My hands were shaking while holding the PT apparatus. I don't know how to tell Reagan. I don't know if he will still accept me when he sees this. Many tears flowed from my eyes. I don't want to be left behind. I don't want to leave Reagan. I'm afraid of being left by the people I love. I'm afraid of being left by the people I value more than my life. I'm afraid of losing everything I've worked for. I don't want to! I don't know how many hours I've been staring at the pt here in the bathroom. I don't want to go out. I'm afraid that if I get out of here, I'll lose everything. IM pregnant! And Reagan was not the father. I don't know how to explain it to him. I don't know how to make him understand. I don't know how to convey to him the misfortune that happened in my life. I can experience everything, just don't let him leave me...because I can't. If only I had listened to him that night. If only I had been careful. I wish I had made the right decision. I wish I hadn't chosen my life before. But it was my past life that brought me closer to Reagan... "I'm sorry, Reagan." I said while staring at the pt I was holding. "I'm sorry and I sinned against you. I'm sorry and you felt sorry for the mess in my life. I'm sorry." "Jade!" Fear and trepidation pounded in my heart when I heard Reagan's voice now knocking on the door of the bathroom where I was. "Jade, open the door." He said that made my chest beat even stronger. He kept calling my name but I couldn't answer. I can't face him. "What are you doing there?" He asked as he finally entered the bathroom. I looked up at the key he was holding. "Why are you sitting there?" He asked and approached me. I tried to hide the PT behind me. I was shaking and the tears in my eyes did not stop. "H-hey, why are you crying?" Reagan asked me in a serious tone. He held me by the shoulder and gradually frowned. "Why are you shaking?" He looked at my two hands behind me. I shook my head and tried to squeeze the PT behind me. "What are you hiding?" Reagan tried to snatch my hand from me. Because he is strong, he took the PT from my hands. I bent down and buried my face in my hands. I don't want to! I will wake up. I hope someone tells me this is just a dream. "W-what is this?" I heard Reagan ask. I can't look up. I don't know how to explain to him. I was raped. I was molested. I was almost killed. I almost died. And now, I will truly die. "What is this?" I heard Reagan's calm but serious voice. Not a single word came out of my mouth. It seems to be locked. "Veronica, what is it?" I looked up when he called me by my first name. "I-I'll explain." Finally, I said it too. "what is this Veronica?" I was startled when it screamed. "answer what is it?" He grabbed me by the shoulder. I feel the tightness. "I-I'm hurt." I tried to remove Reagan's hand from my shoulder but it was strong and he only pressed his fingers on my shoulder even more. "Pregnant?" It screamed again. Little by little I nodded and my eyes were staring at him with tears. "I, I was raped by---" "Shut your fucking mouth, you slut! I came here to confront you of something and now...now I've proven that you still have a relationship with that man!" He interrupted what I was going to say. "W-what?" I tried to make a sound. I was raped by that demon. "don't deny it VERONICA. He came to my office to give me these. It was you and him making out. Now, do you expect that I will still listen to your explanations? After seeing you with this?" And he raised his PT. I reached for the envelope he was holding and looked at its contents. It was me and that guy in bed, both naked. He was lying down while I was on top of him. "no Reagan, I was blackmailed" "Oh come on, Veronica. That is an old drama. You think we are in a movie where you will say that man made you drink so you fell asleep and he took advantage of you? Or is that man going to hurt the love of your life? you agreed to what he wanted? Enough with that fantasy, you bitch!" I shed more tears when he called me a bitch. I can not accept. I'm hurting. "Shit Veronica. We're getting married in two days and I'll find out? You're still a whore!" It turned back. I tried to hold his hand but he just pushed me aside. "Please Reagan, listen to me." I cried. "Stop me, Veronica." "Please, Reagan." It stopped at the door of our apartment and looked at me. "You know what? You just proved to me that a slut will always be a slut." Then he pushed me and left the apartment. I was left on the ground, crying. I can't handle it. Please, Reagan! My eyes won't stop from shedding tears. I don't want to feel alone again. Please, Reagan. Please! All I do is cry. I looked up at our balcony. I don't want this child. I don't want my life. I don't want myself. I already gave my all and I was left with nothing now. Reagan is my everything and now that he's gone, my everything turns to nothing. "I'm sorry." I said while holding my.
Chapter 1
Veronica's POV
"Doc, how is my mother doing?" I asked the doctor when I entered the hospital.
I finished work at four in the morning, so I only went to the hospital today. I was in a hurry when I found out that my mother was attacked again by her stomach pain.
"Hija, I'm going to tell you, we need to remove your mother's tumor from her fallopian tube because it's growing, it's dangerous and she could die. Your mother has been confined here for almost a month, your bills. " The doctor answered me before leaving.
I looked at my mother lying in the hospital bed.
I'm sorry if I can't treat you right now. I'm still saving. But just tell me and I will be able to save five hundred thousand to treat you. It's just a fight, mother.
I turned and walked out of the hospital. I can't look at my mother for a long time while I don't have any treatment for her. Also, it will only make me angry when he sees that I visited him again.
I went home to sleep because our club was tiring with the number of customers yesterday. Because it's Friday, many people go out to have fun.
I dropped my body on the bed without a mattress. I'm very sleepy and tomorrow at nine o'clock I still have work.
Yes I still go in even though I work at night. I am a first year college student taking an engineering course.
I'm studying because I want to get out of the club I belong to. I want to live in a way that is more pleasant and more respectable for others.
I had no choice but to join as a dancer in the club that my mother used to attend. I dance with only my bra and panties on. But we were masked so somehow the shame of my body was relieved.
No one at our school knew that I joined the club as a dancer. I don't want them to know either.
My mother used to be a dancer at the club I used to attend. He had a customer he loved very much. That's my father.
Mother got pregnant and I became the result. But when he was about to tell my father about me, he heard that he had left for another country.
I don't know the whole story, but that's all that sister Hermei, our Madam at the club who used to work with mother, told me.
I must admit that my mother did not treat me well. But I still consider her my mother and I still love her.
After all, he should have aborted me because I was an 'unwanted baby'. But my mother still brought me back to life.
That's why I'm not giving up just to get my mother treated. I will be able to enter as a female comforter.
I don't like this job but I earn a lot here. I get tipped by the men I date.
I just felt the touching touch of different men on my body. I don't have a choice.
But I'm only up to the table.
I woke up when my keypad cellphone that I just bought for 100 pesos rang.
"Is this Miss Atara?" The woman on the other line asked.
"Yes."
"I just want to inform you Miss that your mother is in the operating room and the doctor asks for your consent if we will continue the operation." The nurse answered.
I immediately got up to tidy up a bit and walked out.
"Ma'am, is it Mrs. Atara?" I asked the nurse at the information desk.
"Ma'am, she's in the operating room. This is the consent form." He handed me the paper. "Kindly sign this so we can do the operation."
I immediately signed the consent form because I knew that mother's illness was serious. If the tumor in her fallopian tube bursts, she will die. I can't do that.
"Ok Ma'am, you can sit there now." The nurse said that's why I sat down first.
After more than two hours, the doctor came out of the operating room.
"Doc, how is my mother?" I open here.
"The operation was successful. We just have to wait for your mother to wake up, but she's stable. We will transfer her to her room after the wrap up." The doctor answered so I breathed a sigh of relief.
I went home and decided not to go in to sleep at least because I was going to work early later.
I woke up around five in the afternoon so I got up right away to get ready.
I walked to work. I have to save because mother's surgery has gone on. I need to pay the hospital.
"Oh Jade. Why is it your morning for time in?" Jasmin greeted me when I entered the club.
"My mother has already had surgery. I need a lot of money." I said and walked to the dressing room to get dressed in my black panther uniform.
"Oh Jade! What a morning you are." Madam Hermei said when I entered the dressing room. "It's just that Lessly wasn't there so you danced on the hot night."
I just nodded and got undressed to get dressed.
"It's a girl, in our job you can't get five hundred thousand right away just like that. You have to go deeper." I looked at Jasmin. "What if you just look for 4M?"
"4M?" I said in surprise.
"4M, don't you know that since we've been working here for a long time? 4M, Old Rich Dies Easily!"
My eyes widened at what he said.
"A-ah, I-I'm still young." I said here.
"Girl, you work as a club dancer. That's not childish work. Come on, be aware of the fact that you are no longer a child in this kind of conversation." He said. "Oh wait, someone is calling me." He said goodbye before leaving.
I don't know why I think about that. I don't know why I'm thinking about what Jasmin told me.
I finished dancing as the Black Panther and now I'm dressed in red as a horse with a tail on the back.
"Oh Jade, it's you again for the hot night." Madam Hermei called me.
I went out and started touching the pole. I know Lessly's dancing here because I watch her.
I just apologized giving emphasis to the tail that was stuck to the back of my short shorts.
I just danced when I saw a man who I thought was in his 60's. What Jasmin said to me entered my mind.
I also immediately ignored it and tried to avoid the sticky look of the old man I saw.
"Jade, someone is looking for you." Madam Hermei said to me when she entered the dressing room. "Give it to me now. Maybe that will help you." It suddenly whispered to me.
"What? Table?" I ask here. It's because I'm not trying to be stable, so Madam is not forcing me because she's also my mother's friend.
"I hope so. You also need money. Don't worry, I'll still look after you." He said more.
I also went out after I got dressed.
I was startled when someone pulled me. I immediately looked at the person who pulled me and I was very surprised when the old man who was staring at me earlier pulled me.
"Are you the girl who wore the sexy-tailed suit earlier?" The old man asked me.
I nodded hesitantly.
"Shit." He said and made me sit in the seat next to him.
"So how old are you?" He asked while holding the wine he was drinking.
"20 more." I said here that there was a hint that I was too young for him if he had any intention of taking me home.
There is something like that with us. It depends on the woman if she goes with the man and it will be decided there. Other colleagues of mine can tell me that.
"You're too young to work in this kind of place as a dancer?" He said and smiled at me.
I was surprised when he suddenly smiled because earlier he gave me a sticky look when I was dancing in the middle.
"Why are you working here?" It asked me.
I don't know if I should tell him about it or not. I mean, this uncle and I are not close.
"It's ok if you don't---"
"'My mother is in the hospital and needs surgery. It is difficult for me to get a job with a large income. This is because I receive a tip after dancing, I just give it to our Madam. Then there is also a salary. . This is because I think the income is easy or fast because we are paid every day. In restaurants, when I go in, the salary is monthly or weekly, so I only worked here." I have a long story here I need money every day because my mother and I have nothing else to earn. My mother is in the hospital, I'm alone in our small house that we also rent so I have to stretch a bone.
"Are you still studying?" Mom asked me.
"Yes. I'm still going in to graduate. I also want to get out of this place so I can get a white collar job, I'm still studying." I answered this and thought about my dream of becoming a civil engineer.
"You're so diligent." He smiled at me so I smiled too. "How's your mother, by the way?"
"He's still in the hospital. He just finished the operation." I looked at Jasmin who was passing by and the dog was smiling at me.
I remembered the 4M he said earlier.
Veronica, bad manipulator.
It's like I'm talking to myself with my mind.
"By the way, what's your name?" It asked me.
My system panicked a bit.
It's ok even if you don't say your real name, right?
It can be a nickname.
That's right, I just gave it my nickname.
"I'm Jade." Let me introduce you here.
"Jade." He repeated my name and nodded his head. "I am Will, Will Almonicar." It was an acquaintance so I reached out my hand to it. He reached for his.
We talked until someone called him so he had to go out.
I also left because he was with his staff on the way out, so he might have left as well.
"Hey girl! Do you agree with my 4M suggestion?" Jasmin greeted me when I entered the dressing room.
"No. I don't want to use people." I said here and was fixing my things because I said goodbye that I was going out early to watch over my mother and also make my plate that was due the next day.
"Hey, it's not like that. But do you really expect to find 500 thousand in just one month, your hospital bill is getting bigger and bigger while your mother's stay is getting longer and longer." He said before going out.
I held my breath.
What he said was true. It's impossible for me to find 500 thousand in a month. Our hospital bills keep getting bigger and bigger.
I don't know what to do, if I should stop studying or get another job. 'I really do not know.
After I got dressed, I said goodbye to Madam Hermei.
"Whose is this from?" I asked when he handed me 1200 pesos.
"Give it to the old man you tabled earlier." Madam answered. "I told you, you'll save a lot if you keep doing it."
I don't know if I should be happy or nervous because the old man handed me too much money.
I went straight to the hospital to visit my mother and pay our hospital bill slowly.
"Ma'am, the 500 thousand for your mother's operation has already been paid." The nurse told me when I went to pay at least 10 thousand.
"Ho? Who paid?" I asked the nurse curiously.
"I didn't introduce myself, but I got a letter." The nurse said and handed over my letter. I took it and sat down to open it. Miss Sexy Tailed Suit,
I was moved by your story so I paid for your hospital bills. See you in the club tomorrow.
Mr. Will
My eyes widened when I read Mr. Will sent me the letter and paid my hospital bills.
How did he know my mother's name?
So how did he know about the hospital?
He is quick to pay off our debt here.
Does it have a replacement?
What does it replace?
Why am I nervous?
Those are just some of the questions that came to my mind.
I was about to enter my mother's room when I met the doctor who operated on my mother.
"Miss Atara, your mother has woken up and most probably next day you can leave the hospital." The doctor said to me that made me smile.
"Really, doc?"
"Yes." He answered me with a smile.
After the talk with the doctor, I went into my mother's sleeping room.
"Mom, you can go out the next day." I whispered because I didn't want my mother to wake up. It will surely make me angry again.
"Mom, did you know? Someone was kind enough to help me with your hospital bills so we can get out. I miss you." Tears came to my eyes but I immediately wiped them away.
"Tomorrow, I will thank him at the club. I want to thank him for his kindness. I owe him your life." I said and kissed my mother.
Then I went home to do my plates due the next day.
To Be Continued...
Chapter 1 The Hospital
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Chapter 2 the club
24/09/2023
Chapter 3 our lesson
24/09/2023
Chapter 4 our position
24/09/2023
Chapter 5 Our School
24/09/2023
Chapter 6 Remember
24/09/2023
Chapter 7 The mansion
24/09/2023
Chapter 8 fall in love
24/09/2023
Chapter 9 the assistant
24/09/2023
Chapter 10 pretending to be his girlfriend
24/09/2023
Chapter 11 opening program
24/09/2023
Chapter 12 Boyfriend problem
24/09/2023
Chapter 13 She's my girlfriend
24/09/2023
Chapter 14 not yet the CEO
24/09/2023
Chapter 15 rich house
24/09/2023
Chapter 16 our kiss
24/09/2023
Chapter 17 The manager
25/09/2023
Chapter 18 relationship before
25/09/2023
Chapter 19 OJT in our own company
25/09/2023
Chapter 20 still forbidding
25/09/2023
Chapter 21 discharged from the hospital
25/09/2023
Chapter 22 more surprised
25/09/2023
Chapter 23 Our wedding
25/09/2023
Chapter 24 My tears
25/09/2023
Chapter 25 The PT
25/09/2023
Chapter 26 my child would be twins
25/09/2023
Chapter 27 My son is in the hospital
25/09/2023
Chapter 28 The truth
25/09/2023
Chapter 29 Working in the Club
25/09/2023
Chapter 30 the surgery
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Chapter 31 The hospital
02/10/2023
Chapter 32 she is discharged
02/10/2023
Chapter 33 Our flight
02/10/2023
Chapter 34 the hotel
02/10/2023
Chapter 35 back to school soon
02/10/2023
Chapter 36 business trip
02/10/2023
Chapter 37 sophisticated, rich
02/10/2023
Chapter 38 my first friend
02/10/2023
Chapter 39 Reagan to Palawan
02/10/2023
Chapter 40 My husband
02/10/2023
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