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again, the p

her wave of pain, but, like how I wish that nothing will happen, something will really

s and pleas were granted. Everything is left hangin in the air and dispe

ked at me in surprise. The girl was furrowing her eyebrow

sympathy, I w

he feeling sympathy for the girl he is cheating with because h

ble and I was still sobbing restlessly and the

explanation. No, rather, I couldn't. I am afraid to know the truth.

will surely h

. I flinced under his gaze. I don't

a guilty tone escape fro

rt. I looked at him with my blury eyes. I a

lowered and he seemed to be in a deep thought. The girl behind his back looked at me b

t distracted and stared directly at her eyes. I watched them as they sent se

e was determined to tell the whatever he wants to say. I don't know what it is

the urge to turn away and ran far, and far away from him. I had the urge to cove

I can't find the energy to run or ev

and soul. It was traveling very slowl

is known in the neighborhood that you are not in good terms with anyone in your family. I can't bear see a girl crying

y this time, his eyes was already red and moist, his girlfriend clutched on his waist tighter. "But I never thought that you will get that attaches to me,

roat, I tried asking him without stu

. N

and that, that warmth you ga

sor

ght we were

all along, it was only yo

ey were sitting on and cried for hours. I suffered the seemingly deadth inducin

ier won't hurt me like this. But no, it rea

ion, from the man I t

or nothing. And here I am ag

ns of stopping. Without even looking at a mirror,

looked at it and

from my room. I am not outside the room unless it is dinner, or lunch or breakfast. I once tried mingling with th

nd it took me a while before I calmed down. There is still

ed a c

ds my house but I hit the jackpot

abbering. "Children like you should be at home when the sun

driver didn't care. "My children are also like you, they only return after

running excited to me after I got home from work and cling tightly on me when they were still you

ffectionate everytime they grow up, I don't want to accept tha

and hatred. I feel envy for his kids that is loved by th

e I am, struggling to find love from th

front of me, yet I have no strength to enter the lawn. In the background,

ering the house. I opened the door and stoppe

ar, I can hear my mother's exasperated

" It was my fathe

at is broth

ldren. Go back to your room and

? O

he excited step

brother was cheated? And my parents are listening to

y have a ch

bit hopeful. Maybe they

I stepped out. I saw my mother massaging he

thing and my father was

the distance befor

," I

She snapp

g slightly. I didn't ex

it was me, she closed her eyes and ask

thumped,

I

away in shock and ache. "I have more pressin