Amelia's Insecurity

we could have some sleep. He wasn’t able to complain anymore since I insisted a

anding right across the terrace we rente

ying and then leaned my head onto the headboard. He was still

ce I took you home so late.” Josh turned to

he way he cares about the

ince all of their attention is always on Febi,” I reassured him. I final

ace.  “I looked like a stranger to my own family while Febi is always treated like the daughter of my own

this is my most vulnerable side. Just a mere mention of how they

my eyes for a second. I tried

tention I want from my parents to s

end. Maybe because I’ve already been betrayed before, used and manipulated, I already l

e thinking. It is just so insulting that I’m their daughter but they’re giving all of the pr

sed my back. I didn’t even notice that I was already

, I’m s

deserve to be taken care of and loved.” Josh placed his arm right acr

he smell of cigarettes engulfing our room, the refreshing feeling of the cold breeze brushi

chirps of the bird didn’t fail

for a moment and we co

like this and I hope

cause we have the time all to ourselves,” Josh suddenly commented. “I want to show my sincerity

ng to hear him say those words when I’ve always kno

my heart softly. The way he smiles makes my being mel

I pushed him away which immediately m

enever he removes his arms across m

and pure. There was no evil intention

th again. “How many women have you taken

sked, my eyes quickly widened

u or anything. Did I ask the wrong quest

off by putting a finge

ed at all by your question,”  Josh s

ok a deep breath before st

I just sleep around women and nothing serious

mean I’m

’s with him and his breath? Is he

signing,” I asked, dumbfo

the mood!” he sai

can actually make

red before I saw him

ng to feel annoyed,

ys been interested in you.” I stiffened from w

at lon

go home empty handed and so I almost gave up,” Josh explained which made my facial expression frown. “I put up from my own

eact to his confessio

t let go anymore. I thought I could get to kno

emed to best suit him. He had such captivating eyes, a pointed nose a

ink of it, it looked very fragile. I wanted to take care of it, to take care of us… especially yo

ould only be told when you are in love and the person like

might just grow all alone until I wilt and yet… you came,” I continued before a small smile crept into my lips. “I was so scared to accept new people because I found out t

in. Damn, just when we were having a great time,

arents giving her gifts as a token of a thank you. What I’m really agains

s could sympathize with her. She wants to act like t

at the very tip of my bones. She’s doing t

could gain everyone’s positive side and

ainess in her story. I’ll make it c

tch then I’m

liked by the person she likes. Josh didn’t

acting, it went

sometimes, I just can’t believe how no one has ever court

mirk crept i

d if I’m not mistaken, all of the men that I ha

odded my head. “Then do you know why

ure of the answer. “Why?” I aske

be she thinks that men are fawning over her because of her looks but actuall

hat did he

cked her. One of my friends said that she even

diately gagged onto the alcohol

imes before I felt him pat me on th

ight?” I asked, inst

y shook

she already stooped so l

by several men already,” Josh said, squinting his eyes. It seemed like he’s irritated whenever he is also reminded

one he was doing and he proved it once when we were at the c

dn’t notice it a

sed him. His forehead creased. “I’v

you since your freshman days and you

words. What the hell? Does he have no

y raced as the blood on my body continued to rise up to my cheeks. It

othing more. I’m not some stalker who even follows you even after you g

still parti

nt when I see you outside campus,” he added. “I can’t hel

t help but strike him in the shoulders. He’s even trying to

ing me,” I said while frowning a

creepy and more sweet to me now. I couldn’t help but la

ouched my cheeks and I could feel the coldness of his han

gether do I feel s

and out. Nothing’s wrong with you and I want to say that you’re the best for me tha

ve me a kiss but he leaned f

mn

at’s why I want to show you all my good

ed gross and nonsense, but I guess when you’re in love, those words sound

will make us grow stronger together. We’ll build

le. This are the times I want the wo

ate.” Those were the last words that escaped

capable to put me at ease and saw me sleep

already sent me home in the morning while my car still starte

ly just tak

I heard the engine of his go, a

staying with him f

The maids were already sweeping right across the garden, the gardener was busy

hing bad. Well, I really didn’t do

or plastered in front of me, I

morning but there doesn’t seem to b

k a bath. Afterwards, I prepared my things and then

notice my face. There was a gaping excitement flashed on

e of preparing and then hanged my

hing, I walked towards my d

prepare for t

itchen when I took notice of my mom’s back. Just as I was

we need

her direction, only to s

oes sh

d onto a plate and ignored her. I walked and t

ren’t I not?” She used a deepe

o roll my eyes at her

cooped a few of my bacon an

t earlier and took notice that you weren’t ther

st rolled my eyes at her, try

much. I only continued with the food in m

ddle of two o’ clock in the morning. I also as

oked at my mother wit

. My dad also came home

nd lied to you but you’re still as

me right across the cheeks. At the same time, I saw Febi walking wi

on purpose again s

ly insane; trying to ruin your own life?” It was now Papa’s turn to scold me. He raise

eath. They’re te

is a bad person! Why don’t you try asking Febi? I knew that she real

my bag and imme

he right guy for you.” Just hearing it stra

ke my heart could explode at any m

to keep calm. I still r

for a long time and never told you once and this is the only ti

but I never looked at them anymore. I feel so fed up from t

like, they choose not to understand m

ntal to waver from just their scolded.

s the last straw. If she’s so ungrateful then

left my car near the convenience store since because of that attention-seeker’s g

when I came in. Afterwards, I drove towards the sc

nd crawl onto her two knees and two hands. I’ll make su