Gamble With My Heart

guess I better start walking. I looked at the time 25 mins left before class starts, slash that I guess I better start running. I ran a lot but even I knew I couldn't run 5 m

ittle encouragement before

the clouds were spread out beautifully. As I ran, memories of my childhood flashed before my eyes but I blocked it out. I wasn't ready to feel like shi

e look that I was going for today. I always carried wet wipes and body spray. I wiped my armpits and under my boobs with the wipes then applied some body spray. I sweat a lot but luckily I didn't smell. Smelling bad in public was the absolute worst thing. It was actually a fear of mine. I brushed my hair and pulled it back into a high ponytail and w

only had one period but that period was with the devil incarnate Mr. Thompson, my business English lecturer. He always made us write notes and always gave us so many mini assignments to keep us busy during the

and then get the weekend assignments for me. Mr. Thompson always said only one of the mini assignments would count

t me

?" Jake said to me. I couldn't stop myself from laughing. We all had different n

et, I just missed the

ape Derby. Although we were only an hour away from Derby it still felt like we had escaped. Jake and I weren't very close but we shared some sort of weird solidarity because we escaped, plus we were both studying business. Stu

have lunch in

pretty muscular. I could tell he worked out because the veins in his arm were so huge. I always told him his face and body don't match because he h

split a plate

heapskate when it comes to food?" Our cafeteria was heavily subsidized

y for your food and allo

t a man to pay my bills because they always expect

said that I instantly turned around to walk back towards class hoping someon

b my elbow and

I'm just worried about you becaus

s tends to have that

ally have a weird sense

to react to them and I always ended up looking stupid. I

id anything wrong. That's the fucked up thing with me, good things seem bad to me while negative things seem good to me. I guess I can thank my mom for fucking my head

" I looked at Jake and l

phrase ever. You got to d

g business, not l

od deed by not applying for their major." It

e have to ruin the moment by complimenting me. I could spot the cafeteria from afar. It didn't look too full so th

ne to compliment me no matter how innocent it was. I ignored most of what he said while we walke

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