Above whispers

ou realise the simple fact that you

less v

as I stood before his grave, avoiding a lingerin

raging sky. The cloud is slowly changing to a dark grey colour and the wind is gradually picking up, roaring wildly and making the we

could break my re

tery on a cold July evening, dressed in complete black from head to toe

Siesie! it is sta

sing not to answer him, I didn't want to talk to anyone, don't want them to pr

ur own darkness and sorrow, times when all the love and care can't lift our spirits beca

much effort as I should have earlier while relishing in the irony of my gesture. I used to be that sort of girl who found the whole "dropping

just s

rambling off to the wind like a lunatic...' I paused letting out a bitt

s perfec

recover or get healed from this, I doubt things will ever be the same again without you ' I started talking as

iniscing on all those beautiful memories we made in our little fucked up way '... Wake to see you right by my side with that permanent scrowl on your

ults me again, for a moment I was transported back in time and all I saw was red, blood everywhere, making my

re you a

se, to assure him while desperately trying to figh

your self' he scolds turning me around to face him but my g

ut I remain fixed in the spot. I didn't want to leave so soon, I wanted to stay right where I was, I wanted to scream, shout

t going anywhere' I snatch my arm fro

he replies in a stern, no nonsense voice. His tone showed he has now had enough of my uncooperative attitude a

away but he isn't having it, he grabs m

sonable for a slight moment, it starti

ply. At this point, it will take much more tha

right now' he opens his mouth to speak, probably to

ve becoms too numb t

d finally given up, finally realized I wasn't goi

ave since joined in your pity party' His word sent a stab of pain through

I n

pect you to

ap a

g a loved one, you seem to be forgetting i've been there once, I know exactly how

s

tled with depression for long, guilt creeped into heart very slowly

me down hard and unexpected on us, carrying debris of all kind in our dir

part of me craving for pain dominated my good sense of reasoning to the

of others for once, of how this is affecting them as well! Do you want to help th

fis

ed me s

word to describe me. It so far fetch from who I'm I could feel my

.' l bawl, needing to vent all m

I want to cry, scream, shout but all I feel is this numbness like a thick fog, I can't even feel the pain I want,

it consumes you. Cry, scream, shout, do anything you want but just st

cry or talk to anyone. You are dying silently and it's dr

of sadistic pleasure?' life has dealt me with a heavy blow and I refuse to break down and crumble to dust, I'm stand

uld be disastrous if we refuse to let go. It's a way of leaving our terrible past behind and starting afresh, it's the only way

to protect myself is crumbling and I could feel the tears s

ou think you have no one to turn too but that where you have it wrong. You will always have me and I will

oring his words into my he

on cue, more tears pours down uncontrollably, leaving me breathless as a whacking sob excapes

etter...' he says rubbing by back in a soothing motion wh

p until it's all

my init

us seem to take note as we remain in the same positions for what seems

ring, I need t

nce, sounding co

o

ed to offer peace, love, tranquillity, comfort and sense of belonging which min

ainst the loud clattering of my teeth from the cold,

that finally came crashing down becaus

ugh I won't call it a home eith

...........

guys.

ogue and I hope you r

f emotions into this book cause this book will

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