His To Claim

left. We knew the end was near, damn she knew and it hurt still. Truthfully, I don't want to be here, be here at the end. I have always felt this was the last str

was always around, to witness her that way and pressured me to get a life, like my twin Judy. Judy on the other hand, couldn't be around as she chased the life she wanted for herself, so jogging between availability, work and school wasn't the best idea for her, especially for her kind of person that needed the utmost concentration and interest. She couldn't afford to be distracted, that I felt left out. I wish she was around and I got so annoyed each time she called. Although, she didn't just abandon us, she checked in every time and Mom was content, found it sweet even though she cared but she couldn't feel that care in the warmth her daughter could give. At first, deep down, I wanted her to feel the pain, the guilt but it was selfish. Since that's all I could give in to now. Sometimes I wonder, what's the use of all this pain, when we can't even share it with the one person we are feeling it for. Death they say is true to its cause, the truth was staring in front of us but we didn't want to accept it. Not just me, Judy as well. I understood it all, all her grave emotions that it made her feel empty, us empty How could we have love, only for it to be snatched away from us. Nothing can be more petrifying than that. I'm glad all of Judy's hard work did pay off, now she has graduated, she was trying to contemplate the next step. She said something about a plan but that wasn't what I was interested in, not now. Judy leaned her head gently on my shoulder, as she sniffed once every few minutes. The clouds were slowly becoming darker yet we stayed watching. "Although I wonder, would we be okay? Now that we are officially orphans." I said with a sadistic tone. "You know Mom has always had things figured out, that we didn't have to struggle much. She did all the struggling that I fear for us, you know, surviving on our own." she sighed, giving it a thought for a moment. "We will." She sounded confident that I wondered what her plan entailed, that no sign of worry flew out of her tongue or made her eyes weary as it used to. "How can you be so sure?" " That's because I know we will get through this. It may not be a phase, but we will learn to cope with it." she squeezed me into a tight hug as she kissed my cheeks. *** It didn't just rain after we left the graveyard, it poured just as we got home. It took time before Judy walked her way inside the house, so it hurt me to see her that way. She explained that her heart sank each time she saw the house, each time she stepped inside. It showed I have to be strong because I could relate, it had nothing to do with the pain, it's just not being able to contain too much grief that it hurt bad for her, mine wasn't so good. I was not exactly prepared but I expected the worst but not this way. We tried to eat cereal, but I couldn't pass mine down my throat that it burned. I looked up to Judy, but she wa