The Romantic
in at the end o
tweed-suited body and its behaviour, squaring and swelling and tighten
rp gabled station; the black girders of the bridge; the white signal post beside it holding out a stiff, black-banded arm; the two ra
puzzle, red brown and pure bright green, dovetailed under the
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clanking on the tiles with the harsh, joyous candour that he hated. He walked noisele
eeling for his things, with shamed, helpless gestures. She could see him tipto
d have ru
wanted, wanted to ruin herself for him, to stand, superb and reckles
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ing out from the goods station-it would be the Cirencester ro
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looking at the clock
e bend, under the
ace and his stare over her head when she looked at him,
afraid he would turn sentimental at the end. But no; he was settli
the seat there. She picked it u
old? If only he hadn't come there las
he wondered whether Gwinnie's mother's lumbago would last over the week-end. It was Fr
ow-on-the-Wold, what was it but a cowardly retreat?
at its mouth on the top. Nothing would matter. Certainly not this affair with Gibson Herbert. She could see clearly her immense, unique passi
out; hours; little minutes that
ice when everything went wrong all at once and the clicking o
in her den, the door open between. Suddenly she saw him standing in the doorway, looking at her. She knew then. She could feel
and took her in his arms. She lay back in his arms, c
ou must have thought of me. You must have wanted me to take you i
was lying. He always thought people were lying. Women
e of the sofa, like children, holding each other's hands and swearing never to go back on it, never to
ight oozing in at the window out of the black street; and Gibson lying on his back, besid
queer, exalted feeling that she was herself, Charl
unhappy eyes and small, sharp-pointed face,
his wife. They couldn't hurt her; she didn't care enough. She nev
never been the same thing. She coul
en then there was always something beyond it, something you looked for and missed, something you thought would come that never came. There was somet
ght I could have loved a girl with bobbed hair. A white and black girl." There
brown haired girls with wide slippery mouths. Then Effie. Then herself, with
re only one of a procession? Or was it th
The break-down, w
ife, Sharlie, my wife. We o
Sharlie. I've been a brute,
to her-the little innocent thing-the
mean she
ad enough. If she kne
't care. You said th
e was
lied,
ou wouldn't have com
you didn't
with his "Well-w
it was to have been wonderful, quiet, like a heavenly death, so that you would get a thrill out of that beauty when you remembered. All the beauty of it from the beginning, taken up
anted with me. Why couldn
dirty, go and wash yourself outside. Don't tr
t a bit
ce. This minute." He called
ly way he liked, provided he did end it. But not last night. To come crawlin
r when he had wanted to raise her salary-afterwards-and she had said "What for?"
ed to get anything out of their passion? What could you
ted. A slender blue channel of sky fl
Charlotte Redhead. Of Gibson Herbert. Even now it would be all
er in his arms. It was that. It had never been anything but that. She had wanted him to take her, and he knew it. Only, if he hadn't come to her and looked at her she
e grey front of her inn, the bow window jutting, small black shin
d left it. Bread he had broken on the greasy plate. His cup with
it'll be another woman, Sharlie. If
at he had t
dn't