I'm Fixing You

chapter One

I woke up early to bake a cake. Manang and I also went shopping early. Today is Tristan's Birthday my loves. That's why I will bake him a cake. I will give it to him year after year even though I don't know if he eats it or not.

I was maybe 11 years old when I had a crush on Tristan. This is Kuya's friend. They were young men when they hung out at home. All of them have good looks, handsome and muscular bodies, but it was Tristan who really made my heart skip a beat. He is also a gentleman and kind. just thorny with women

I have confessed to him several times but he just laughs at me. Now I intend to confess to him. I confessed to him for the first time now that I am 16 years old.

Around noon we finished the cake. I put it in the fridge first. I quickly went upstairs to take a shower. I will soak in soap!

I prepared my arrangement. I took the Pink Dress that Mom gave me. And then I put make up on manang.

I sent our driver to the Venue where Tristan's birthday was. I saw a lot of people wearing a black tuxedo. Help! The whiteness of the appearance is smooth! And most of all the beautiful smile.

I approached him and handed him the cake. He immediately turned his gaze to me

"Oh Nyda. Thank you" he smiled sweetly at me

"Ahh. I hope you can enjoy that food. I baked it myself."

"Sure. By the way, thank you again."

When the party started I was alone in the corner. Kuya is busy with his girls.

I saw Luke go up on stage with his guitar.

he sat down in the middle and started playing. Everyone was silent listening. I can also hear the screams of the women behind me. Luke is so handsome! I can't stop blushing every time it's sung. I thought I was the one he was singing about.

"Thank you everyone for coming." He said when the singing was over. He stood up holding the mike and went down to the stage. He went straight to the tables. My eyes followed where he went

it stopped at a table.. in front of a woman in a white dress and I can't deny she's beautiful

"Camille.. This is one of my most special birthdays...Having you in my life completes me. and I want to be completed. Will you marry me Camille?"

The girl immediately nodded. I looked away and wiped my impending tears. I know they are but I didn't expect Luke to propose like this.

I went out to talk to Luke. I can't give up my feelings until now.

"Luke, can we talk?" I approached him outside where he was talking to a man. It said goodbye and followed me to the back of the garden

"Why Nyda?"

"You're getting married? Why didn't you tell me? I thought she was just your girlfriend" he sighed and stared at me as if confused

"When I confessed my feelings to you the first time I really mean it. And every time I do it again I really mean it. When I said I wouldn't give up. That was true. But why would you marry that girl??"

"Don't call her like that. I love her. I can marry her. I've told you several times that we can't. And you can't even like me Nyda. No matter what happens, what I said will not change. I won't accept your feelings... ever. Now that I'm getting married, can you please me? And you take care of your feelings?"

I slapped him. Along with my continuous tears. I can't talk about the pain I feel. I couldn't even find my breath properly and I was sobbing one after another.

"Do you think it's easy for me?it's hard every time you reject me it's like you killed me over and over again. But I didn't throw you up."

"You know I didn't tell you to put up with your feelings for me Nyda. You are still young and spoiled brat. You think you can get everything you want."

I covered my face and cried when Luke left in front of me.

I can't take the pain. My whole life. He is the one I loved....