The sinful lust experience

etween us. Both of our life went as normal. I just went to the office and come back in

the city and shared his experience. We just sat in the living room on a sofa and would chitchat in the ev

es, etc. He shared the major part of housecleaning work. I felt happy as I got a good compan

have God faith. We occasionally go out to the restaurant during the weekend to dine.

on various topics and understand him better. Few months of togetherness at home and

As I talked to him more and more, I admired his thoughts, philosophy and certain vision. I was very hap

ise and gym at home. I could see him in a lot of sweat doing hard work. I admire his physique and body

does not have any girlfriends. When I casually asked him about girlfriends, he shrugged his shoulder and

ve one. I won't tell your parents and brother." He promised that he does not have any. He does n

Edmond is too nice and gentle. He never takes any advantage of touching or unnecessa

fa touching me. Even in case if he sits, he sits at another end of the sofa. Similarly, he never com

watch TV programs together in the living room. He gives importance to my preference

the channel considering that I will be uncomfortable. I found that he is a gem of the charac

or allowing him to lie on my lap kind. I ride with him on the bike and I casually hold his should

observed with him is the way he takes care of me. Morning and evening, he calls me and checks if I r

lunch. Once one of my colleagues noticed such back-to-back affectionate calls and asked me whether it i

lse. As evening approaches, I feel the urge to go home and spend quality time with him. I fell

e was very cautious with my health. If I just sneeze, he will not leave me without taking

use to spend time with him. Even at this time, my mind was not completely sexually turned to him.

h him outside. Therefore, I skip cooking at home, and I force him to go to dine out. I dress well, take hi

characteristic features that I would expect in my husband. I discouraged this thought, "Hey

, brother. Similarly, many boys say that they want his mother qualities with his future wife.

shopping with him and buying him branded clothes. I made him dress in trial room and chose

Movies, exercise equipment, Protein shakes, and the latest model iPhone. Edmond scolded me

realization, I fell in love with him. I discovered this when I felt uncomfortable with his certain qualities

cursed him why this idiot is maintaining distance. When I enjoyed watching a romanti

in the movie scene. My heart felt that he got all the right to sit next to me, and put his hands ca

ded day by day. I started expecting more from him. I felt like I need his hug and pampering me like a b

lowers and a cake. As my desire and frustration started growing over lack of

u expecting this kind of relationship with him? Don't you think this is too much? He is

bit out of normal." But the romantic Janet did not want to give up her de

ith him or him to fuck me. All I am expecting is to be physically closer like hugging him

w. In the worst case, if we exceed slightly our limit and Edmond needs my physical love, who are you ask this? I will se

pen. He is too gentle with me. There is no way he can come forward to the extent where I am expecting his love

ith my future. He will think that the root cause of all this problem is being together with

m. My unfortunate situation and the frustration of his distance from me has disturbe

e are related to infatuation? Or sexual attraction on the opposite sex as I am missing real sex with my hub

ss situation killed me a lot. Lost focus on work. I made many silly mistakes in my

's name is Larry when I wrote an email to him copying 25 other members, I wrongly

silly mistake. The manager didn't take it seriously and casually asked me. I apologized for m

was very upset with what happened. I felt guilty thinking what others would think abou

these days. One other girl who was also one of the person in the email I sent came to me

uch we girls love our brother in law. I am also like you. I love my brother in law so much. I am similar to you. My

e quoting her as an example. That made me curious and pushed me for her friendship. We did chit-chat on

law – brother in law romantic relationship. Stephanie and I became friends. One day c

e is my total strength and at the same time, he is a lot of problem for me. He is my

nded with a giggle and said "Come to my house one day, you will understand. Anyone coming to my

together. Since childhood, we fight with each other. So there is no respect from this idiot as he knows me from childhood.

tionship with her brother in law. I started looking for a chance to visit her home sometime. I

on the sofa with Edmond. I never felt like going to my room to sleep. I chatted with him laughing, smi

to listen to him and half-heartedly went to bed each day waving bye. I kept expecting that he will come

ept into a deep sleep. I slipped into an ever forgettable dream. In my dream, Edmond came

when we both become nude. I don't know when he spread his body on mine. He started fucki

. I was highly disappointed that it was a dream. I scolded myself for coming out of

l water bottle from the fridge. I gulped like a person drinking water after several days of thi

ion and helplessness as it is not happening in the real situation. After drinking water,

es. There is a saying face is the index of the mind. His face is very clear without any confusio

to drink water." I was looking at him with lust. My mind's voice started speaking to myself and to

ne in this world is going to come and knock on our door. We are in complete 100% privacy. To make my

ust a change in your mind. Behind your beautiful hairs and further behind your skull and fu

10 feet away from us a sweet bedroom is waiting for us. We can just walk and run to our bedr

t all night. No one is going to disturb us. If you want to extend in the morning, I'll take my mobile and sen

d the thought wave. I realized I have just crossed the stage of just flirting and

ted and helpless with these wave of erotic thoughts, I prayed to god. "Oh God, you know how I've s

esting me a lot. You know the pain and the feeling I am undergoing. You know I cannot seduce him and gamble my

wrong. I am not like a whore willing to get fucked by everyone. Please excuse me that I am only allowing just one person Edmond other

lized in a few seconds and asked myself. "Hey, are you out of mind? Are you calli

and over her body to a boy. If she does, it will be after many thoughts. If I am happy giving me to Edmond

yer "Oh god, please make this happen. I will come to your temple and break 100 coconuts." I confidently believed t