Sins and Lies

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om the inside out. Running has always taken a weight off my shoulders, quieting my soul, but sex is better than running

ans as he grips m

waist, but I push them away as I press my hips down onto his erect sex and my large se

he feeling of weakness coming within me, while I squeeze the chest with some of

exhaustion as I panted trying to

tries to touch my lips, b

y standing up and running my h

to wash off the traces

sex with a stranger anywhere. I'm

on or promises that we'll see each other again. I've already lost count of how man

ter will run off. I wrap my body in the towel and stop in fro

have. My skin has some blemishes, the result of something I don't even know abou

mutter and adjust the to

l room I ended up in, I hear

, she can't get away.

io d

e out for a drink at the club. He seemed uninterested i

t is on the bed. I can't get caught, he can't ge

en it slowly, I can even see the hallway of the shabby place where I am, but I can't

omewhere

he man holds me trying to drag me to a room wher

even close the bathroom door, he reaches me, pulling my hair and hitting my head against the same mirror

to lift my body in a desp

itions himself on top of me. "Dad said I could use br

but I'm too wea

ty to try to touch me, even though

I smack him in the face, making his neck twist. "Cagna!" he rev

to close his eyes and fall asleep, but it

nted to give up as much as I am now. M

ed of r

ck to his arms, live

g to sleep fo

mio, sv

the voice in my head made me open up eyes

err

less

free to mov

ive up, but

commit the act, but my hands are quick and f

s back, holding his neck while strange sounds c

op the blood splattering me, but it's too late. In the struggle

o the grou

aking a deep breath and t

I don't have that m

the shower to wash off the blood

nd into the bedroom grabbing

akeup and also

see that the mirror is broken. From the

houl

nde hair, or blurred it, I don't r

e to disguise the cuts. It won't cover e

off and look in

me, boys

ckly. I know some men can come u

e that his man is taking too long and by

and leave the room

the maid and I just nod, ma

3, 2

ror as the elevator door closes,

was so scary, but now after so many years I don't even bother anymore. In fact, I believe it served to pr

t it's not nearly as scary as it once was.

on no matter

yours, or it's thei

the crown wou

ive up, but

gallery and look around, making su

in the place and they

inting, where a woman wearing a brown coat, w

ooking at the

r" I say without

she asks as she takes a

and take another step. "Di

ft, near t

observe the brown

ank

ecks worried and that time tu

e, she always helps me when I need it, but I can't put her at risk. He's capable of

" I reply m

say that."

cking up the bag, I might

a weakness, to have someone is to h

time, I follow m