Falling for him slowly

First of all, I thank all the readers and I hope I made you happy. 

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"Do you need to work in Manila?"  I sadly asked my soon to be husband Francis again even though we were not married yet.  Because that's really what's missing, it just won't happen because of the many upcoming events that should be given priority.

"I know you understand me and I'm doing this for us and when I come home, we can have our child I'm sure."

I forced a smile and again he hugged me tightly, I held back my tears from falling.  Then he kissed me on the lips and hugged me again.

"Francis! The tricycle has been waiting for you, what are you doing there?"

We both looked at Francis's mother's loud voice.

"All right, I might be caught at the terminal at any time. It's hard for me to wait again, as long as you just remember what I told you."

"Yeah, I'll remember. Just be careful always there and you'll call me what's going on with you there."  I reminded him and I kissed him, it was just fast and we left our room at the same time.

I brought a view of the distant tricycle with Francis riding, sad but had to suffer because Manila is better than other countries because it was so far away.  If he ever wants to go home at any time he can go home.

"I hope my son is lucky in Manila. There is no really good life here, almost all of my neighbors here are their children in Manila and abroad. We are the only ones who have not been able to build a new house."

I turned to my mother-in-law that even though she wasn't looking at me I knew she was hearing it from me.  She always wanted his son to go abroad, only Francis didn't want to and I didn't want to either.

"If he was in another country, we would probably have a better life now."

My mother-in-law left me here in the yard in front of Francis and I's a little house.  I know her mom doesn't like me and she doesn't approve of Francis's marriage right away.  I just ignored it because my boyfriend told me not to think about it. After all, he loves me.  And that's what I hold on to him.

I went inside and began inside our little house.  Even children 'really can't be given to us and I don't know why, I don't want to think that one of us has a disability but I pray that there isn't.  Because Francis and I have been together for only one year and sometimes we don't have time for that because sometimes he always stays in the job he does here near our place.  So we rarely have time for each other because he still helps his siblings who are studying.

Francis is the eldest, so I depend on him and I understand that, so even when I am with my extras in the jobs here in our area, I also help them.  And because his friend Francis, was offered to work in a Hotel & Restaurant to be a Waiter, Francis was not able to graduate college.

I was stunned by the ones running through my mind because it was much quieter here in our little house.  I gasped and resumed what I had done to get rid of the sadness I was feeling.

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The next day I excitedly looked at my cellphone hanging in the window because there was only one signal.  The signal is difficult here so my cellphones are usually stuck here. I was so excited because I heard the tone and I know Francis's messages to me.

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Hon, good morning to you.  I'm here in Manila now, happy and nervous but it's okay because you're on my mind.  Always eat there and don't let yourself down, later maybe I'll call you.

My heart was happy because the first time I read Francis's message, I quickly typed while excited.

"My son called? Please give me to me I like to talk to him."

I looked down and saw my mother-in-law who was in the yard and was about to enter here.  I sent my reply first and I hurried to go down to my mother-in-law.

"He hasn't called yet. He just texted today, he said he would call later. He arrived safely in Manila."  I said good news to her.

"Is that so, ok what can you eat there? I'm already hungry."  She asked and she sat down on the wooden chair in front of the bamboo table.

"Wait a minute, I'll take a look,"  I answered and hurriedly fumbled in the big bucket under the sink because that’s where I put other food because of what the rats were eating.  We don't have a refrigerator here.

"There's a harvest today. Why don't you go there so that you can get some rice home."

"Oh, I'll go there so I don't get bored here at home,"  I answer while preparing the coffee and the leftover bread.  I prepared it for my mother-in-law and she started eating the bread.

"Why aren't you got pregnant? Maybe you have a disability?"

I was stunned by what my mother-in-law said and could not speak.  Until she finished breakfast and left her meal I had in mind the last thing she said.

I'm not barren, maybe it's not for us now to have a child now.

A week passed and I only spoke to Francis once, I was worried but I let it go because he might be busy with his work.  And another, he once said that he only slept for a few hours because he was on duty for many hours.

In the morning I was sweeping the fence and I couldn't help but look back at my cellphone that was hanging because it might be calling and I just couldn't hear it.

"Did Francis call yet?"

I looked up while holding the broom, I see Francis's mother while eating a banana.  Because our house is next to each other here.

"Nothing yet, almost a week over."  My answer.

"What happened to him, just got to Manila and then be forgotten."  Angry her face said.

"It's not like that, maybe he's just busy,"  I answered and I noticed that our neighbors were looking, I knew they were just listening to what we are talking about.

My mother-in-law turned around and I looked at my cellphone again.  I also tried to call his number but it just rang and sometimes I couldn't reach him.

Francis, did something happen?  How are you there?  I'm worried about you.

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A few more weeks passed until it was months, I no longer felt Francis.  I have asked all his former co-workers here, as well as those who offered him a job in Manila.

I made the decision that I would look for my boyfriend myself because I would not be comfortable here just waiting.  I took all the remaining money I go to Manila.  I left our house and go to Francis's mother, to say goodbye but I was surprised because Francis' mother didn't seem to care about her son not feeling well, but I just ignored that.

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