The Tears In My Heart

Chapter 1

So it's Sunday, which means that Raiko is not in the office today, so I decided to get up and cook breakfast for Raiko and me, even though I have a maid, I'm still working on housework. Especially since I'm used to these tasks, I got up and went bathroom to take a shower, after taking a shower, I just wore an oversized t-shirt and jeans shorts and went downstairs afterwards.

"Good morning man! I'll be cooking" I saw him in the kitchen and said with a smile, taking bacon from the fridge,

"Good morning too son! oh go ahead and I'll just water the plants in the garden" he greeted me back and I just nodded and he left the kitchen,

I've started cooking bacon, eggs, and fried rice, I've also made coffee for him, I want him to have a good morning so I hope he'll appreciate what I'm doing even though he treats me like that.

I heard the refrigerator open and I looked at him wearing only a plain black shirt and shorts, even in his simple clothes he looked very handsome. ! so naughty!

"Good morning Raiko! I cooked you breakfast" he put the fried rice on the table and took a plate so he could eat it,

"Morning" he hummed while looking at me, I was surprised by the way he was staring so I shut up,

"Eat, I'll just make your coffee" I said and turned away, hoh!

I put the coffee on his side and saw him take a sip and look at the coffee I put down.

"eat, join me" he took a coffee and sipped it

I sat down in front of him and got some food, only the cutlery could be heard in our silence, I glanced at him and saw if he was doing something on his laptop,

"Are you leaving?" I asked as he hurriedly drank his coffee and took his laptop, he hadn't finished eating yet!

"yes, I have something to do"

"What are you going to do? Where?" Curious if Question

"important, I'm in a hurry, I'm leaving" he went up to his room and I was stunned staring at the stairs. When he was coming down, he stopped and looked at me from the kitchen I just stared at him as if begging him not to He left but I can't do anything, I have no rights, I can't complain, I can't act like his wife, because he was forced to marry me. His blood is so hot for me, even though we were together in the car, it was as if he was being killed. with me

I've lost my mood because of what happened earlier, so I decided to go to the mall and buy ingredients because I'm going to bake brownies. She also missed baking. It's also my hobby because my grandmother taught me to bake, after taking a shower. I got dressed, I just put on a simple dress and I went downstairs to say goodbye to my father,

After saying goodbye, I took my phone and called Raiko to say goodbye. When I left the house, I let her know where I was going so she would know where I was, she didn't answer my call so I just texted her.

After I entered the mall, I went to the grocery store to buy the ingredients, when I got everything I went to the cashier to pay for it, I paid everything and thought about buying ice cream first because I was hungry for ice cream cream I went through

"Ube flavor po" I paid and was about to leave when I saw a familiar man in the other store, I checked him and I was right behind him, the well-known man I already know, he was about to call him when a woman approached him and hugged him from behind he was surprised and faced the woman when he faced her he smiled at the woman in front of him. I just smiled when I saw it, I was happy to see him smiling but I didn't expect that I wasn't the reason for that smile. he didn't smile when we were together.

"Raiko...."

I was sad when I left the mall because I didn't expect to see him with a girl and even hugging her! He said it's important to do it, is that something he's going to do?!! I didn't expect him to do that to me but there was nothing I could do, he himself said that we shouldn't hurt each other, I respect that because that's what he wants, our relationship has limitations,

I asked our driver to pick me up and when I got home, I went to the room and cried, the tears that I had been holding back started to fall.

"Why does it hurt to love you Raiko" I didn't realize that I fell asleep from crying,

I woke up because of the loud knocking in my room, I looked at the window and it was dark at 7 o'clock in the evening. I had slept too long, I heard the knocking so I got up to look, I didn't expect Raiko to open the door for me

"Let's eat, I brought food" after he said that he looked into my eyes. I avoided his gaze because it seemed like he was examining me

"Fix your self first" I looked at myself. I hadn't gotten dressed before coming from the mall

"Hurry up, I'm starving" He added when he noticed that I was still stunned

"Yes" I closed the door and went to the bathroom to wash up

"Where did you go earlier?" I asked while we ate

He looked at me before answering

"I just have a client meeting"

"Where did you meet?"

"don't ask too many questions, just eat" I closed my mouth and just ate, why didn't he want to say that he had a date earlier!

"Do you have a girlfriend?" weak to ask

"what?"

"Are you cheating on me?" Oh that's English for you to understand!

"What do you mean by that? we are not together! what do you want me to do?" He said it weakly but with emphasis on every utterance of those words, my tears were on the verge of hearing

"So there is?" It was washed away by my question

"shall I say it again? don't care about my life and I won't care about yours either!" hard tagalog told me I could feel the anger building up in him,

"Don't cross the line Monique! You don't care if there is anything, and you can't do anything. You don't hold my heart"

He said catching up and still looking at me

"I know that but that's not right! We are married in the eyes of God, you are my wife! You know that! You promised in front of the altar that you would be a good Wife to me!" I cried when I said it because my heart felt like it was going to explode with what he was saying!

"Which one don't you understand?! In the first place You are the only one who wants this! My whole life I have never experienced making decisions for myself! My life is like a hell Monique! I can't even choose if who will I love because it's already planned! They've already planned my life! I can't disappoint them! even in love they need to be followed! you really think that it's easy for me huh?!" His eyes were full of anger, hatred and pain while he said that to me, I felt pain in my chest when I heard from him. I did not expect that he would feel this way for three years when we were married. hey, I feel sorry for his condition now,

"I can't love you Monique." He said softly and looked into my eyes, I just watched him as he walked away from me, the tears that I had been holding back began to flow, I just sat on the floor and sobbed.

It's been 2 weeks since what happened, Raiko and I answered that what he said hurt my part, I was very sad for the past few days because of it but I just ignored it, We are not making any money because he is going home to his condo , the last time I saw him was when he took his clothes but left immediately, That's when I realized that our marriage seemed hopeless and soon he would file for annulment, because that's what he really wanted it was then anyway.

I'm here in our province because I'm going to visit my grandmother. It's been a while since we last saw you. I just had our driver take me to La Union.

la union is very beautiful in manila so I just took it for a 3 hrs flight before I arrived.

"Thank you very much, Father Daniel, take care on your way home" I looked at the car leaving before facing grandma's house, I smiled when I saw again the house I grew up in, the house full of happy memories,

"Grandma" I shouted when I saw her watering in front of the house when she turned around and was surprised to see me

He quickly opened our little gate and hugged me,

"Apo ko jusko" he said crying while still hugging me, I hugged him tightly I was crying because we haven't seen each other for more than two months, I missed him for a long time and we missed our house and the quiet and beautiful scenery here in our province .

"Are you okay?" We're about to enter the house, I'm carrying a suitcase, I've already dried my clothes because I'll be staying here for about two weeks, I want to forget my problems in Manila for a while,

"I'm fine grandpa, thank you" he caressed my face and kissed me on the cheek,

"I will do everything for you, I love you so much"

"Oh where's Raiko? Aren't you with him?" I don't know what to say to grandma when she mentions Raiko's name, she knows Raiko, she was there when we got married

"He has a lot to do, so he's not sick anymore, but let me take him with me next time" I have to lie that we're okay, I have no intention of telling Lola what's really happening with Raiko, the only one who knows actually Raiko's mommy.

"There's nothing wrong with your cooking, it's so delicious" Grandma cooked me my favorite adobo and seafood, I miss this kind of food,

"Your mouth" he said because my mouth was full of food while talking, I just returned a smile and continued eating.

I was here before when I put my things down in my room and went to my bed. I really missed it. I took a shower and got dressed after that. I went to bed early because I was going to the resort where I used to work. you are a famous resort here in la union,

I woke up at six in the morning, I could hear the chirping of birds, I washed before going downstairs, and I saw Grandma in the kitchen cooking,

"Morning grandma" I hugged her back and kissed her on the cheek

"Good morning, did you sleep well?" I nodded

"It's good then, go ahead and have coffee, I bought you bread" he took a bag that was on the fridge and put it on the table

"Later, I'll go to the beach first, the waves look good, I heard" I said happily before leaving the house, when I left the door, I could see the beach, the air was so fresh, I walked along the beach, the people were so beautiful Waves are nice to bathe in

"I hope I can bring Raiko here" I whispered, my mood changed again when I thought of him, did he eat? he always does his job.

I returned home and took a shower because I'm going to the resort. I want to see the resort. I miss working because it's too big. Help me go to the resort. I'll just wear an up shoulder floral dress that is knee-length and flat sandals. , I took my bag and went out. I just rode a tricycle. The resort is close to my house, so I was able to get there easily.

After I got down, I could see the beautiful scenery. I could tell that there had been a lot of changes in the resort. It was bigger compared to before, there were too many people. Lola said that the resort had a lot of people every day, so it was getting to be better known.

"Amaya?" I turned to the person who called me

"it's you, you're so beautiful" when I turned around, I saw my beat friend here at the resort, Emma,

"Emma!" He hugged me and I hugged him back

"I missed you, why did you just come back? You're so beautiful right now"

"Because I live in Manila, I just visited Lola" I looked at her still in her uniform and I was right she still works here

"You have a boyfriend, don't you?" It teased and even pinched my side

"I don't have a boyfriend, I have a husband" he was proud and his eyes widened at what I said, he jumped for joy and hugged me

"Is it true?" He said he couldn't believe it, he's still like that, it hasn't been new for a long time, I just laughed because of his awkwardness.

To Be Continued...