"Oh, finally you're awake!" Kinse greeted me when I got to the dining table. I just woke up and I'm still very sleepy because I stayed up late last night reviewing our major subject. Today is our final examination for the first semester, so we really need to study. "Sit down and eat, I cook some bacon, eggs and your favorite fried rice with a lot of garlic." Kinse gently moved the chair so I could sit properly. "Thank you." I was a little shy to speak to him. "No probs, you're always welcome." I didn't do anything else when he himself spooned the food on my plate. I know that even if I stop him, he will still prepare me. "Good luck with your exam later." he said while still putting fried rice on my plate. "Thanks, I hope it passes." I jokingly answered. "That passed, you're smart. I passed even without studying. Hahaha!" We both laughed at what he said. After Kinse gave me food, he also sat on the other side of the table, in front of me. We both started eating while talking. "By the way, it's Reiss's birthday today and it's also our anniversary. We'll celebrate it at the beach resort that was bequeathed to him. Reiss said he'll invite you to--" I didn't let Kinse finish speaking, I answered immediately. "Oh, I can't come with you, I have to study for our 2nd day examination. Just enjoy yourself and Reiss, stay strong to both of you and please just say Happy Birthday. I'm sorry I didn't buy him a present, I was too busy at school yesterday I haven't been to the mall to buy him." He swallowed what he was eating before answering, "You don't need to buy her gifts. Reiss doesn't like gifts." he said with a smile on his lips. "Too bad you can't be with me." I thought he would force me to come, luckily he didn't. Actually, today is our last exam since our other minor subjects this semester took the exam first. I could have come along, but I still chose to decline their offer because I knew I would only be hurt there. "Thank you for everything, Caisen. I will never get tired of thanking you for the good things you did for me and Reiss." Fifteen gently look at me. It was obvious in his eyes that he was happy and very grateful to me. My chest ached. I'm hurting. I want to cry, but I can't because Kinse is still in front of me. "It's nothing, I just did the right thing." my mouth just blurted out at what he said. Even before my tears completely fell I spoke again. "Let's eat, let's play here in the morning. I'm still late, I might not be able to pass the exam. I really blame you Kinse, you're talking." I joke to cover the pain I feel now. Fifteen giggled while trying to finish his breakfast. "Sorry." he answered briefly and continued to eat again, so did I. He is Kinse Demarco, the heartthrob at the university I attend. Many students admire him especially whenever he plays volleyball. Because they say Kinse is more handsome when he is inside the court. And I'm Caisen Quintero. Just a normal student and not noticed by most. You are wondering, why I share a house with a Fifteen Demarco? Well, because we are married. It was a forced marriage done by our parents. But it's not the same as what you hear that because of business why we both got married. This is what his grandfather and my grandfather agreed upon. Their reason? Just a long story. Kinse is kind and obedient to his parents and what they command him, he obeys even against his will. We have the same attitude, that's why even though we don't want this marriage, we still agree. Before the two of us got together, Kinse already had a girlfriend. He is Reiss Perkins. Kinse loves Reiss very much because he is very kind and understanding. So when we were about to get married, Kinse was very depressed because Reiss broke up with her only for Kinse to follow her parents' wishes. But because I'm kind, I made a way to not destroy their relationship. I helped them meet and be together every day without Kinse's parents knowing. I myself explained to Reiss that we did not want this marriage and that Kinse really wanted to marry him. Reiss understood this so he and Kinse reconciled again. I created a 4 rules between me and Kinse. First, we're going to continue this marriage and just pretend we're happily living together in the same house when our parents come to visit us. Second, I will let him and Reiss see each other every day but every time he comes home he will buy me marshmallows. Hahahaha! Third, we will keep our marriage secret from others, except our friends. Lastly, the rule I made that only I know. "Never fall in love with Kinse DeMarco." I will never fall for Kinse even though she is kind and sweet to me sometimes. I don't think Kinse will love me as a real wife. I know it's unlikely to happen, because he already has Reiss who loves him and besides that we're both boys. It's unlikely that will happen because Kinse is straight. I made that rule because I thought I could stop myself from falling for him, but I didn't. Because I real
Chapter 1 our classmate
chapter 1
"Kinse is really handsome, his future girlfriend is lucky, isn't he guys!?" one of my classmates loved the language. Here we are now hanging out on the volleyball court. Since we have vacant time today, we decided that we would all hang out here as a class. But I didn't expect Kinse's group to be here practicing volleyball.
Amila and Yawe and I looked at each other. Those two are my friends who only know that I am married to Kinse.
"What girlfriend? You're married." Amila answered meaningfully. "His future wife is lucky. He's so hot and yummy. If I were to be his wife, I would cuddle him all day long."
It's a flirty promise.
I just rolled my eyes. This girl really doesn't care.
"Huh!? Why does he have a fiance or a live-in!? Omjey! I just found out now."
"B*bita, who said he's already with someone!? I didn't say anything, I said he's lucky to be married." Amila clarified.
I just sighed and let this friend of mine answer our classmate. While they were arguing and our other classmates were laughing because of the two of them, I was just silently watching Kinse hitting the ball over and over again.
He's so fine when playing volleyball, he's just calm and always smiling even though he's obviously tired. He still looks handsome and fresh even though he is drenched in sweat.
"If I were a wife, I would really creep her out tonight." I took my eyes off Kinse and looked at Yawe next to me.
"You don't need to drool, if only the way you looked at Kinse a while ago was naked. Your eyes are so attached to her. It's like you're mistreating her in your imagination." he whispered pissed off at me.
"No, I really like him every time he plays on the court. His volleyball swing is really high." I deny.
"Pussh, more excuses. But admit it, how does it feel to always be with him in the same house? You're really lucky. I wish I was married to him hehe." Yahweh's difficult language. Not even one. Amila can control them.
After a while, Kinse suddenly turned to us, she waved so that my classmates stared at each other.
"Oh! She waved at me guyss!! Kinseee waved at me!!! Aaah!"
"was me who waved, not you. I was looking at him a while ago."
"Hey, that's me, because I chatted with him earlier. I admitted that I had a crush on him so he waved at me because he recognized me. Aaah!"
My classmates started fighting. They didn't know that Kinse waved at me. I just shook my head.
"Hey! Your secret husband said hi." Yahweh whispered to me. I nudged him with my elbow.
"Shut up, our classmates will hear you." I disobeyed, while holding back a shudder.
"Shut up, our classmates will hear you." I disobeyed, while stopping myself from shivering.
Yawe and I fell silent when Reiss passed by us, with his friends.
"H..Hi Cai." Reiss greeted me when he saw me.
I smiled at him, "Hello." my answer.
"You're here, hehe. Hmmp, you didn't come to my birthday yesterday. I was still hoping to be with you." he snorted like a child.
"Sorry, I was busy reviewing yesterday. That's why I couldn't go. I'll be back next time. Belated Happy Birthday." I spoke to him quite a bit.
"It's okay, I understand you. Thank you by the way. I hope to be with you next time."
"Yes, I promise I'll be with you."
"Yeey! I expect that," he assured.
"Yes, hehehe."
"Nice, we're here."
"All right."
Reiss said goodbye to me and invited his friends to sit in front of us. My eyes caught Kinse looking at Reiss' behavior and waved at him again.
"The fixture has arrived!" Amila whispered to me. He was next to me and was looking intently at Reiss.
"Dzae, it wasn't you who waved. It was him."
I was a little hurt by Yawe's words. However, I didn't make it obvious to them. I kept smiling, even they didn't know that I had a crush on Kinse. I don't want to tell them that. Only I know my true feelings for Kinse. I have no intention of telling that to anyone else, not even my friends.
"What are you doing, don't be angry with Reiss. He's kind to me. So I hope you don't get annoyed with him. Because after all, I'm the one who has been the obstacle in their relationship now."
"Pussh, that's just a human, Cai. Believe me, that's bad behavior like what I read on wattpad." Amila insisted to me.
"Reiss is different, don't compare him to the characters you read in the book. If he's not nice why did he break up with Kinse when we were about to get married?"
"Just pretend to be human, so that Kinse will feel sorry for her. I already know the behavior of such women, Cai. Believe me." Amila convinced me. But I still don't believe what he says.
Our conversation stopped when Kinse approached Reiss. Reiss stood up and took something from his shoulder bag. A handkerchief, he gave it to Kinse to wipe the dripping sweat.
Kinse's teammates cheered to tempt him as well as Reiss' friends.
Meanwhile, my classmates were equally frowning while looking at the behavior of Kinse and Reiss.
"We almost forgot, Kinse has Reiss. She's lucky and she's the girlfriend of our crush guys! Huhuhu." Tasha's tears flowed. The treasurer of our section.
My classmates agreed.
"Yes, when will they separate?" Ophelia stretched.
"Shut up, as if if they break up you have hope."
Ophelia just winced when Amila blocked her.
"Look at that man, he didn't even look at you. Don't say hello, just focus on that girl."
"Leave it, we talked about it that it's okay if we don't pay attention here at school."
"Why? She's embarrassed that others know she's married to the same guy?"
"Shut up there queer, others can hear you." Yawe disobeyed Amila. "The better thing is, let's just leave here. Let's go to another area of our school. It seems like we're more stressed here."
He stood up and pulled both Amila and me. We left our classmates to continue gossiping. We headed to the soccer field and played soccer while watching the soccer players play. Because of my flirtatious friends who are constantly yelling and paying attention to the soccer players, I forgot about the Kinse and Reiss scene. Somehow the jealousy I felt earlier was alleviated.
I am now alone waiting for a ride here on the side of the road in front of our school. Yawe and Amila went home first, because Yawe had a family gathering and Amila went out with her cousins. I had no choice but to commute because I didn't use my car. I'm used to riding a jeep so it's okay.
I only spent a few minutes waiting when I saw a jeep approaching, I was about to let it go when a black car parked in front of me.
My chest heaved because I immediately recognized whose car it was.
'Kinse's car.'
He slowly lowered the windshield of his car in front of me and looked at it.
"Psst, get on."
I smiled, "Don't worry, I'll just go to the jeep. Thank you." I acted as if the two of us just talked.
He snorted, "Pssh. It's not your thing to be polite haha. Get on before I give you a ride."
I looked around first. There weren't many students passing by so I quickly opened the door of his car and got in right away.
This is the first time that Kinse let me ride in his car from school. Sometimes we go home together. Because they are always together with Reiss.
'Just now Reiss is not by her side. Why is it?'
"What's up and you seem to be having fun today?" I asked him with a frown when I noticed that his smile almost reached his ears.
"I'll tell you later. Before that, let's go to the mall and shop for foods. Let's have a movie marathon. Hehehe."
Kinse is weird now, what's wrong?
I totally thought they won again in the volleyball tournament they participated in and he was the MVP again.
But while we were traveling, my eyes caught a red mark near his neck.
A hickey.
The joy I feel now is gone. I'm already getting an idea of what fun things he's going to say to me.
My chest feels heavy. I hope my suspicion is not correct.
Fifteen is indeed a handsome guy. Many women like him. Even gays and bisexuals in our school can't escape the aura and the beauty of a man he held. He can easily pull off both boys and girls in our school with just his simple smirk and 'Hi!'
Although many people are crazy about his good looks, of course there are people who are also for them. Kinse's handsome man is normal, and I am one of them. No matter what angle, no matter how well her outfits fit her. I'm not really attracted. That's why I used to ask myself, is that man really handsome and almost all the girls in our school talk about his name?
Not until we started living in one roof, I found out the reasons why girls are craving for his love and attention.
Kinse is a caring man, he always says hello to me every time I come home from school, if I have eaten because he will cook for me. He also always prepares me breakfast and dinner. Kind, polite and sometimes mischievous.
Also obedient to his parents. He never disobeyed the orders of his parents for him even once. He follows it even against his will. Just like our marriage.
Fifteen is an example of epitome, everything is in him. Handsome, even kind. He is the man that a woman would really dream of marrying. So many feel sorry for Reiss because she is Kinse's girlfriend.
I didn't expect to get to the point where I like Kinse, I thought I'm vulnerable against his charm, but I'm not. With his simple 'hi', 'good morning, eat, I've cooked you breakfast', 'take care on the flight', 'good night, sweet dreams'
I started loving him.
As the day of our marriage goes on. My feelings for him are getting worse. It gets worse every time I see him and Reiss together and every time he lets me know that he has to drop Reiss off at their house. I'm hurting, my chest is heavy with jealousy and I can't stop it anymore. I'm totally in love with Fifteen.
But I know that I have no hope for him. He's obsessed with Reiss. He said he only saw his future with her. She wants to have a happy life and a happy family with Reiss.
I? He only thinks of me as a friend. That will never change.
"Psst Cai!" Kinse got my attention.
"O..Oh? A..what are you saying now?"
Fifteen giggled, then tried to recap our previous topics.
We are currently here in the living room, we just finished watching a movie on Netflix, and now we are just talking. He also told me the reason why he is so happy now.
And I was right, something had happened to him and Reiss. It was their first time. He was happy because he got ahead of Reiss.
Of course it's me now, pretending to be happy for him again. But the truth is that my chest is tight. I can't breathe as if I want to cry to release the pain in my chest that I feel now.
I don't know how I can stop my tears from falling in front of him. Maybe this is my talent, to pretend to be okay and happy, but the truth is not.
Earlier after he told what happened to them, he was telling me about the things he liked about Reiss. While he was telling the story, Kinse's eyes twinkled and his smile was strange. It's as if Reiss is really what he sees destined for him.
"What are you going to do when we get divorced?" he looked straight into my eyes. Waiting for my answer.
Divorce? By the way, I've forgotten about the divorce we talked about before, that when everything goes well, we'll both find a way to annul the marriage and get our lives back to normal.
But that was before, when I didn't like him. But now? I don't know if I still want to continue what we are planning.
" I don't know yet. I don't have a plan yet. why do you already have one?"
Kinse smiled, her eyes narrowed even more which added to her beauty.
"Yeap, of course I will finish my studies. Then, I will look for a good job. When everything is okay and I can settle down in life. I will marry Reiss and we will build a beautiful family. I want a formal and serious marriage if that time comes." then he gently smiled.
Right now, I have one request. I wish my grandfather and Kinse's grandfather never met. When our marriage didn't happen, I wasn't close to him and I wasn't hurt, jealous like this.
If this marriage didn't happen, maybe until now, I still don't like Kinse. Maybe until now, I still hated him because of those negative comments I always heard about him.
Maybe it's better if I still look at Kinse like that. Now I don't care if Reiss is his girlfriend until now, if she gets pregnant or if they get married.
I hope someday, I will lose this look at Kinse. Like the feelings I used to have with my crushes. That only takes a few weeks or months, it's gone. I hope the day comes when I'm okay, that I can really accept them for each other, that there's really no hope for us to be.
"I'm happy for you Kinse, Don't worry I'll make sure your dreams come true. You will marry Reiss and you will have a happy family with her."
Kise raised his left hand and patted my head, he then disheveled my hair.
"You know what Cai, I'm happy that you came into my life. I thought before, that our relationship will not be that good since we're both a guy. But I was wrong, in fact I had a friend who was told of the things I've resented in life. Thank you Cai. I don't regret that we went through with this marriage, even if we don't love each other."
Kinse really only thinks of me as a friend. But what if I confess to him that I love him, will he change the way he looks at me or maybe he will fall in love with me?
I heaved a deep sigh before having the courage to hold his hand. The surprise in Kinse's eyes was obvious when I tightly held his hand.
"Fifteen, I have something to tell you." my tongue trembled.
"What is that Cai?"
I breathed again because I felt like I was running out of air from what I was about to confess to him. I know I will do this suddenly, but I have no choice. I better tell him now than to wait any longer. It depends on what the result will be.
I'm ready
"The truth is.." I stopped for a moment. I couldn't stop my tears from falling.
"K..Kinse the t..truth is, I already-----"
I couldn't finish what I was going to say when his cell phone suddenly rang so his attention went there.
To Be Continued...
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