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ts, she was very mad at me and Tammy for keeping my arrival a secret from her and didn't talk to us for weeks, it took insistent begging for her to let go of her anger and grudge. Soon everyone in the family found out and even those from my old neighbor where mom still lives, then the rumor and bad mouthing started.... it got so bad that I would lock myself up in the house for days, I was scared to come out and face their hurtful words and it started taking a toil on mentality. Tammy came to my rescue again this time. After about two months of staying with her, she came back one evening and broached the topic of me getting a job. ‘Who would want to employ an ex convict like me? ‘Have thought of it a couple of time and it only saddens me the more 'Please stop being pessimistic, you have to get your life back on track or people won't stop bad mouthing you, you have to show them how strong you are by moving on

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is all the time despite my protest that I can't finish half of it. 'Good night!’ She waves me off. I started walking back to my little self con apartment, it was very dark and late and everyone had gone to bed already, unlike in Lagos and new York, the people of this little town always go to bed very early so you hardly find anyone out this late. But for the last few days, I always get this nagging feeling that someone is following me. Who's there?’ I stopped and looked in the direction of where I heard footsteps... no one answered for a while and I was about walking away when the stalker made herself known 'Hey Tad!’ She calls, coming out of the shadows ‘You again? ‘The blond white girl. ‘Have you been stalking me? ''Yeah.... and it's really so fun ‘She came towards me still maintaining that sickening smile, I move out of the way before her hands could touch me. ‘what do you want?’ “you! 'She keeps saying this every time and it irritates me.... Suzy use to act the same way and I hate anything that reminds me of her, i scoff and turn away from her. I sigh ‘It late already, don't you

arted calling her my girlfriend and nothing I say would make them believe I h

their way all the time, just like Suzy .I'm finally getting my life back on track after so long and I don't need her type barging into m