MISLED: My heart didn't know

today. I closed my eyes to rest on the floor. I had purposely let Kirsten win because I know that if I had won there would've been mo

be and the form it will take. Even with this fear, I know that one day I'll have to face this danger; it's either I face the d

eep peacefully at night knowing no harm will come to my daughter and me. I ju

are. I struggled to stand up while forcing my jelly bones to move. I

were positioned in a pout. She was displ

continued sleeping. Her face relaxed but I could still see tr

stains on my body. I washed the blood-stained

uring heavy even in November. Everywhere was cold due to the uncarpeted floor and the bare

ie's body. Although it was an old blanket, it'll certainly

ept repeating itself dramatically in my head–like the way movies portray people trying to remember pieces of st

ind; gone are the days when I get worried, like a mom, up late at night waiting for Dylan to arrive home safely. I no longer want to take

to the bed. The footsteps quieten but then I heard them again

my nose. I could feel his hot breath on my face as he lingered for God knows why. It's not like I was expecting a

ve shared, well the one I know of. Who knows if he

unk in disgust out of its own accord but I tried to make it seem like I was having a nightmare else it'd be a

ething like this before but if he doesn't then I'm afraid for myself

. On reflex, my eyes shot open by themselves, and sta

ere his hand was. I stared too and gasped, well, fake gasped. I must have been too lost in my thoughts that I didn't notice that he'd

iously at him as he gave me his 'puppy' eyes. He

n. My. Sleep!" I stressed on '

ying to do. He was just too afraid to admit

pted. "I mean no..., you see, the weather is cold and for two, right? So, I was won

g to r*pe me," I asked in a challengi

iend isn't raping or assault anywhere." He said sudd

aid girlfriend did not give her con

not r

t

is n

t

s to hit me. I dodged it and he h

wn on the cold floor

eamed extrem

exactly what I was angry about. "I can't have a go

al Jackie and I would spend the weekend at Val's till I make a more decisive decision; I mean Val tre

?" Dylan asked pulling

ng Jackie into my hands. I dropped her on the bed before I went to p

oughts on how to kick Dylan out of

t leave him

just try to r

ut beati

ve enough stre

into my mind until the

m out of the room and bolt

have tha

to do it unexpectedly

i

'd been holding eye contact with Dylan. He's looking at me with a

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lan? Would he be an ant