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s. The church bell rings again, startling me for the third time in two hours. The bell reminds me of my misfortunes, Mama alway
gown and pink heels, I pity people who sacrifice their comfort for fashion. Mrs. Agatha was Mama's favourite human; her daughters to my mama were a perfect example of God's creation. I try to hide my laugh when Mrs. Agatha rolls and hits
special child. She was selfless, she gave even when she had little,
t never her children, I sniff when my tears threaten to fall, I refuse to
so, I woke up one morning when I was eleven and decided to hurt myself. It is a weird theory, but I felt better crying over my bleeding finger than Mama'
ject to my pale white skin, it's exciting, and being able to feel pain ultimately decreases any physical or emotional pain
els like another hour or two, I sigh when we are all instructe
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oman, she has been Mama's lawyer for as long as I can remember, with her perfect face, perfect hair, an
perfect, and it is impossible to see her frowning, her patience is infuriating, I have tested it on several occasions when I knew Mama wasn't watching, and not once has her mask of perfection ever slipped. I nod my
in in great chaos because someone as beautiful as Mama was allowed to die. There is a lot of food, I a
sive
nsiv
sive
hen Grace made all these preparations explaining to me that it was the number one request in her
ot stop looking at her until she glances away in shame. These blood-sucking humans are neve
I sniff remembering my four dead brothers, I drink greedily from my cup, pretending it is the drink I desperately crave. I will not cry to
, offering to spend the night with me if I need company, I am their friend, but I have never considered them mine, I can't stand pr
my eyes but make space for her to sit beside me "I am so sorry for your loss, but I want you to
tha?" I am infuriated, that devil, even
have known her, but it quickly slips away,
oney I have enough on my own." She touches my hair, but quickly removes her hand, if I wasn't
dead body I cry, I am not only alone, b