The Unforgettable Pain

Chapter 1

Miamor Ferrara Pov

"Where the hell are you, boy? I asked my boyfriend from the other line in a loud voice. I held my phone tightly and I looked inside their classroom. I can't find him!

He told me he was gonna pick me up earlier and we were going somewhere, and I'm too excited for that! I also waited at the waiting shed where I often spend time there for him to pick me up and this is not a first time he has done it. Because he has done this to me several times, ha! That man has never aged!

I've been waiting for him for over an hour and I've been trying to call him but he's not answering his phone. I don't know if he meant it! Just now he also answered the call where I went to him in their department. This is his 6th year in college, he's a medical student. While me, I'm taking my two years of medicine too.

I'm done with my four years in college and I took a course in Political Science, according to what Dad wants me to do, because he knows what my future will be. I rolled my eyes.

He is like this most of the time. Nothing new, he is always followed and he's always right, right and right. I'm not complaining because I also have no choice but to be consistent with my father. ``Because I'm only his daughter and the pressure is on me. So I also do my best.

He also has no idea that I already have a boyfriend and God knows what he'll do if he finds out about Jaickel. I wouldn't let my dad do anything to that man I love the most, even if his behavior is annoying sometimes.

I didn't like my first course but I'm still lucky because he let me study again even for two years. That's the course I want too, to make and invent my own medicine. I would like to deal with medicine. But most of the time my dad is really the villain for the things I like!

"Meh, can we just go out next time, please?" instead that's what he asked me so my head quickly got hot. My fist is clenched because here he is again. Here he is again with his excuse.

"You made me wait for more than an hour and that's all you tell me?! Next time?! An excuse again?! Seriously, Jaickel?!" I asked him angrily. I heard him sigh as if he was stressed with me again.

I cringed when someone hit my shoulder and I couldn't stop myself from scolding the girl.

"Are you blind, Miss? You could see there's someone here, huh!" I asked the crouching woman and she was scared by my shouting. His shoulders shook quickly and he looked like he would cry in no time. With so many students who would do that to me, why is there a nerd like him?!

"I'm sorry, I-I didn't see you..." he stuttered and his voice was really shaking.

"Exactly!" I screamed and took a big step to leave that place.

But I wasn't even far enough to remember what I said to the girl. I tightly closed my eyes because of the irritation I feel at this time. I went back to my place earlier and the woman still hadn't left. I think I offended him too much. Bullshit, Miamor!

Needless to say, I gave him the burger and drinks I brought. While I was waiting earlier, I asked Dad's bodyguard to buy it and I actually left one with that man but it never came.

The woman almost didn't catch the white bag and looked at me in surprise. That's my peace offering because I yelled at him and I know someone saw us earlier. I embarrassed him. I even heard some people say 'stupid and clumsy.'

"I'm sorry if I yelled at you, okay? I'm just hot-headed and sadly you're the lucky one to face my whatever," I said to him emotionlessly then I turned my back on him.

"Miss--" he continued.

"Don't bother," I said and left there completely.

I'm always like this. When I'm hot-headed I often yell at people who are close to me or even our maid in the mansion.

Daddy taught me to be calm and control my emotions, like when I'm angry or happy. I should be seen as modest but in such a way that people will be afraid of me at first glance. Is there someone so modest but his presence is intimidating?! Like nothing! Of course I did that, but often my true nature comes out.

I am not a villain or a villain in people's lives. I just like this, okay?

"Mih," I heard Jai say my name. I forgot that our call has not been disconnected.

"Mih, Mih your face! Don't show me your ugly face if you don't have a valid excuse today! I don't always understand you, you're a man!" I was still interested in him then I hung up on him. I was still panting because of the volume of my voice.

I was still stomping in the corridor while walking and almost screamed so my schoolmates avoided me when they saw me. Maybe scared of my fierce looks now.

My cellphone rang and I answered the call without looking to see who the caller was.

"What?!" I shouted back.

"What's with the loud voice, Miamor?" I caught my own breath when I heard Dad's voice. He is very calm and what you think is also very smart.

Father Mozer Ferrara, or I rather say Senator Ferrara. He's a strict father and he controls all the people around him, including me. There's no exception even though I'm his only daughter. So, we are like robots who only listen and obey him because he controls us all.

If you look at him, he seems to be wise, very responsible, considerate of others, but he is not. He only does things that he thinks will make his name better just because of his current position.

He is so thirsty for public attention for his next run as President of the country. He's capable, I mean... Dad is capable of managing the Philippines. Even though he is a strict person, I know he is not a corrupt senator. He doesn't care about the money and he's not after it. Because it's in our family and blood to enter the politics.

And also, Daddy comes from a rich family. They have businesses and all of that I will inherit and manage one day. Oh, don't I have 101 percent pressure!

God knows when my father wins as president I have to follow him, in his footsteps. It can't be because I'll be the one who gets upset.

My mother Mary Amor? My parents divorced for a long time, five years ago. Because Mommy doesn't want Dad's chaotic life. He prefers peace. He once made my daddy choose. If it wants a peaceful life with him or a chaotic life without him from our father?

Yeah, Mommy can afford to leave me and Dad only chose one. The chaotic life with me and Mommy not being in our lives. They are both funny, because instead of giving me attention and care they put themselves first. What a selfish parents they are, right? I was not hurt by the decision they chose. I can't blame them. We have the same decision in life and I accepted that part of them.

All that matters to me is that they both never looked for someone else. Mommy is in Paris at this time and there she runs her business, a big Fashion Show and a boutique. Yeah, my Mom is a fashion designer. She was still a young woman and that was her dream and she was very good at her job.

While my Dad, he hasn't married yet and I know the reason.

He still loves my mother. How did I know? Of course, I always catch him watching Mommy on TV news or something when there is an interview and all the magazines that have something to do with my Mommy and it is featured, Dad has a collection. Her room, there are many pictures of Mommy. Often those are even stolen shots. He looks like a stalker but he's not a creepy. He just loves my Mom, too much.

And that's just what I admired about my dad. His true love for my mother but it wasn't enough for him to choose her.

We're on good terms with Mom. He often greets me and Daddy often asks me if Mommy called me. If he asks how is his life in politics. That's all and what most people know is that my parents are not divorced. Mommy was not at the important events but the media didn't doubt it. I'm fine with that though.

"I'm sorry, father. I'm just stressed with my activities," I answered in a modest voice and full of respect.

"Don't show that again if you are in a public place, my child. Did you finish your activities and class today?" When he asks about my classes I know what he's going to do.

"It was our last subject earlier. Why is that, father?" I asked him.

"Good. I will call your assistant and take you to the lunch meeting today. Ready yourself, okay?" I stopped. Lunch meeting. When he has a meeting like this, I'm never really absent. Even though I have class, Dad always excuses me just to go.

"Alright, Dad. But what about my outfit? I'm still wearing my white uniform," I said and looked at my white uniform. I even fixed a little mess at the end.

"You can drop by your mother's boutique. Don't take your time too much. I don't want to keep our meeting waiting, my child," he said calmly and my eyeballs rolled again.

Don't want to keep your meeting waiting, Dad? Excuse me? We are the ones waiting for them, duh!

"Yeah, sure father," I just said and he hung up his phone first. I sighed violently.

My class is only half day when it's MWF, so my boyfriend and I actually thought about going out after our class, but we just put it off.

When I left the university, my bodyguard immediately became alert. There are only two of them because I don't want many people following me. They are both women according to my request.

Red got out of the driver's seat and opened the backseat door. Red, she's my assistant and a close friend of mine. We only met since we were both freshman in college.

I sat down and just dropped my leather backpack next to me.

I reached for my large duffel bag and intended to put my things in it. Especially in this situation. I feel comfortable changing my clothes here.

To Be Continued...