What Fate Means

OR'S

light headed every now and then with these stupid heels that made me seem like Sandra Bullock even though I

wanted to do was snuggle in your blanket and watch reruns of The Big Bang Theory while eating unhealthy food was really

r Hotels and – oh my God! – kissing up to him. I can't believe Salvador mad

ourbon and the overall ambience of the hall made me sick to my stomach. I hadn't

him for his Christmas party but he did not listen to me. He thought that it was a great idea to mingle and get on the good side of the number o

ff to the direction of the buffet table – despite all opposition mad

to go over to him, but Mr. Sheikspeare saw me and smiled at me

illion dollar smile was on display and Maguire S

ngs. I hope the whole thing is to your

as just a secretary as he asked me whether I thought his party was impressi

didn't want to say this in case it may offend you,

ered, "It's my favourite Hall, but don't tell

low me. Talking to Maguire Shiekspeare was really nerve wracking. The man oozed confid

was itching for one of those strawberry champag

ad a secretar

d know w

me about how co

nked at me and smiled. A small smi

to be doing what he's d

already mine and I'm not planning o

loud and patted Sa

rd Salvador. I'll be keepin

k for them. But when I think about the fact that they are mostly grubby old men with pot bellies and wives, a shiver runs down my spine

otten. Since it didn't seem like I was needed anymore, I took perm

as the cold air hit me and I

old men in fancy suits and pot bellies got into my head

Hall's was breathtaking. All the lights down were lit and considering

d just soaked in the view. This was the kind of scen

was busy enjoying surfing and not having to wear four layers of c

ing out my phone but stopped midway when I

as the only p

eard and a shiver

f heading towards that direction. My heart came

lad in a black tux. I couldn't properly see his face since he was fa

r side of the railings and he was in th

ear to wa

that not seeing him do it doesn't exactly stop him from doing what he intended to do an

know what

here right now, but you

an idea popped into my head. I wouldn't say it w

d still and waited a while before turning to face me. I

g star. I needed that tonigh

d turned to the person that was trying to do injustice to himself. Thankfully he w

but I didn't think

wline and black mop of hair on top his head stared right b

no idea what he was thinking. I felt like he was goi

ond, I gathered all the courage I

falling star? I ho

tever nonsense I was spewing and forget about

red again, rubbing my hands up and

hooting star. I

even and it sounded

et bab

uckle that sounded fake and awkward even to me, I made that sweeping motion

g scrutinised. He moved closer to me and I was so

ung it over my shoulder. I was more surpri

me up here without you

an amazing voice? Really,

t of it

ur jacket too? I bet

wly. I wanted to believe that he only meant to say that to himself a

hat statement and I pray

e flattery of a child.

dly this time, "a dead man doesn't n

hoked on

is hazel eyes as he watched

hed, after I had manage

at's why you made up that shooting star story and pre

this time it wasn't f

ke I was drunk and the shooting star story seemed believable. I guess it makes s

but I figured since you decided to be a buzzkill I may as well ge

uldn't help but wonder if it was the same gu

have made him think of d

something sensible to say. I guess he was way past th

d myself asking before

r more nonsense and

use

ell up and walk away, the senseless side of me tha

ate building or maybe even your apartment? You look like you live som

ust say that. Just find a hole r

ht the cold might have gotten to him. But then

and found it a bit difficult to voice his

nversation thing when you decided to call me out on faking my drunken state to prevent yo

with a smile still o

ea

er pops into your head. You do that every other night but sti

uestion, let's just say I'm

sharing the same smile with him. He no

nd I felt bad for weari

that it was best to just go on with the present conver

t, I personally think that you share the

p as he mentioned my embarr

ring that up a

htened and he

oof together, I will not let the matter slide.

you feel

accomplish what I came here to do. I was to be found d

ok a dark tur

the incident, but I gues

t continue to act like I just caught him trying

ayful and teasing to serious and worried. Roof G

want to start talking to me

ss of the heels and the cold breeze that fanned against them. If I didn't leave the rooftop

about the whole issue and then part ways and cont

nding before and sat down on the f

over to him and crou

h eyes that twinkled with delight but was now covered

g to cry but tried his bes

his eyes and it blocked

e because he didn't reply or make a gesture but after a

o ask why I want to do

en I looked at him closely I saw that

et bab

s issue, I couldn't help but notice how much more handsome he look

kest psycho on the plan

rs. What matters is that you do

ssly and I felt lik

fight it. I am stuck in that bottomless pit with

three years ago when Chris wouldn't stop crying about something. H

de me think of Chris and my

that you'd leave behind? Don't y

ile and he wiped his

n I was planning on leaving beh

It didn't dawn on me then t

hat person is wise," I s

n't go t

tsked and I got a chuck

s is be

hat I should try to live my life to the fullest but the t

at they didn't want to function anymore. In order to not embarrass myself any fur

s not

ing gibberish and raised his br

o keep living the way you are. In fact, you want to live your best lif

he night sky. Faint noises could be heard from afar and we figured

he grass. Freedom was very much welcomed but it is true that freedom came with a pr

need them to play Dance Dance Revolu

Roof Guy asked, br

st not the way I was back then. I didn't know any other way to go about it but she told me that I had t

work?" h

10 years later. W

sed look on his face. At least

state and was back to loo

oman told me almost the same thing but I haven't gotten around to foll

y to come out, it seems that my efforts only make me fall deeper. I am scared and alone i

hard to argue

aylor, you

hat keeps pushing you down? The fear of trying something different, the anxiety that follows, the pressure t

back so that it hit the wall. That must ha

it sounds, okay? I have been

have happened to a 13 year

ry and hit his head against the wall again. I placed

ed his head backwards again. Luckily for h

y and his glare was met wi

see. All you have to do is get rid of all that baggage that's weigh

he wall. He looked up at the sky and

though." The words came out in whi

I said, relaxing against the wa

t go that

roof burst open and three men clad in black suits walked in. The

g on but I managed to put the piec

ide's

side him and pic

y's my lucky

but since he didn't bother to elaborate, I

ike he wants to do something shady, don't start by acting drunk

o hard my t

t to bring it up

ime, I

ng at each other. Then Roof Guy deci

to him as he started walkin

he huge and bright smile from earl

strong. I'd like to see you someday walking on the

d and an involunta

me both,

three men and released a breath I didn't e

t on my shoes that I realized tha

looks on you more t

my ears and I found myself bl

a look at myself in the mirror bef

my hair, the last sentenc

me both,

look at my hai

call me Blondie? I'm