I thought I was a good doctor. But no matter how good you are, if the person you love is gone, there is nothing you can do. What is my profession? Devotion and Care to bring healing, Comfort and Hope but I can't heal him. I am Useless! Yes, I am. This kind of scenario is too much. My heart beating so fast and my body is also shaking because the closing of his eyes and the stopping of his heartbeat is also the stopping of my world because there is nothing I can do but to release him. "Baby, please! wake up?! Please," I'm begging. I was talking to him hoping he would live while the tears did not stop flowing in my eyes. "P-Please! P-Please!" I shouted while hugging him. "Baby please don't leave me, Please!" I cried and buried my face in his neck. I'm scared of losing her. I can't I can't I begged him that his heart would beat again and that he would take pity on me, but no matter what I did, he would not get up and he would not live anymore. If only his brother had a heart! if only! I hope that somehow the life of the person I love will be extended. I took a deep breath and folded my hands and wiped my tears. "I swear!" I shouted angrily. "The time will come when we meet his brother but I guarantee he won't be happy either!" My Rezza is the reason why I am elusive and always stuck with anyone. I don't want to love like that because I will only get hurt because what happened was not a joke. I wasn't even given a chance to prolong the life of the person I wanted to be with in my old age. Everything was vanished in my system. I lost my appetite but one day I had to hire a new secretary because my secretary in the Department of Dermatology at the Hospital was going to Canada. It's hard when fate intervenes because I must have started wrong. I wish I didn't just get hired because my quiet world was disturbed by my secretary who knows nothing but to annoy me and give me a headache. "You're annoying me!" I looked at him but all he did to me was a sweet smile and a peace sign. That would be really insulting to him... Can I still avoid him if he is the one that makes my heart beat? But what if you find out that he was the one who would have given life to the person you loved before but he denied it? "She's selfish!" I said. Are you ready to fight for your love? Or you'll just let yourself hate him because of the past... And in the end you'll just tell him that he's the most wrong thing to come into your life even though he'll also shape your character. I thought there was nothing more painful than losing someone you love, but I was wrong because there is something that hurts even more. These are the words he spoke. "If there's another chance I'll choose? I'll choose not to have met you!" words that squeezed my heart that I could hardly breathe from the pain. Can you correct my chance you know too late? Im Dr. Jaxon Philip De-Gracia Her Zareen Zeb Gomez
Chapter 1
"Hello, are you going to be summoned?" I politely answered my mother while smoking a cigarette.
"I'm just saying hello, son," he said to me and there was actually a series of coughs. I inhaled one before I blew it out loud because I was so stressed. I am worried about him because he needs to check up with the doctor but he is in the province.
"It's okay, Mother. You're the one who's not okay with that, right?" I asked worriedly while playing with the cigarette on my finger. I have a lot of stress in my life especially now because his cough is not normal anymore. I feel that he has phlegm too but he just doesn't say it.
"We're fine, son," he answered calmly.
"Mom, you're not okay!" I said seriously. He was ashamed of me so he didn't want to tell the truth.
"By the way, nay, I'm going to send your allowance there and when you buy something you need, especially your medicine. Don't worry about me here because I'm fine," I informed before blowing the smoke into nothingness.
Don't worry because I love you."
"Thank you son. We love you too," he answered me before I said goodbye and hung up my cell phone.
I inhaled again and exhaled again. I spent a few minutes until all that was left in my yosi was gone. I threw away my cigarette and stomped on it because a stick of yosi was in order this morning because I still have work. I sighed before straightening myself. You can't make me smell like cigarettes because it's hard that I might get sick.
I entered the hospital and went to his clinic, fortunately fate was on my side because I was immediately hired as a dermatology doctor's secretary. I am also paid a lot even though my work is not difficult. My doctor boss is just rich so he is paid a lot. I must admit that being his secretary helped me a lot because I was able to pursue my dream of going to school.
When talking about work, there is no problem, but the Doctor? Hmm! Make it difficult to associate with more than the word Dr. Jaxon Philip De-Gracia is the owner of the hospital and he is also my boss. He is that man who always carries the world. It's like I've never seen a smile on his face from his red lips.
"I wish there was just a smile but nothing!" I exclaimed.
"Should I leave him struggling to smile?" I added.
"It's still early and that suplado isn't there yet," I said before arranging the things to be fixed at his clinic so that when he arrives, everything will be prepared.
I first looked at my wristwatch. I smile because I can still take a nap because I'm also up late at night. I looked around to check if there was a patient coming but there wasn't one so I could catch a glimpse even for a moment so I closed my eyes because I wanted to sleep.
A shout and the crash of a key in front of me woke me up. He's really rude, he can wake me up if he behaves well. I stood up suddenly because he was already in front of me and was staring at me.
I reviewed last night because I have an exam tomorrow at five in the afternoon so I stayed up. He also doesn't know that I'm still studying because I can combine work and my studies just for the dream. It's my dream to graduate because I don't expect anything but myself.
I'm second year college. My schedule will be regular because I'm just poor, I mean we. The nursing course is also difficult when you don't really have money because you have a loved one. I really have to persevere if I want to achieve something in life.
I have night classes so I can somehow catch up because my job is only on weekdays. My weekend is free but I also have rackets to increase my income and also help those who took care of me.
"I'm sorry dr. I fell asleep," I apologized and bowed. It was really my fault because sleeping is not allowed during work hours.
"Work time. Not sleep time Zareen!" he looked at me seriously and went inside his clinic and closed the door hard. You can't expect anything from Dr. JP but nothing really. No emotion.
He's really stuck, it's just a waste of what God has given him. Perfect looks and Ideal Man for me. Stupid I was left in front of my table and could not speak to his attitude.
I closed my eyes and my nose could still smell his perfume left in the air. I reached for his car keys that he just dropped in front of me before I took a deep breath and knocked three times on the door.
"See! Even if he just says come-in, he can't say it yet," I said annoyed. Because he just pressed the buzzer and that was the sign so I could enter.
Not that I'm complaining but I'm like a dog that follows the sound of the buzzer.
"Good morning Dr. PJ!" I greeted him energetically again. I have to ignore all his treatment of me and I will not be affected by his aura because it is difficult that I might be fired. I have my biggest fear. I'm about to lose my parents, don't let me lose my job because I won't be able to continue my studies then.
"You left your car key behind," I informed and placed the key on his desk. He just looked at me so I kept quiet for a while. I gave the peace sign and smiled at him before bowing.
He was already irritated. He hates noisy people like me. If only I could use sign language with everyone. Even when I walk he notices and even though my voice is low it's loud to him. He's sorry because I'm his secretary he'll put up with me.
I don't know what this very sensitive doctor is going through. I'm sure his life is very sad because I left him. Because that's a disease of the rich. As for me, I don't want to be sad. I don't want to be noisy because I got bored when I was young.
I'm tired of being alone! I don't want to be alone. I don't want to lose friends because I just want to be happy even if I don't have money it's not a problem because everything can be solved if I just work hard.
"Dr.," I called softly.
"How many times did I tell you that lower your voice, Zareen Zeb! Do you really understand?" He yelled at me.
You'll just have to close your eyes to this man if you don't want to meet his eyes that are burning with anger because I'm just being loud in his ears. Thanks to him, I need a job for my dream but I will not tolerate him.
"You're the one who's yelling. You can say it calmly," I answered and turned around even though he wasn't letting me go yet.
"Nobody likes you girls when you're too stuck up," I hissed.
"You're talking about me?!" he asked seriously. I faced him and smiled.
"No Doc!" I shouted and ran out the door.
"F*ck!" heard if he was cheap but I let him go. I just smiled because I annoyed him.
I closed the door and sat in my chair. I felt happy but the heartbeat was strong. It's a good thing nothing flew in Ere. I took a deep breath before I fell down and my teeth were still playing with my fingers or maybe it's better to say I was biting them.
It's a shame that he's still handsome, but he seems to be allergic to women. He doesn't have any chicks. Maybe that's why his head is hot at the top but the head at the bottom might not be drooling anymore so his head is hot.
"Hey!" I blurted out while shaking my head because something entered my mind, maybe later I'll have a dream.
The whole day ended with our system being focused on work and I feel like there is no doctor because I am not talked to when there are no patients but when there are patients it is natural to order me and talk to me because I am his secretary.
I have already arranged my things because we are about to go out in a few minutes. First I retouched and perfumed. Sympre we women still need to smell good. Whether stressed or not, it should still be fresh.
I stopped what I was doing when the door opened and doctor Jaxon came out. I bowed but was not able to turn around. He left without even saying goodbye.
"After all, I'm not his girlfriend to say goodbye properly," I promised and put lip tint on my lips. And one more thing, I don't expect anything from the doc as long as it's not related to work because the menstruating woman is still superior.
To Be Continued...
Chapter 1 The clinic
25/03/2024
Chapter 2 At School our exam
25/03/2024
Chapter 3 His girlfriend
25/03/2024
Chapter 4 My Apartment
25/03/2024
Chapter 5 going on vacation
25/03/2024
Chapter 6 Education status
27/03/2024
Chapter 7 the Acoustic Night
27/03/2024
Chapter 8 My tears
27/03/2024
Chapter 9 the free time bonding
27/03/2024
Chapter 10 my girlfriend
27/03/2024
Chapter 11 At home
27/03/2024
Chapter 12 Romantic Restaurant
27/03/2024
Chapter 13 excited for our first baby
09/05/2024
Chapter 14 death anniversary
09/05/2024
Chapter 15 my rest mind
09/05/2024
Chapter 16 she repeated
31/05/2024
Chapter 17 my sister's operation
31/05/2024
Chapter 18 the most painful
31/05/2024
Chapter 19 my dream
31/05/2024
Chapter 20 the truth
31/05/2024
Chapter 21 Prepare the annulment
09/07/2024
Chapter 22 Our baby
09/07/2024
Chapter 23 My tear
09/07/2024
Chapter 24 Jealous
09/07/2024
Chapter 25 My child
04/09/2024
Chapter 26 appointment
04/09/2024
Chapter 27 my computer
04/09/2024
Chapter 28 our building
04/09/2024
Chapter 29 Work
04/09/2024
Chapter 30 About the past
04/09/2024
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