Like the leaves in fall

eous and bereft of air. Kareen could literally not breath so well. She kept

can do

one s

an do

n do t

eemed to

ept reminding her of the impossibility. There was absolutely no scientific or sp

anger whom she has never been close enough to hold his hands. A stranger whom she didn't even know the first letter

plicable feelings for boys. People she didn't even know basic things ab

eling of being attached to someone in a way you can't fathom. For the greater per

people, which Kareen unfortunately fall

to walk down the fourteen stations of the cross. The periodical kneeling and standing was excruciating but

ed to be the party pooper or in this case the prayer pooper. Stations of the

the church. The church was like her second home. The only place where she could feel free to sing out her hearts

t her knowing. More in a way that brought peace and joy to her alongside the preachings of the priest. More in a way that people would consider crazy and abnormal. But hey, a friend of hers once

had a

to serve mass was what she couldn't explain. She could have easily fallen for some guy on her street or better st

n't miss it for anything in the world. So when the procession of the Priest and lay readers to the altar began with the

unfortunately near the mass servers passageway and she was just at the edge of it. At each of the fourteen stations, the priests, the

e there were strange forces lurking around somewhere and playing with her life. She didn't know how to feel or act. The only time she has ever been clos

a seat there.Since the first option of disappearing was obviously impossible she had to think

seat she planned of scamperin

face her fears which in this case was a human being, a mass server whom she was sure didn't even care if she was there or not. She wasn't sur

t. She had to check if she was breathing and to her greatest surprise, she

ut not when she had to concentrate on her praying. She kept reciting the mantras in her head but it made her feel mor

e and the voice of the lay read

r the first time. We adore you

nelt down for a brief moment before standing again. The whole time, Kareen did not think of tur

and Kareen did so with th

lt she had a problem. She felt she needed to go for a deliverance section to deliver her of whatever thing was wrong with

centrate and set her mind on praying to God. She didn't know whether crushing on a mass server was

gest of Karen's two brothers asked. It was after Stati

ing?

a serious face but when you look at him you'll

iced that too"

s new here and trying t

d to the former priest" Bryan

Parish. That's what they do e

e sort of foul play to these things?" That was Leo, always thinking like the

he has probably served in various Parishes so let's just call it a retirement

vies have finally gotten to my he

tell us" They all laughed at wh

she was just a coward for everything that happened and how she acted like a child. I mean for a seventeen years

ay his name was

in Chloe's house getting ready for Netflix and chill. Kamsi was trying to pick out a movie

nner a crying child would. This brought the girls to laughter a

having the slightest hint of what his name might be and yo

ng for her after she dropped that bombsh

the firs

en m

msi counted off the months on her fingers "

one for that long and still not know his name" Chloe threw her hands

it sounds

do

razzz

masses in other churches just to avoid seeing his face but the moment I come back to my C

art what to do" Chloe s

ng"Kareen dragged the skin

tried talk

o church is on Sundays and of recent on Fridays for

reason which she was qu

was

've ever crushed on someone and you don't even know his na

now

this time around"Chloe said as she ma

e was still having a hard time

over heels for them and then later on she just lost interest in them. S

to talk to this

you said th

imes. Kareen you re

d adjusting her neck as Chloe did the finishing touches on her hair." Besides college is no

do you call high school?" Chl

itself" Kareen stated

all the gossip and

s a phase Kareen couldn't wait to end. Seeing the same faces ever

hottest guys in school all the time. Then fighting each other f

any plans on how

ff. She didn't like messing her movie time. She was the biggest movie freak you could ever meet that's why

ught up in Kareen's cru

really need to give him some sort of

e importance than the movie" Chl

g out her hair. Chloe really did justice to her virgin hair. It has always been to

any crushes in the past and at least we knew th

are r

ovie that everyone has been talking about. The trailer is already givi

en asked leaving the va

d Sis

vie. You guys know I don't do hor

horror. It's a crime thrill

dive into the naming. Um

ly puking " All the guys I know that

your first

bring her thoughts to words "I don't hate it but it's just too

rda

inds me o

la

y. Plus I've always perceived the name to be f

her head i

hear everyday you know" Chloe was smiling like s

.. I do

ves. All these just for an imaginary name" If ey

as to be perfect just like his perf

si rolled her eyes "so w

minds me of

gave her a c

and GEnerator kinda

with a high note

ble laughter. Even Kamsi who was

now that's a human being's name right" she used

ust want everyth

reen, enough of your shenanigans. I'm going to call out random names for

msi said with an ev

ou guys can't

e began listing and Kamsi be

more se

.Daniel

erfect name" Kareen was smiling so much that her friends thought her teeth were gonn

nk of this sooner Chloe? Kam

t. But Karee

why?" Kamsi

pronounced the name in syllables and smiled like a chi

did air quotes when she said the name

girlf

movies that weren't Korean. Any movie without Lee Seung - gi or any of her favourite k - drama actors didn't really make s

odes after finishing the popcorn and

-

rophobia she's been fighting all her life tends to worsen. The ride home seemed to be taking forever. The Uber driver was blasting so

take her mind off s

as been avoiding was right before her and she wished she could st

ar wa

r spine. It made her feel weak and defeated. Her suspicions were rig

ning McQueen from that Cars cartoon except not the good spirited one we a

oom. And none else could bring that

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