Hush Baby

She is throwing something across the room again, what could it be this time around, maybe a bucket? Or one of the vases on the stool that she has broken and left only two out of the seven it was before

If I just have my way I will be out of this house every single morning, what is the benefit of being here all day when the noise won’t make you have a peaceful day

‘’It’s my fault, if I didn’t have a very useless daughter who is nothing but worthless and so very useless then my life would have been better” there was another shattering sound and I closed my ears with my hands pressed on it

Having already turned my eyes from seeing her as she angrily destroys more things I didn’t need to even hear the sounds anymore. It will torment me in the night I know. Clinging to the memory of when it was still peaceful I sat on the couch

‘’What are you doing there sitting idly you worthless child’’ she is before me before I could even move my body, and I had to dodge a slap she sent my way falling on the floor

The look on her face is threatening, dead mean and I had to scramble from the floor to prevent another blow been sent my way

My legs are fast as I made for the kitchen jamming the door so tightly I locked myself in there. My heavy breathing slowed, my eyes fluttering close as I whiled the tears to go away. The pounding on the door started, accompanied by so many swear words that I block my ear from hearing

It’s been like this for two years now. Anytime I lose a job that had me going for a while she becomes all crazy castigating me and cussing me out

I graduated with good honors in Architecture, having deceived my mother that I was studying Pharmacy and she became all crazy about it. She let me graduate in peace and afterward I couldn’t find a job that has anything to do with my course of study and that made her crazier

What does it feel like to be a disappointment to your entire family? Cause I Joseph Sarang have been nothing but. Graduated about 3 years ago and instead of being the apple of my parent's eyes and being the best sibling, at 24 am still living off them no matter the kind of work I seek out for it always ended with me being dropped

The pounding on the door eased, but I will be a fool to open the door. She is still standing there waiting for me to attempt to open it. The tears I have been holding drop from my eyes. I didn’t want this, didn’t want this life but what can I do?

Imagine going for an interview and not being granted the job even when you are worth it cause you are a female and young too. This has been my fate for a very long fucking time and I am tired of it

‘’Sister Sarang you can come out she has gone to her room’’ a tiny voice said to me