My Broken Life

When I was 5 years old, my parents send me to my grandparents because they said I am a trouble maker on family. And so my grandparents raised me up until at my age of 15. I am grew up in strict grandparents until I decided to runaway from them. And yes I did it. I went to the town to apply work as a working student and yes I did. At this point I learn how to join and how to mingle in friends and other society. Until the day I remember my father. I went home but they are not at home and I said it's okay maybe they forget me. I went back to the place where I worked as a working student.

In this school I am very quit,I only have few friends and I don't wanna talk oftenly it seems like I'm an introvert. Until 1 day there's a student tried to approach me to ask what's my name and so I answered them and said leave me alone I want to be alone. And the guy said you don't like me right?So I want to introduce you my friend name Demjun and I smiled because Demjun is the crush in whole school campus a lot of girls sorounded him and likes him.And suddenly at weekend Demjun visit me in the house where I'm working and he told me that he likes me

to be his friend and I said okay no problem until the day he courted me and I said can't be because he was just 13 years old and I am 15 years old. And so I'm exposed in social life and I started to think about my new life and the Future.I forgot my family most specially my dear Father. And aty age of 16 I stopped studying and plan to work in town.I went there,to apply job. And yes I did it.Lavilla family admitted me to work them on their restaurant.I start working there until I found a bad influence friends.They took me in vices and drink liquor and to hangout until I'm on drug addiction but still I am working them.Intil one day I saw my father across the restaurant I want to hug him,I want to say hi,but I'm afraid because I stopped my studying. Lavilla family saw how I am doing wild to my life it seems like they saw me that has no more bright future because of my vices.Until Lavilla father talked to me and said we release you try go so far and find your self and this was really collapse on my mind like( oh my God where do I go now) and yes I went travel going City and I went try to look a job but still I didn't get a Job until I decided to go back in Lavilla family and yes they forgive me and admit me again ,In a few days I'm focused on my work but one day there is a guy courted me and flirting me I went with the flew and go with him in that moment.He was good to me and care about me until one day there's something happened between me and him as we have relationship. At the month of July my minstruation was not came and I'm afraid it.I talked to my boyfriend I said I'm pregnant at this age of 18 but he replied what! Hey I'm not ready to be a father!We go to the clinic and abort that,and at this time I stand like a candle that melt little by little and my heart was really broke 💔💔😭😭.Ibran to my best friend named Gerly I talk to her while I'm crying and I said what would I do now, I'm pregnant?and she replied come with me to the city I knew someone can abort that.And I said why? And she replied Your Boyfriend Is now My Boyfriend we have several date when you're busy at work. And I turned out my face and crying all over.I said why it's happen to me? And I set up a date for meeting me,my boyfriend and my best friend and yes they came an I ask to my boyfriend choose whome you go with me or my best friend? And my boyfriend said I choose your Best friend. And I turned around walk away and my tears fallin down my face and I Said my father will kill me if he will knee it.And because I'm scared of my father.I travelled going in Pandanon Island Bohol,I have relatives there maybe after I gave birth I left the baby and I look another job in Manila .And yes I did it . And in this island I only have few friends and there is a guy who want to help me,he always gave me money for my food and daily needs his name is Pinoy he is married with 1 daughter at that time. He always hands me on a food and money.Ye always says,You look pity and you're poor,it seems like you don't know what happen to you,but I smiled and said it's okay after this I will go far away,and Pinoy said if only I could maybe You'll be wife if I'm not married at this time I like you and I love you. But still I keep it in my self because I'm married.And I smiled and says stop your silly .And at 28th day of March,2001 My tommy is really painful and that I said to Pinoy my tommy is painful and my aunt is not here in house they went to town.and Pinoy quickly got a midwife and yes I gave birth of 1 pretty daughter and when I open my eyes Pinoy was there in my side smile and said congratulations you deliver safely. MD from this day I'm thinking to gave my baby to my aunt this couple has no children since they married.And yes I did it. After 1 month I left the baby with legal papers of adoption and the couple said you can visit your daughter anytime you can see her,and I am saying goodbye to them and I travelled going Cebu City to apply in agency as Housemaid for Manila.

I am successful the agency accept application and schedule to travel going Manila. When I'm in agency branch in Manila they assigned me in Baguio City my employer was from Baguio City. And this time my age is 19 years old .Still my Mind molding a plan for my future and for my baby ,but because this family has a business so there are a lot of people working there until 1 day there is a guy who showed care for me and I invited me for lunch and dinner until I fall in love with him.And the passed by our relationship going 9 months and we decided to go home in my boyfriends province. Me and him were resigned from work and went home. At the 1st to 3rd months of our live-in period our relationship was very happy and harmonious but after that month all are faded. He oftenly scolded me and always reminds me that I already had a baby that I'm so lucky that he picked me up from work and bring to their place to live in good life... My life was really broken 😭😭💔💔.We don't have baby. I'm not getting pregnant from him. Until one day I decided to runaway from him. Because he abuses me. At this day I planned to runaway if he went to the river for fishing and yes I did it. I ran away and I don't know where do I go since I don't know yet where's the bus terminal for Baguio City. Until there is a trycle guided me going there in bus terminal and I already went for travel almost 3 hours. When I reached to Baguio City.I don't know where I'm going? And I'm starving and eating lunch in restaurant and there is a guy asking where you work?I replied I don't have yet job I will just look a job today,and he tried to discuss a kind of work.Lije it's a bar and he said a bar need a waitress,and because of my situation that I never get a job on this day so I was following him on the bar and he introduced me to the bar owner and that day I started to work as a waitress. I have no experienced on this kind of job but I observe what other waitress did. And I saw them flirting the costumer so that the costumer will have a lot of drinks called ladies drinks and I did what they are doing. So after 1 week of this job ,I enjoyed and I already knew how to intert8tje costumers until I tried to sing even my voice is very terrible. On the other weeks at Saturday afternoon there's a group of men came in the bar and one of them has a girl in the bar where I worked.The other 1 guy asked me to cooked a chicken and the other on guy asked me to enter a song that he wanted to sing.I need to move quickly and of course I always smiled at them. There is a guy from this group asked my floor manager to set with him in other table and so it's happened,and the guy asked about me from where I am and from where's my family. We have very close friendship until we both fall inlove each other. But in other day I wonder why he's not able to answer my call and to reply my chat? Until the time comes there is a girl answering my call she's very angry and she told me that she's a wife of those guy. And so I apologize her because I'm just a victim of her husband until the wife was calm and talk to me nicely. The days passed by me and his wife meet each other in some places in Baguio City Philippines. We talked like an old friends his wife is cool and friendly until we're getting close and the guy is now just my friend. There was a time, his wife invited me to go in the site where they are living a construction site. And when I came there all people staring at me and to his wife they wonder how we getting friend that I am a mistress. But we don't mind them. Suddenly at 4 O'clock in the afternoon there was a heavy rain and hard for me to go home because there are only few bus will passes by. Until the evening comes and her wife wants me to stay there and I will sleep with them in barracks room. Her wife prepare for our dinner and we ate together me her wife and this guy. After we ate, time to sleep the guy wa in other side and her wife in between us and I'm in other side. But I noticed the guy his foot will touch my foot and I move away from them. And morning comes and breakfast was ready and we ate together again. After breakfast time for me to go home and bye all of them.

When I arrived at home I cry out loud For my guiltiness and painful heart because the truth is hurt for me to see them hugging and kissing. Yes it is! And Because of this I move to my Uncle to work in Hotel as front desk officer. And I am happy working here and after 6 month the owner of hotel declare that they need to pull out newbies and I'm one of them. So my uncle recommend me to his friends to work in hospital as housekeeper. Right those day I start to work and I'm staying in staff accomodation. And the Dr. woke me up at 1:00 dawn because there is a patients need an operation she wants me to assist her in operating room,and I'm afraid because I never been in any medical course and I am just 3rd year high school. After 2 months I've plan to ran away because the job is not suitable for me. And so I did it.I ran away with friends and they recruite me to work in the Club as a dancer. And this decision strat broken my life. I worked at night as dancer in the club. I earn a lot of money from drinks. So I send money for my daughter. And in this kind of work I learned a lot of vices that ruin my life. I have souch regrets of running away from good opportunity. And running away make my life Broken.