "How are you doing?" I'm doing fine and thank you for the flowers. "I remembered you told me your favorite flowers were pink roses." They are nice and I do like them. So what did you want to talk about? "I want to know if we are okay? I know we started off confusing and complicated. I want us to start over as friends, of course the past is gone and I want to start over on a clean plate. You are married and we shouldn't have done what we did. I respect you too much and I want your friendship nothing else. I didn't mean to make your life complicated. So what do you say, can we start over?" Wow that was a lot to take in Samir, but yes we can start over. I want us to be able to work together without feeling awkward. So we can definitely start over and forget about the past. I have to head to the lunchroom, but it was nice talking to you. Have a good day. I walked away with sadness in my heart. I know that's what we needed to do before it got out of hand, but damn it still hurts.

It is now the end of the day and I couldn't be happier. All I want to do is rest and drink a bottle of wine. "Girl come on, we are going to Toxic after work so let's go, you can ride with me. I packed up my stuff and closed the door so we could head out and enjoy ourselves. I can't wait to let my hair down.It is so much on my mind. I am a married woman that is unhappy in her marriage, but I have this chocolate smart man that is after me. We made it to Toxic. We got a table and I ordered my favorite Fuck Me Hard drink. I needed something sweet and strong. I want to be 7 drinks in and no care in the world. Three hours passed, I was too drunk and tired. I sat down at our table to sober up. I looked over at Lamont with some girl. My heart dropped. The pain hurts so bad. I never knew what heartache feels like until I saw him. I had some speculation, but never caught him in the act. I wanted to go over and beat his ass, but I pulled out my phone and took a picture and texted him. I never got a reply from him. At this moment I couldn't figure out why I had to suffer and stay here and be loyal to him when he is out here doing him. I called an Uber so I could grab something to eat and go home. While I'm waiting on my Uber I received a text from Samir asking what I'm doing. At this point I need to relieve stress. I responded with

" About to leave Toxic and go to WH.

You can meet me there if you want.

I had a rough night and I just need a friend."

I would love to, I will see you in ten minutes. My Uber finally arrived. I'm still mad about how he is literally out and kissing another girl and lied to me. I made it to WH and there he was this tall glass of healthy chocolate. He was dressed so nicely as if he was on a date with a very special woman. Hi! I didn't think you would come. May I take a seat? I sat down I can promise you my fucking pussy got wet on sight. "I'm so happy you came, I really wanted us to talk and have fun, as friends of course." We both had a smirk on our faces. The waiter came by and placed our drinks on the table. "I hope it's not too far but I ordered the drinks for us already. Would hot tea work for you? I know you were drinking and probably needed something more than Vodka." Yes, that would definitely work. What made you text me? I know we already had our conversation of being friends. So we didn't need another conversation. "To be honest, I couldn't sleep and needed to get out and I wanted company so I was hoping you were able to come with me." I'm glad you texted because I was having a terrible night and needed to leave Toxic. "What happened?" Now y'all know I don't need to be telling him my business, but at this point I need a friend. I started tearing up and it all came pouring out. I saw my husband basically about to fuck this woman at Toxic. He didn't see me, but I saw him and her together. He looked like he didn't have a care in the world. How could he do this? What am I saying he's been cheating but seeing it with my own eyes is just mind blowing to me. "I didn't know you were going through so much. Have you tried to talk to him or call him just to hear his side of it? Maybe it was some confusion" Confusion! What the fuck do you mean by that? I'm not confused. There is no confusion and a lot of bullshit. I didn't want to come here if you were going to think just like another nigga. Boy he could tell I was heated. You are basically insulting me. I know what I saw and that shit hurt like hell. " I didn't mean to offend you. I need to be honest, I don't want you to be sad and I want you to have someone to talk to, but telling me this only makes things more complicated for us. Telling me that someone hurt you and I want to be your shoulder to cry on. However, the man in me wants to take care of you.

Y'all let me tell you this man must be trying to get fucked tonight. I am sad and horny. I'm a complete mess but sex is the last thing on my mind. My marriage maybe over and sex would definitely complicate things. Samir, me being here is complicating things. Maybe I should leave. "No you don't have to go. How about we go to my place? We can talk and just relax." I know this is a bad idea, but I don't feel like going home and I don't feel like seeing Lamont. We headed out and got in his truck and headed to his house.

We arrived at his house and y'all this shit is beautiful. I can tell owning your own construction company pays well. He lives in the private neighborhoods where you have to have code to get in. We walked inside and it took my breath away. He had marble floors, with crystals everywhere. " Go ahead and sit here and make yourself comfortable and I'm going to pour some drinks. Would you like some wine?" Yes, red would be fine. My pussy is wet by his presence, but I pray we don't do anything. I will keep this box closed. "So do you like it? My mom designed the whole thing. She wanted to make sure it was ready for a wife. We both started to laugh. "I want you to know that I apologize for my comment at WH. I know you are not confused, I just didn't want you to overwhelm yourself." It's okay, I'm fine now, I have something to take my mind off it. We both looked at one another. Y'all maybe that wine is too strong because why would I say that? It is a beautiful place though, your mother did a wonderful job. I guess your future wife will love it. Y'all know I had to be petty. It's in me. We talked for hours. "I know it's getting late and I don't want you to keep you out late." Yeah it is late, I didn't realize time would fly by so fast. I guess talking does that. He grabbed my coat and as I was putting my arms through, and we locked eyes. Every sexual feeling was rushing all through my body. He grabbed my face and started kissing me. I wrapped my arms around him and kissed him back. This kiss was fire. He closed the front door. The next thing I know he picked me up and walked me upstairs to his room. He threw me on the bed and began taking my dress off. Y'all she was soaked already. She has been wet since the first text message. So you know it's going to be a slip and slide. I ripped off his shirt and unbuckled his pants. He started kissing my neck, my chest, my nipples, my stomach and oh my goodness he began kissing my inner thighs. He slid his tongue in my pussy. Shit! That's all I could find. He began eating like it was his last meal. He was eating like he was on death row waiting on his requested meal. I never came with oral and I think with him it is about to be my first. My legs started shaking and I promise you just by tongue I was about to shed a tear. He made his way back to my lips. His lips were so soft and each touch made it more impossible to stop. He slowly rubbed his fingers down my check and grabbed my left breast and began stroking it with his tongue. As he was stroking my breast, his soft hands managed to find themselves between my thighs. I felt large fingers massaging my pussy. "Shit Samir I'm about to cum, shit Samir! Samir oh my God. Girl next thing you know I squirted everywhere. My body was in pieces. "You ready baby?" I looked down and it was a massive dick in my face. His dick needed its own sitcom. He slid it in and I promise you all my problems went away. He started stroking and legs were shaking in 0.5 seconds. He picked me up and placed me on the dresser. This is a different type of fucking. I wouldn't even call it making love or plain fucking. He was trying to send a message. He threw me back on the bed and turned me over and began hitting it from the back. Now this is my favorite position. He was making this ass his. As he was stroking I felt something near my ass. This nigga put his thumb in my ass. I swear I found heaven somewhere in this room. I was throwing that ass back. "Shit Ren, you throwing this ass back I'm going to cum." I stop throwing and turned him over and began riding the fuck out of him. I was riding him like it was my last ride. "Ren shit please shit I'm about to cum." Wait shit Samir I'm about to cum shit." Shit my legs were shaking like a bitch. He pressed every button and buttons I didn't know about. As I lay there with a smile on my face he hopped up and began whipping himself off. He left the room to go cut the shower on. "I turned the water on for you so you can take a bath." My body is so weak y'all. This man stretched my body in ways that no human should stretch. It just felt so good. I walked in the bathroom and it was a bubble bath waiting on me. It smelled like lavender and honey. This water is so hot and feels so good. "Can I join you?" I smiled as if he asked me to marry him. Yes you can join me Mr. Jackson.

I went back to the room and he laid out some basketball shorts and a t-shirt. "I am washing your clothes so they can be fresh for you. I didn't think you wanted to put back on unwashed clothes." Thank you so much, where do you want me to lay while I wait on my clothes? "Don't be silly, you can sleep in here and so nothing else happens. I will sleep in the guest room. It is too small for you so I want you to have this bed." Thank you. He went down stairs while I slept upstairs. This bed is so comfortable. Lord I didn't think I would fuck him again. I'm not going to lie each stroke I fell for him even harder. What am I going to tell Lamount? Fuck that, this nigga was fucking off and for me to see it, is a whole different disrespect. He didn't care for me at all. Our marriage to him is second place and I'm tired of being second place. God I'm tired and physically tired as well.

CHAPTER V: STILL A BRANCH

I woke up the next morning feeling like a beautiful new woman. I swear every worry in the world has been fucked away. As I looked at myself in the mirror and I saw someone different inside. I don't feel bad about what I did. I needed to feel wanted. "Hello beautiful, I made breakfast for you. If you are ready to come down, we can eat. I bought you some sweats so you can feel comfortable. I will be downstairs." Thank you so much, I will be down soon. He left and I went to take a shower. This man is fine as fuck. Ren you must get yourself together. You already know this can't be nothing more than a fun time. All it can be is if I have an itch then he can scratch. I put on my clothes and went downstairs. I can smell the food waiting for me. "I don't know if you eat pork or turkey so I cooked both. Did you sleep well? I hope you didn't have any mind-blowing dreams." You must be a comedian. I slept well, thank you for asking. I promise you this man is shirtless and showing all his packs with an apron. He must want to get fucked on this table. I need to control myself. I'm acting as if I have never seen a fine ass man.

We finished eating. "Did you like it? I mean the food." The food was good and other things were wonderful. Shit! Why did you have to say that now you want to fuck this man? I feel like this is about to be another round. He walked over to me and grabbed my plate and before I knew it my tongue was down his throat. He picked me up and placed me on the table. I took off my shirt and unbuckled his pants. We were both butt ass naked in this kitchen. He laid me back and began eating me out. He came up for air and slid his dick inside my pussy. He began stroking and each stroke was better than the last. "Just let me do this, I want you to enjoy this. Samir shit, fuck, got damn it. "This mine Ren, Is this mine Ren? I'm not going to stop until you say it. I want to hear those words." Now the fact this nigga is fucking me like he loves me. Samir baby wait. He began eating again like an inmate. Shit Samir okay it's yours baby. Please, you are killing me. I'm about to fucking cum baby. "Wait baby before you cum let me hit that." He pulled me off the table and bent me over and began hitting that shit from the back. This man must want me to move in at this minute. He put his thumb in my ass and hitting that shit hard as fuck. "Shit Ren this pussy good as fuck. Baby I have to pull out I'm about to fucking cum. Ren shit what the fuck." Samir pull out please, pull out now. It took all his will power to pull out. Samir you can't do that shit. It's already complicating things that we fucked more than once. I can't have a child, I'm not even ready for one and will not bring one under these circumstances. I'm still married, Samir and I feel like you want more when I can't give it to you. "Slow down you don't have to leave, I know your situation and I'm not asking you to move in or marry me. I concluded that you have something going on and you need to figure it out. I can say I don't want to stop this we can keep fucking and enjoy each time. Whenever you need to get away from your problems I don't mind relieving it for you. So, let's get dressed and I can drop you off at home.

We can talk later, but we must get you back to reality. He kissed me on my forehead and walked me upstairs to the master's bedroom restroom. He began undressing me and turned the shower water on. I got into the shower. He got in with me and started washing my back. I know this is about to turn into another fuck session. My pussy is swollen man he literally fucked me. Samir we can't fuck my pussy is swollen. I don't think I have the energy to fuck again. "I know Ren, we are not about to fuck I want to rub you. This is all about making you feel better. Now let me make sure your body is all better including her." This nigga in mid conversation started eating me. "No fucking Ren just me making her feel better." Well she is feeling better, but I bet this will turn into a fuck session. Each lick and suck were getting me closer to climaxing. That feels so good Samir. Next thing you know I'm nutting all over his fucking face. He came up for air and started kissing me. "See told you no fucking just making her feel better.

We made it to my house. I pray Lamont isn't home, but then he probably is not. Well it is back to fucking reality. I don't know what I'm going to do with this marriage. I want to stay because I love him and want us to work, but I know I don't want to deal with the lies and cheating. We arrived at my house and nothing, but anger was on my face. "Ren, don't go in there snapping, sometimes just playing your part and making your moves smart is the best thing you can do. If he is in there just hear his lies and you make the decision to snap or just be cool." Okay I will try but right now I'm just hurt. He kissed me on my forehead and I entered my home. There was Lamont on the phone as usual. "Hey babe, where were you? I was worried when I got in this morning you weren't here. I didn't have any of your friend's numbers but I called your job and they said you didn't come in." Oh, I was over April's house. I got a little too drunk and passed out on her couch. Where did you go last night? Since you just got in this morning. "I went over to Lawrence's house after a long night of partying. I was too drunk to come home so I passed out there." Where did you guys go last night? "We went to XOXO and out to eat and headed to his place." I'm going up stairs to get dressed. I'm heading out and I will be back. I ran upstairs to get dressed. "Where do you think you going? You just got back so where the fuck are you going?" I just ignored him because it's funny he has so much energy about my destinations but catches a fit when I do 21 questions. He grabbed my hand tight and asked me again. I'm going out with my girls. We are having lunch today. I always have lunch with them on Monday. I mean you would know if you paid attention to me, but you are never here. So, Lamont, I'm going to my usual lunch date with my girls. You can do your normal leave in the morning. I'm shocked you even stayed this late to wait for me. You can go. I know you have a very important "meeting." I got dressed and left the house. He was stuck with the dumb look on his face.

Nothing too over the top but also banging as fuck. I was ready to dress to fucking impress. My girls are the best and they will tell me the truth. I need their ears though. I'm so confused and hurt. The man I pledged my heart and love to is cheating on me and for me to catch him just puts the icing on the cake. "Hey girl, you are here early. You must have some tea to spill." Girl I had a long week and a long night. You must prepare yourself for this conversation. I need you to order you a drink and food because it's a mouth full. I finally caught Lamont cheating. "How did you find out, girl? I know he wasn't man enough to admit it." Well I went out with April to Toxic and a couple of drinks and I saw him kissing another bitch. I was so livid and hurt. I left and ended up catching a ride with an Uber to WH. "Well I'm glad you finally see him for what he is. I'm glad you made it home safe." Yeah me too and he hasn't admitted to anything. This man looked me in my face and lied. I thought about it. I'm not going to talk about it, I'm just going to weigh my options. We talked for a few hours and began wrapping up our conversation. "Okay girl it was fun talking to you, but I have to get back to work. Let me know what you will do." Okay girl I will. I started to grab my purse and proceeded to walk out. A tall familiar face approaching the entrance. Good afternoon Mr. Jackson. I didn't know you eat here. "Good afternoon Mrs. Williams, yeah I come here every so often. Who is this young lady with you?" Oh sorry, this is my best friend Alecia. "Nice to meet you, Alecia. We said our goodbyes. Alecia turned to me and asked " Who is he and where can I find him again?" He is a coworker of mine. He owns the construction company that's doing the remodeling for our school. He is a sweet person. "Well, give him my number for me." No problem girl I got you.

I made it home and I was full and tied as hell. There was no Lamont to be found per usual, but I didn't care at all. I'm used to him fucking around at this point. I want to call Samir, but I don't want to seem desperate. I can't believe we fucked. My phone went off and it was him. My pussy got wet quick as fuck like instant grits. Hello! "Hello! Mrs. Williams, how are you?" I'm good, just grading papers. "Are you free to grade papers together? I want us to grade papers together." I was confused as fuck, what do he mean grade papers together, but it hit me this nigga speaking in code. Yeah, we can grade papers together. I will head to your place in 15 minutes.

I started driving his way. My pussy was already warm. Honey when I say I'm in the mood like an easy-bake oven. This is going to be fun as fuck. Why can't I have fun just like Lamont? Lamont has had several cheat moments. I caught him several times with other women and talking to other women. So, I think this is my time to fuck no feelings just fucking. I arrived at his house and of course your girl has the code to get in the gate. Honey this dress I have on is easy, I'm ready when he opens the door, I need him to snatch me up. I was wearing a green fitted short dress with some heels. I put on all the work. I had on makeup and my hair was put up neatly just so he could mess it up. I walked up to his front door. I feel nervous, but don't have any clue as to why I'm nervous. We have fucked several times by now so why am I nervous? I knocked on the door and there he was this tall glass of milk. "You are so beautiful Ren." My black ass blushed hard as fuck. Hello Mr. Jackson. "Please call me Samir, at this point we are past the formal shit." I made myself comfortable and he already had the wine chilled and food waiting. I know this is going to be fun. We are two people that knows nothing can come of this, so to fuck him and nut several times is a blessing.

"I don't know if you have eaten yet but I made all of this for you, just in case we get hungry." I wanted to fuck this nigga right now. We started drinking and held conversation after conversation. I can say I love that we can talk for hours and yet no action. "Come on, I have a surprise for you." Now anyone that knows me will understand that I hate surprises. I only have one surprise in my mind is that dick, but that's no surprise I have already got the dick. We went upstairs and he closed my eyes and we turned and I opened my eyes and it was rose petals, wine, candles, and everything you can think of. You guys this shit was so sweet I almost shed a tear, but I was scared as well because this is too much. We already made an agreement of fuck only and he does this. I pray his emotions are not getting in the way of things. He kissed me and instantly picked me up and started kissing my neck, clothes thrown everywhere, he placed me on the bed and began eating me out. I felt like I was in heaven baby. He got up and grabbed some handcuffs. He cuffed each hand on each of the headboard rails and he began eating my pussy. "What's your safe word? I didn't know what he was talking about. What's your safe word? Just in case I go too far and it's too much for you." I guess we can use the word Blue. "Awesome! If you like this too much just say the word. While you are cuffed to my bed, I will see if I can make you say Blue. He proceeded to eat me from corner to corner. He took off his pants and began stroking pussy. He started off slow and proceeded to gain momentum. I couldn't even last I wanted to tap out but you know momma didn't raise no bitch. When I say I loved every moment of this. "Shit Ren this pussy so good, who pussy is this?" As he is stroking I'm trying not to say it back but he was fucking me like this dick belongs to me. "Ren, tell me whose pussy is this. If you don't tell me I'm going to drill harder." Now this shit got my pussy numbed so him drilling harder baby I won't be able to pee for years. He kept drilling and I'm not giving him what he wants. He stopped stroking. "So you are not going to answer me. Someone is being a bad girl. He went to the dresser and grabbed an unopened box. He opened it and it was a rose. He pressed a button and it started to vibrate. He placed it on my clit. My body flitched and I started squirming like a worm. Each vibration hitting my clit. I felt her getting wetter. The bed was soaked. "Is....this....my......pussy......? I know I'm about to give in. "Ren!" Man shit I'm about to cum Samir shit okay it's yours okay shit. "Hold on baby, here I cum. " He released every child he could have given me all my pelvic. We couldn't breathe at all, it felt like we ran 12 miles. He released me from the bed rails and went into the bathroom to run me some water.

As I lay there with nothing but pleasure all over my face it was so satisfying. "Ren it is ready for you we can hop in the tub. Now I don't do baths with other humans. I can do showers we can shower together, fuck in shower, kiss in the shower, but to take a bath with someone else that's something I can't do. "We can take a hot bath together, unless you want to take separate baths?". We can take a bath together. We got into the bath and it was warm. He poured the lavender oil and Black Love body wash. You would think we were in love. "I want to make sure you are straight even though we just fucking, there is nothing wrong with making you feel good".

We chilled in the tub for a moment. As I was drying off I heard a sad sigh. "You are beautiful and he is a fool for hurting you. I proceeded to get dressed so I could head home. See you tomorrow at work." He kissed me on my forehead and I headed to the car. While I was driving all I can think about how these last few days I have been on fucking bliss. I never felt dick like his. Now don't get me wrong Lamont's dick is good as well, but Samir has a powerful thrust that I can't shake. I made it home and to my surprise Lamont is at home. I really thought he would be gone, I guess me leaving struck a nerve. I walked in the house and there he was sitting down watching TV. "Hey babe how was your day?" It was fine, nothing big, just lunch, gossip talk, and food. I went upstairs to take another shower. He followed me to the restroom. "Well I'm about to head out and go over Lawrence's house. It was something about this last conversation about Lawrence, it was like I didn't care at all. I used to bitch about how he used to go over his friends house and clubs more than spending time with me. It was like why argue when he will do what he wants to do. I gave him the driest okay. He looked confused because usually I would argue, fight, cry, scream, I would show emotion. You can go where you want, I'm tired of saying we need to spend time together. I see that you have your priorities set and I'm not number one. I went inside the bathroom, closed the door and took my shower. I can see now he doesn't love me and I've been in this relationship by myself. I got out of the shower and he was nowhere to be found. I laid on the bed and fell asleep.