SILLAGE

He brings his hand up to caress my cheek and slowly leans in. I flutter my eyes close so I remember the feeling of his soft plump lips against mine and the way his scent burns on my skin. He releases a breath against me and removes his hands from my face taking a step back. I furrow my brows before opening my eyes again as I feel his warmth and smell leave me.

"What's wrong?" I ask him almost whispering.

"I can't, I can't do it." He shakes his head repeatedly with a hand rubbing his face.

I could hear my heart shatter into a million pieces. Feelings hurt. Too much. I hate my life.

"It's because of her isn't it?" I ask him clenching my jaw. He doesn't say anything and I nod repeatedly in understanding, gulping all my emotions and smile. I smile at him blinking rapidly so my tears don't fall.

"It's okay, turn around, her apartment isn't that far besides it's snowing, don't catch a cold." I hand him my muffler and pat his shoulders before turning around on my heel. I walk as fast as possible and as soon as I turn right to the entrance of my house, I release a breath before peeking to check on him.

I watch as he stands there looking at the muffler before sighing deeply and turning around to walk to her house with his hands in his pockets and my muffler around his neck.

How did I get into this mess? Let's take you a month back.

-One month ago-

I press the ground floor on the elevator and manage to get in with my phone and bag both in hand. Opening it, I immediately check who was texting me constantly. It was just Jim, he's such a flirt, I swear to god. Jim and I have been friends for over a year and he has very much established that he thinks I'm adorable but he has also made it clear that he would never make a move on me.

JIMY: MIA! WHERE ARE YOU

JIMY: ISTG YOU'RE ALWAYS BUSY

JIMY: GIVE LOVE TO YOUR ADMIRER MIAIAIAIA

YOU: What!?

Read 13:30

YOU: WHAT HAPPENED BISH

I lock my phone back as the elevator dings open and carefully move past the others to go out. I blow out a breath as I take in the air outside the hospital. My phone dings again and I roll my eyes already knowing who it is as I watch Jim's car stand across the road from me.

JIMY: I was here to pick you up hehE

(♡°ω°♡)

YOU: OH YoU ArE? I dOn'T tHInK I SeE yOu.

He looks up from his screen and waves at me smiling adorably though I can't see his eyes through his sunglasses, I know he probably can't see my face. He gets out of the car and opens the door for me while I cross the road to reach him and remove his beanie from his head, putting it on mine. He rolls his eyes closing the door once I get in and gets on the driver's seat.

"What did the doctor say?" He asks eyes on the road.

"Oh, about that, he couldn't find the reason too," I say as seriously as possible and he sighs before grabbing my hand and squeezing it.

"What are you lying about?" I furrow my brows before scowling at him.

"I'm not lying, he actually didn't find anything."

"So you're saying you fainted before, are exhausted almost all the time and he thinks nothing is wrong?" He abruptly stops the car and grips the wheel.

"Why are you mad Jim, it's probably just iron deficiency," I say squeezing his forearm.

"Right, just iron deficiency or something." He sighs and barely smiles at me before driving again. I sit silently the whole way, occasionally humming to the songs Jim put on.

"We're here, are you sure you can work? Call me if you feel dizzy. Okay, Mia?" I smile at him and punch him in the gut before running off. My phone dings as soon as I keep my bag on the counter. The cafe I work in is a book cafe so not a lot of people come here and those who do are quiet. It's nearly empty at this time of the day and it being Sunday, people must be out having fun. I unlock my phone and smile at the texts.

JIMY: that was so r000d

JIMY: watch me not pick you up

YOU: Okie

JIMY: LOVE ME (っ-̶●̃益●̶̃)っ YOU: no (•◡•) /

At least another hour passes by and not a single person walked in so I take out my phone to text Jim again.

JIMY: baby why do you do this to me?

YOU: lmao I'm sorry bAbY ツ

JIMY: Don't get all happy but I may or may not introduce you to a guy.

JIMY: And yes Mia, he reads too.

YOU: Oh my, bAbY I lOvE YoU sO mUcH

JIMY: Now you call me baby and tell me you love me when there's another man in your life.

YOU: ( ͡▀̿ ̿ ͜ʖ ͡▀̿ ̿ )

"You seem busy, is this not a good time to order?" My eyes shoot up from the screen to the person standing in front of me and he raises a brow at me casually playing with a straw from the counter.

I know him. I've seen him around school with Jim. He pushes his glasses up and moves his eyes around a little, sighing.

"Oh shoot, I mean, I'm sorry, Hi, what can I get for you?" I smile at him and watch as his gaze lingers at my dimples a little longer.

"I'd like an iced americano please", he says putting the straw back and brushing his blue hair back. Hot.

"I've noticed how you guys like Iced Americanos quite a lot", I make conversation as I check his order in.

"You noticed us or Jim?" He says and his face passes an expression of playfulness to mine.

"Yes, I've seen you around with Jim. Anything to go with it?" I ask him, laughing a little and he shakes his head no.

"That'll be Two dollars and ninety-five cents. Thank you very much, you can sit and read, I'll bring you your coffee in a minute." He hands me the money and then smiles. Oh, he has really cute dimples. There aren't a lot of Asian guys around school but all of them are cute.

I mean I think everybody is cute, you just gotta see the positives more.

I quickly make his coffee and come out from behind the counter. He's not near the shelves, probably reading one of the loveseats near the windows. I tip-toe and spot his blue hair from afar. I notice him reading 'turtles all the way down'. My favorite.

And that is my copy too.