His perky side, his warmth, his strange behaviour, his kindness, his insecure.... You love everything about him. So you decide to make a confession. But after you tell him about your feeling, a girl come to him who then he introduces as his...girlfriend. You were heart broken , but even so everything about him still become a beautiful melody of your life. So you keep him in your heart even after 10 years, when you didn't even know about his existence anymore. One day you are accepted to work as a secretary at CNR company. But who would ever think that you would meet him and he becomes your boss? He treats you indefferently, like some stranger. He is totally a diferent person. You curse him, pull out all of your anger on him, when you realized a new fact that you never know. He is... Not Him.
Chapter 1 Can You Forget Your First Love
- Prolouge -
First love is bound to fail, I often hear that. But first love is never really easy to forget. I can relate with those two fact. It's been 10 years since I met him and loving him everyday. I never thought that this very strange creature would become someone I dear the most in my heart. The man named Han Ryu Min I knew at college.
Through the commotion around me, I still can hear your cheerful yet deep voice. When I stay on the crowded I can still feel your touch.
I still see your image, I still feel your warmness. From the vision of a stranger passing by, from the leaf that rides the wind and sorrowfully sways,
From the air in the night that brush against my face.
All I see, I hear, I feel. You are there. You are the first person I can see when I close my eyes looking for comfort after my long busy days. You are the exictense I feel when the soft rain touch my face.
I don't even remember when or how could you become the only man who able to make all these miserable yet comfortable feeling become my loyal accompany. Why it should to be you?
When you introduced her to me at that time, I knew.... All memories about us which I dearly embrace isn't something that as precious as for you. Maybe.... Yes, my first love has failed on that day, crushed into little pieces. But... Deep... Deep inside my heart I still longing for you like an idiot.
-End of Prologue-
It's a perfect morning to start a new day. The sun shine brightly. The warmth gives a courage for you to start a new day, illuminating some happy vibe. You get ready to go to your new work place, a big and famous company of Seoul, CNR Company. You heard,read and watched a lots about this succesful company which have a wide spread field. It is everyone's dream to become a part of this company.
You wear your best outfit to match the company image. You put a light and refreshing make up to show your flaws, you check your appearance on mirror, it's look perfect. You want to give a best image on your first day as an assistant secretary.
In order to avoid a busy time, you departure earlier, you don't want to be late on your first day. You take a bus and sit on the middle seat row near the windows. You open the window to let the fresh wind in. You inhale the air deeply, close your eyes and smile. You try to put your best happy mood to welcoming this perfect day.
You arrived at the company 20 minutes earlier. You tidy up your clothes, checking your make up and put your best smile. You walk confidentally and entering the skyscraper building. The interior of the building is really extravagant, classic but comfy. You see a tall lady with a brown short hair, wearing a complete business attire walking towards you. She has a stern facial expression and elegant vibe.
"Lee Hyu Ri-ssi?" She confirms your name. You straighten your back and answering her politely. Soon she introduces her self as Kang Jae Hee, the head secretary of CEO company who will work as your superiors. She invites you to visit your office on 11th floor, and going to introduce you to the CEO.
"He has a unique taste , a workaholic man, serious demeanor, and loves his cat, Elizabeth the 3rd" You don't really know how is the last information about his love for cat is related to your job. Elizabeth the 3rd, isn't that name too extravagant for a cat?
"Well he never ask someone else but me to feed his cat" She put a pressed tone with a vague annoyed when she said but me. You can sense that she has some kind of resentment towards the CEO. "He even gives his cat to me when he has a recent business trip when I'm allergic of cat." she continue her anger. She inform you that he send his cat to her in the middle of the night outside of her work time.
"Well.... It's kinda too much of him" you comment. Somehow your comment snap her back to reality. She put her stern demeanor again, which is very opposite of her talkative side she show just now. But yet you can't blame her to resent the CEO. He is kinda cruel.
"Well.... I tell you these facts so you can be prepared" Jae Hee feels awkward. Her face is red. She is embarrassed to the fact that she just put out all her pissed of the CEO towards someone she meet once. Morever you are her subordinate. She thinks it is not appropriate for her to talk with you like this.
"It's okay...." You sense her awkwardness and smile kindly to her. Somehow you feel that she can be a good friend for you here. She looks at you, hesitate. But smile in the end. Both of you just reach the elevator when the door is opened.
A man with his black office suite is standing there. He looks at you silently. You are so shocked to see the man who is infront of you now. His figure, his eyes, his face is really familiar to you. All of the old memories flash in your mind fastly. Your first encounter, his silly behaviour, his smile, his kindness, his way of calling your name, his way of garing into your eyes. The face of the man who you are longing for is now appear in front of you.
"Hyu Ri-ssi.... This is...." You can't hear Jae Hee voice because you suddenly turn around and run away. Tears already filling your eyes. You miss him, but you really don't know what to do or what to say right now. You don't want to looks miserable, teary eyes infront of him after your long separation, so you decide to run away, to soothe your feeling.
Kang Jae Hee and the man is taken aback with your sudden escape. They are staring on the door you just passed and being speechless.
"Sajang-nim....." Jae Hee greets the man after she takes her composure.
"What's wrong?" The CEO ask her with his typical cold and serious deep voice of him. Jae Hee smile rigidly, not really sure how to answer him because she doesn't has any idea. NOT at all.
You are keep running without even knowing your destination. When you reach the balcony you stop, trying to maintain your breath. You curse yourself on being totally uncool and running away like that. You should just greet him, say hello to him and etc rather than escaping like that. You rubbed your tears away, you don't need to be all sensitive just because of this.
Now what? You discover that you may work on the same building with your first love, do you want to keep running away like that? It's been 10 years. The memory of that day come to your mind.
-Flashback-
It is your graduation ceremony. You just graduate from Economy and Business department. You and your friends is really happy and enjoying this ceremony together. After the ceremony is finished, you see a dazzling man waving his hand on you. He brings a flower on his hand.
"Congratulations for your graduation" he hands you a bucket of red roses, your favorite. You can't hide your smile for that.
"What is that? It is also your graduation now" you hit his hand trying to hide your timid smile. You both decides to walk together at the empty garden, taking some space from the crowd.
"From today onward we will not able to play together again" Ryu Min looks on his surrounding, trying to remember every part of this place. "I'm going to miss you" he smiles at you. Your heart is skip a beat, unconsiously swallowing your saliva.
"Do you remember our first encounter?" You ask him. "When was it? Does it at the library one year ago?" Ryu Min ask you back, you shake your head makes him think it over.
"It is here...." You inform. "I was reading a book , and when I divert my eyes from the book, you are walking from that side, smiling." You point on the place you mentioned.
"At that time.... The sunlight illuminates your figure from the back, you look so dazzling when your face is brightened by the light" you smile to him. It is your first time praising him like that. All of this time you never show your feeling, you even say things that is not matched your feeling because you try to hide the facts that you like him. But now, you think it might be your last time with him, so you.... Who always try to act cool and disinterest decide to confess.
"Since that day, I often encounter you anywhere,isn't this kinda funny to keep bump each other when we are in the different department? So I gradually become curious, I was searching for your ID you know and stalking your SNS, and everytime I witnesses your perky but strange behaviour I can't help to think "what a waste of handsome face to be an idiot like you" but slowly.... I can't takes my eyes from you and become interest on you." Your sudden confession make Ryu Min speechless. He is staring on you, with a serious expression, it seem like he wants to know every single things that you want to say, so you continue.
"I..... Like you..... No.... It is so silly of me but I.... Am in love with you" You finally speaks. His eyes is teary, he suddenly looks sad, but why??
"Ryu Min oppa...." suddenly a younger girl come to him and congratulate him of his graduation. You never saw her. She graciously greeting you, you smile absurdly. She then ask Ryu Min about who you are cheerfully.
"My friend.... Lee Hyu Ri" he introduce you to her. A friend he called you after your confession. "This is......" he hesitates. "My girlfriend... Kim Ha Na" that it is! A big dissaster come to your heart.
"Girlfriend?" You look on his expression, he feel guilty, sad and whatever is that you can't really sure. You laugh dryly, trying to hide your broken heart. You say goodbye to them before leaving them, you don't want to turn around even when he calls out your name.
Chapter 1 Can You Forget Your First Love
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Chapter 2 He Is.... Your Boss
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Chapter 3 Different Person
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Chapter 4 Business Trip
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Chapter 5 Being A RFA
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Chapter 6 New Member
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Chapter 7 The Lunch
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Chapter 8 Engagement
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Chapter 9 Stay Over Night
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Chapter 10 I Want to Kiss You
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Chapter 11 He Is... Him
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Chapter 12 The Person You Love
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Chapter 13 I am Sorry
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Chapter 14 Saranghae
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Chapter 15 Another Love
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Chapter 16 The Night Together
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Chapter 17 The Lingering Kiss
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Chapter 18 The Scandal
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Chapter 19 "Family" Dinner
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Chapter 20 Tanglet Emotion
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Chapter 21 His Insecurity
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Chapter 22 Loving You
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Chapter 23 The Party
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Chapter 24 Discovering The Truth
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Chapter 25 The Break Up
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Chapter 26 Wedding Dress
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