What Fate Means
OR'S
light headed every now and then with these stupid heels that made me seem like Sandra Bullock even though I
wanted to do was snuggle in your blanket and watch reruns of The Big Bang Theory while eating unhealthy food was really
r Hotels and – oh my God! – kissing up to him. I can't believe Salvador mad
ourbon and the overall ambience of the hall made me sick to my stomach. I hadn't
him for his Christmas party but he did not listen to me. He thought that it was a great idea to mingle and get on the good side of the number o
ff to the direction of the buffet table – despite all opposition mad
to go over to him, but Mr. Sheikspeare saw me and smiled at me
illion dollar smile was on display and Maguire S
ngs. I hope the whole thing is to your
as just a secretary as he asked me whether I thought his party was impressi
didn't want to say this in case it may offend you,
ered, "It's my favourite Hall, but don't tell
low me. Talking to Maguire Shiekspeare was really nerve wracking. The man oozed confid
was itching for one of those strawberry champag
ad a secretar
d know w
me about how co
nked at me and smiled. A small smi
to be doing what he's d
already mine and I'm not planning o
loud and patted Sa
rd Salvador. I'll be keepin
k for them. But when I think about the fact that they are mostly grubby old men with pot bellies and wives, a shiver runs down my spine
otten. Since it didn't seem like I was needed anymore, I took perm
as the cold air hit me and I
old men in fancy suits and pot bellies got into my head
Hall's was breathtaking. All the lights down were lit and considering
d just soaked in the view. This was the kind of scen
was busy enjoying surfing and not having to wear four layers of c
ing out my phone but stopped midway when I
as the only p
eard and a shiver
f heading towards that direction. My heart came
lad in a black tux. I couldn't properly see his face since he was fa
r side of the railings and he was in th
ear to wa
that not seeing him do it doesn't exactly stop him from doing what he intended to do an
know what
here right now, but you
an idea popped into my head. I wouldn't say it w
d still and waited a while before turning to face me. I
g star. I needed that tonigh
d turned to the person that was trying to do injustice to himself. Thankfully he w
but I didn't think
wline and black mop of hair on top his head stared right b
no idea what he was thinking. I felt like he was goi
ond, I gathered all the courage I
falling star? I ho
tever nonsense I was spewing and forget about
red again, rubbing my hands up and
hooting star. I
even and it sounded
et bab
uckle that sounded fake and awkward even to me, I made that sweeping motion
g scrutinised. He moved closer to me and I was so
ung it over my shoulder. I was more surpri
me up here without you
an amazing voice? Really,
t of it
ur jacket too? I bet
wly. I wanted to believe that he only meant to say that to himself a
hat statement and I pray
e flattery of a child.
dly this time, "a dead man doesn't n
hoked on
is hazel eyes as he watched
hed, after I had manage
at's why you made up that shooting star story and pre
this time it wasn't f
ke I was drunk and the shooting star story seemed believable. I guess it makes s
but I figured since you decided to be a buzzkill I may as well ge
uldn't help but wonder if it was the same gu
have made him think of d
something sensible to say. I guess he was way past th
d myself asking before
r more nonsense and
use
ell up and walk away, the senseless side of me tha
ate building or maybe even your apartment? You look like you live som
ust say that. Just find a hole r
ht the cold might have gotten to him. But then
and found it a bit difficult to voice his
nversation thing when you decided to call me out on faking my drunken state to prevent yo
with a smile still o
ea
er pops into your head. You do that every other night but sti
uestion, let's just say I'm
sharing the same smile with him. He no
nd I felt bad for weari
that it was best to just go on with the present conver
t, I personally think that you share the
p as he mentioned my embarr
ring that up a
htened and he
oof together, I will not let the matter slide.
you feel
accomplish what I came here to do. I was to be found d
ok a dark tur
the incident, but I gues
t continue to act like I just caught him trying
ayful and teasing to serious and worried. Roof G
want to start talking to me
ss of the heels and the cold breeze that fanned against them. If I didn't leave the rooftop
about the whole issue and then part ways and cont
nding before and sat down on the f
over to him and crou
h eyes that twinkled with delight but was now covered
g to cry but tried his bes
his eyes and it blocked
e because he didn't reply or make a gesture but after a
o ask why I want to do
en I looked at him closely I saw that
et bab
s issue, I couldn't help but notice how much more handsome he look
kest psycho on the plan
rs. What matters is that you do
ssly and I felt lik
fight it. I am stuck in that bottomless pit with
three years ago when Chris wouldn't stop crying about something. H
de me think of Chris and my
that you'd leave behind? Don't y
ile and he wiped his
n I was planning on leaving beh
It didn't dawn on me then t
hat person is wise," I s
n't go t
tsked and I got a chuck
s is be
hat I should try to live my life to the fullest but the t
at they didn't want to function anymore. In order to not embarrass myself any fur
s not
ing gibberish and raised his br
o keep living the way you are. In fact, you want to live your best lif
he night sky. Faint noises could be heard from afar and we figured
he grass. Freedom was very much welcomed but it is true that freedom came with a pr
need them to play Dance Dance Revolu
Roof Guy asked, br
st not the way I was back then. I didn't know any other way to go about it but she told me that I had t
work?" h
10 years later. W
sed look on his face. At least
state and was back to loo
oman told me almost the same thing but I haven't gotten around to foll
y to come out, it seems that my efforts only make me fall deeper. I am scared and alone i
hard to argue
aylor, you
hat keeps pushing you down? The fear of trying something different, the anxiety that follows, the pressure t
back so that it hit the wall. That must ha
it sounds, okay? I have been
have happened to a 13 year
ry and hit his head against the wall again. I placed
ed his head backwards again. Luckily for h
y and his glare was met wi
see. All you have to do is get rid of all that baggage that's weigh
he wall. He looked up at the sky and
though." The words came out in whi
I said, relaxing against the wa
t go that
roof burst open and three men clad in black suits walked in. The
g on but I managed to put the piec
ide's
side him and pic
y's my lucky
but since he didn't bother to elaborate, I
ike he wants to do something shady, don't start by acting drunk
o hard my t
t to bring it up
ime, I
ng at each other. Then Roof Guy deci
to him as he started walkin
he huge and bright smile from earl
strong. I'd like to see you someday walking on the
d and an involunta
me both,
three men and released a breath I didn't e
t on my shoes that I realized tha
looks on you more t
my ears and I found myself bl
a look at myself in the mirror bef
my hair, the last sentenc
me both,
look at my hai
call me Blondie? I'm