WHAT DOESN'T KILL ME BETTER RUN

CHAPTER ONE: GONE TOO FAR

It was in that moment that she realized that she'd fucked up. Astrid Meiji checked his pulse again in disbelief. Her heart raced as looked at her hands covered in the blood of the man she had claimed to love wholeheartedly. The blade she had stabbed him with was still lodged in his chest. It was never her intention to kill him. She did love him at some point in his lifetime. They were high school sweethearts. Jordan Miller was the only love she'd ever known. It's just that he's completely changed a few years after they'd moved in together. They even had plans to get married then. He was the perfect man for her. She wanted to spend te rest of her life with him. They'd been the embodiment of perfection from the first time they got together. Due to the fact that they'd been best friends for a while before they became lovers their relationship was even more perfect. But all this was before he'd changed into the sadist narcissistic psychopath that she'd just murdered. He'd been abusing her physically, psychologically and mentally. It had been going on for so long and every single time she'd tried to end things with him he'd manipulate her into staying. Astrid had was tired. She'd become completely numb and drained. She was also livid. What was love that she had for him had become an enormous amount of despise. She hated him so much. That night when he came back from wherever he'd been the entire week he'd found her sitting peacefully by the fire place in her pink silk pajamas, she had her long braids tied up in a high ponytail that made her cute face glow and her hazel eyes pop. She had a novel on her hand and it looked like she'd been sitting there for a while. Jordan had his own set of keys to the apartment so he could come and go at anytime, they'd signed a joint lease so it was his apartment too anyway. Astrid never knew when he'd come home and when he wouldn't so she never cared to wait for him. She also knew that he had another woman he'd been seeing for a while but never bothered to enquire about it because it's not like it would change anything. She just didn't understand why he wouldn't just leave her and go and be with that other woman. She felt trapped. Why was this man so cruel to her, all she had ever done was love him. She didn't deserve the treatment she was getting and this used to make her so sad but now she was irate with him. Jordan walked into the living room where Astrid was sitting. "Why are you still awake at this hour, you stupid bitch?" He asked in a slur. Clearly he was completely intoxicated. The time was around 8pm and Astrid usually goes to bed at around eleven or midnight. She looked at him briefly then looked away. "Answer me you dumb hoe or are your ears blocked by all the cum you get from the many men you cheat on me with!" He said this as he snatched the book Astrid was reading and threw it in the fireplace. "Do you think you're fooling anyone trying to look smart with your illiterate ass?" Astrid stood up without saying a word tried to walk away from him. His words pissing her off and she really was not in the mood to be dealing with the nonsense that he was bringing. As soon as she turned away from him, Jordan grabbed her roughly by the arm and when she turned back he gave her a hot slap right across her face which landed her on the floor in a loud thud. " How dare you walk away from me!" He knelt down and leaned close to her face and made an innocent face that made him look adorable as if he wasn't the one who was completely enraged a few seconds ago. "I missed you so much baby, didn't you miss me too?" He asked in a sweet voice. Astrid was shook. His actions were confusing her as usual. Before she could answer the question he'd just posed, Jordan slammed his lips on hers unexpectedly a gave her a big wet kiss. His breath wreaked of strong liquor like the inside of a biker's saloon. Astrid pushed him away. His muscular body was heavy and she could feel his tight core as she exerted much of her strength to get this crazy man off her. "What the hell is wrong with you Jay?" She said this in a weak voice. Her eyes held tears in the corners. Jordan looked at her directly in the eyes and cupped her face in his hands in the most gentle way. His dark eyes sparkled as he looked at her in the firelight. He then held Astrid by the hand and helped her up. Astrid was still confused. She really didn't know what to expect from him anymore. He was completely insane at this point. As she stood up she look at him. It was only then that she saw how messed up he looked. He had dark circles around his eyes as if he hadn't slept in a couple of days. He was wearing a pair of black formal pants and a tight navy blue Hermès shirt with the the first two buttons undone which made his muscular biceps and abs more prominent. He still looked sexy as hell though. At his height of 5'8 he looked like a Greek God. His light blue eyes and light blonde hair made him look like a Scandinavian Viking. Just as Astrid was getting back on balance she saw his face turn back into the wicked beast that had just hit her. His eyes became fiery and he had the coldest expression on his face. Astrid knew what she was in for so she took off running. She entered the kitchen and tried to rush for the back door so that she could escape her insane lover. But of course he come after her and caught her by the arm before she could reach her escape. Astrid tried to scream but he covered her mouth with his big hands. "Dumping you is not good for my image, I'll just have to get rid of you permanently!" His words scared Astrid, she couldn't believe what he had just said. Was he about to kill her? As Astrid was still trying to comprehend what was going on Jordan grabbed her by the neck and started strangling her. She fought hard to loosen the grip of his hands on her neck. This man was probably ten times stronger than her. She could feel herself losing the battle, she was getting weaker by the second. Jordan kept on exerting more and more power, he was clearly serious about getting rid of her. As Astrid continued to fight for her dear life, she reached her hand out and felt something at the tip of her fingers, and she grabbed it as but weak as she was it felt heavier than it should have. It was a metal dish, she swung it with all the might that she had and hit him hard on the head which made him let go of her neck. He covered his head as he felt a warm liquid dripping down his forehead. "I'm bleeding! You stupid whore I'm going to enjoy ending you now." Astrid used that opportunity to find a way out of the situation. She looked around quickly and found a large kitchen knife with a sharp long blade, she saw Jordan coming at her fast and she pointed the blade in his direction. In his anger Jordan clearly didn't see what was going on. He darted at her and that's when she pierced his chest with the knife with all her strength. She could feel the knife penetrate his skin and tear up his insides, she exerted more power as she felt a weird adrenaline rush as she looked into his widened eyes and watched as they lost the last few traces of life in them. Blood oozed from his mouth and with her last bits of power she pressed the knife deeper into his chest to completely put him to an end. Did she just kill the love of her life? Astrid pushed Jordan's lifeless body away from her and stood for a second in awe. She couldn't believe what she had just done. She knew she had to clean up the mess she made and get rid of any traces of evidence. The psychopath within her awoke, she immediately went to the pantry and grabbed a couple of chemicals and cleaning agents. She then rushed into the bathroom and into the bathtub she added a mixture of different liquids, she found a mask and put it on and a pair of gloves. Her throat was still in pain but the situation she was in did not allow her to pay any attention to it. Once she was satisfied with the concoction she had made in the tub she went into the kitchen and lifted the heavy corpse with difficulty and dragged it into the bathroom. As soon as she emerged it into the chemicals it started to dissolve. She smirked with pride as she realized that her mixture did exactly what she wanted it to do. The chemicals corroded Jordan and his clothes until there was no sign of him anymore. They had dissolved him completely including his bones, the solution now looked like a think red liquid of which Astrid drained and cleaned the tub then disinfected and sanitized it. She the cleaned up the mess in the kitchen until the was no trace of unusual behavior. After she incinerated the clothes she had on and all the cleaning tools and hopped into the shower. Her mind was buzzing about the situation that she had just been in. For some odd reason she had no remorse for what she had done, instead it felt like a heavyweight had be taken off her shoulders. It was a confusing yet satisfying feeling. When she was done in the shower she put on her night gown then headed to the kitchen for a cup of coffee. After all that drama she slept peacefully as if nothing out of the ordinary had happened.