Living Again

about hurting her feelings like that? I just do not get it. But I owe him the truth. I have to tell you everything. I'd rather tell it in a friendly way than wait for her to talk all venomou

f a bitch without caring about hurting my good friend in the process. Yup. They're all the same. Women are always women. Cold and cruel. All are. The best thing I ever did for myself was cut the relationships out of my life forever. I need to speak to Robert urgently and tell

friend anyone can have. The only one I trust close to me. I have been damaged in the past by a good friend and it was Robert who helped me through it

nd get inside. The sensual music that always plays here has been replaced by a tasteful electronic beat. The girls of t

nd get something to warm up. The movement today is bigger than usual.

Louis. I ord

rse, Mr

re, vying for the attention of the girls. Perhaps today the demand is greater than the supply. I smil

ks very worried - I don'

ng upset, because knowing Rachel, this could be a

ays and I, worried, jump

er?' I can't hide th

he

Scream - How

d we couldn't find her. I was just about to call you

nd is folded into a stationery format. I take her hands in exasperation and open it.

cho

ause I'm not what you think I am. I could have told you right away, but the truth is, I needed everything you've done for me and you probably wouldn't have d

my gratit

at she's in her room waiting for me. I've been waiting all week for this night to finally have her and she's not here. I'm disappointed. My des

where she was staying and enter uncer

you? I ask

nge

doing here? M

room. I have w

here earlier in the week. Clearly she is no longer here. The girl a

found Ellen and brought her here. She pretty muc

that she's been around Ellen for so long an

spoke to her and

make you suspect she didn't want to be her

g something-"she once told me she wasn't like u

mean?' I ask

ostitute. She laughs,

e. Prostitute yourself to support yourself? I never thought much about these things. What drives a woman to sell her

d her that. On the inside I'm happy for her, but on the outside I'm a little sad. I think without this House, I won't see

she meant, it must have been good for her that you gave her all that mon

blem is all this unreleased sexual desire I have for

really wanted to

you

her pants off and she's not eve

hasn't diminished yet, on the contrary, i

e of her." I'm not Ellen, but I'm reall

ion of wild sex can get Ellen out o

ards her - I hope you can

Ellen's room, I had sex with three others until dawn. I'm exhausted so

one of my hands to my dick and start jerking off. Fuck. I haven't done this in at least five years. I've never needed to, I've always had my sexual desire under control since I adopted my philosophy of life

in the shower. What is this girl doing to me? As I sit down, I see a redhead walk through the door and grab a table by the window. She's Charlie's secretary. She is wearing a very short print dress a