A Million Reason

and he doesn't want me

y driver that to opened the door for me

gs....If some lives form a perfect circle, other take shape in ways we cannot predict or always understand. Loss has been part of my journey. But it has also shown me what is precious. So has

of the scene. I love this beach. I love the driftwood that comes upon the buoyant waves as tiny rescue boats. Then there is the seaweed, that flora of those salty waves, as deeply gr

nts to say something but moreov

deck area. The weather was awesome like it never happened before

ing in crap mood! is everything okay?" I said," No I'm fine...I was j

you mean ? everyth

thing you can't

ther friendly but Tyler was constantly making eye contact with me w

ll be more good. Tyler stopped with Hannah and

have to capture couple of self

" yeah Tyler stay with her b

king romantic poses which was quite annoying. Ab

e is a big jerk. I thought it

he bar tender serve the wine. Abby

then I had to return back to London. I need to

n't stay with us

but that's good fo

or me... what would I do

s and told me, She is just glue to Tyler... well then Luke and Vinny cam

er and said," cheers for new trip.

ou didn't tel

eturn home. I need to do alot of w

tell you about it,we knew yo

I will never come and I am not go

ying something but I shoot an

uxury sitting are. I was staring Hannah were spending quality

oying the so ca

t them and said with smile," look

on luke they are

always forcing him, to do wha

agree with Ab

cuba diving and swimming, which was

om, and wear the j

f Tyler. he said," St

it's better to

here..." In the shadows on his face was so close to me that I could

ere changing" he said, turning

ou can now turned around an

d stare me for a good mom

you ma

to me it's a pretty go

l you about it and didn't lie to

riend don't hide anyt

hide anything from you now on. G

at c

ner tomorrow just me and you o

rd towards me. I can feel he was up to somet

ill think

e but I pushed him away and

ome upside. I looked to Abby she was lying on the met, sh

are ready! I was just enjoying sun bath...ah see Tyler

always do some wired thing which was out of box. Tyler was laughing on Ab

ace and said," I was

't have time... I need to get b

ba Gloves , Fins , Scuba Tank ,Regulator, now I wa

rom the chill of the water, but from the unknown. Out of the corner of my eye I see a cluster of dull, gray fish swimming between tendrils of algae draped across a rotting log. They are alien creatures in an alien world. My sudden appearance startles them and they dart away, leaving the water opaque. I wave my hand through the lake water, trying to disperse the thick cloud of silt and plant particles that surround me, blind me. A murky figure began to swim toward me. I squint my eyes through my goggles and reco

and try again. It isn't working. My partner is swallowed by the deep abyss. The pressure snaps to a sharp pain and I stop. I yell into the regulator and a flurry of bubbles rushes from my mouth. Signaling to the dive master, my hand becomes a pendulum. It moves from side to side- the gesture that something is wrong. I point to my ears and then to the surface. The pain grows as I ascend and I hear bubbling in my ears. My fins won't move any faster. The flexible rubber material and thin plastic are easily manipulated by the water. I'm almost at

ths to calm myself, but the world still goes around like a child's toy. Something is tugging my arm and I

ming just right behind me and than on the left side Abby again towards me they no