Love You Till I Die

Are you sure that you can't love me back? Eunice ask Sheldon while sitting on his lap. Using her most seductive voice, she is trying to seduce the man.

"You know the answer to that Eunice, I love your sister very much since we were young. Can you stop this non-sense. I will never love you back. So stop doing this for your sister sake." Sheldon angrily remove her hand that's touching his lips and push her to the ground.

Ouch that's hurt. My ass is for you to caress." She stood up right away, touching her aching butt. She's wearing a body fitting jeans that shows her round but not so big ass. Just sexy enough. She like to dress up and look beautiful for Sheldon.

"And why are you here in my office. Jack!" He shouted to his secretary. "Am I not clear enough when I told you not to let Eunice in my office."

Immediately, Jack went inside to the Boss office, he is also surprise that the young Miss of Robinson is inside.

Err, Boss! I didn't know that she's here. Jack said. I went with you in the meeting room.

"So you're blaming me." If looks could kill, Jack will be dead right there, with how Sheldon is looking at him.

Ah errr...

Don't blame him honey! It's not his fault that he can't distinguish, whose who. Eunice interrupt. She doesn't like someone to be blame because of her.

I told you many times that you're not allowed here.

But honeycakes...

"Stop wasting my time, get out of here and respect your sister. She's been patient and understanding enough with your capricious. When are you going to grow up and help your family business so you wont disturb me during working hours."

"If you will be my boyfriend I promise to be good and be more responsible."

I am not a thing for you to covet, I am your sister's boyfriend. He put emphasis on the last sentence.

I can get whatever I want but you're the only exception. You know I love you too since we were young but you're not giving me a chance to show it. You're always rejecting me and have only eye for Bernice and I don't know why?"

"I am more beautiful than my sister, sexier and I only like you." She hook up her arms around Sheldon neck.

Sheldon laugh sarcastically and remove her hands. "This is what I don't like about you, you're shameless and full of yourself but your nothing without your parents wealth."

"What to like about you, you're a spoiled heiress that knows nothing. Don't ever compare yourself with Bernice because you will only make yourself bad. A rotten one between the two. How many boyfriends did you have since puberty.

But I only take them to see if you will be jealous.

As if, I don't like you since we were young. You always pester me and bullied Bernice.

Because you only want to play with Bernice and she doesn't want me around. You also bullied me then and even when we grew up, you're always angry with me but nevertheless I still want you. I think that's my curse. She pouted.

I don't like a secondhand thing with no self-respect. She can see the disgust in his eyes that intended for her.

She stares at Sheldon handsome face and sigh inwardly. I am used with the way he talk to me but everytime he is being harsh with his words I cant help but still get hurt.

If you don't like secondhand thing, break up with Bernice. she said, she knows that her sister is no longer pure but it seems that Sheldon doesn't know about it.

Don't disrespect your innocent sister. I'm referring about your shameless shenanigan with different boyfriend.

Different boyfriend. Its only a fling, they didn't even get the chance to kiss her since she want to give her first kiss to Sheldon. She thought inwardly. There was time that due to her frustration with her unrequited love with Sheldon, she dated several times to show him that someone can like her and admire her. She had a delusion that, if Sheldon can see that someone like her, he will realize his feelings with her.

But it backfire. Few days later, Sheldon and Bernice, formally announce to their family their relationship.

She was really hurt by their announcement because she truly like Sheldon though he doesn't take her feelings seriously.

For him, its only my capricious that I should get what I want and he make it a point that he will be the exception.

It is not her fault that her family is well off that my parents can give me everything that I ask for except of course for Sheldon.

She ask her parents to arrange a marriage between them but they refused and said that because her sister also like Sheldon, it will depend on the man. And he chose Bernice and advice me to accept their relationship and be happy for her sister and friend.

She retreat for few months, she continue to date different guys hoping that she can get over her feelings for Sheldon. She tried to minimize her interaction with them but everytime she tried to, Sheldon is always there, glaring at her and insulting her.

After several months of no success to forget how she feels about Sheldon, she decide to pursue her feelings with him.

She accepted that he loves her sister now but she comes to a resolution that if she can honestly show her true feelings to him, she can get his love. She shamelessly confess her feelings to him, disregarding her sisters feeling. I know its not right but ever since they were young, they have the habit to compete with each other, be it with toys or their parents attention and lastly with Sheldon attention.

When she was young, she tried to share her things with Bernice and be more loving but her sister is a devil in disguise. She will destroy things and blame her. So she learn to fight back but she became bad and selfish to others because Bernice will make it look that I started the fight and she will make herself look pitiful with tears in her eyes. The damsel in distress.

So when Sheldon, visits to play and see Bernice, crocodile tears, he will ask Bernice, who did it to her and the actress will refuse to name her. Sheldon will always come to conclusion that, she bullied Bernice and will bullied her in return. They will exclude her to their games. She doesn't like crying so she will destroy what they are playing, in retaliation.

Because she had that reputation, she shamelessly confessed to Sheldon and swear that she will do her best to make him love her.

It is easier said than done. Of course, he doesn't believe me and insult my feelings. It became a habit to him to embarrass me and became more harsher with me.

Always, empathizing that he will only love my sister and whatever I do, it has no effect to him and it only makes him disgusted with her.

It's been two years since I confessed my feelings to him and its been 10 years that I like him. There was no changes with the way he treated her. Always strict and insulting.

Is it time to retreat and surrender? she ask herself but didn't noticed that I said it verbally though in a low and sad voice.

"That's the best gift you will give me. Back off and leave us alone." Sheldon is so close to Eunice, that even though she said her last thought in low voice, Sheldon can clearly understand her.

"I'm only shameless with you." She said. Because I don't want to regret that I didn't tried my best to get what I want but I guess this is it the end of rope for the two us.

That's very Eunice, get what she want without thinking of other people. Disrespecting your sister and my feelings.

Are you sure, without a doubt, that you don't have feelings for me, even a little bit. She needs to nail it, in my brain that it is a lost cause to pursue Sheldon.

My only feelings for you is disgust.

Don't regret your decision. Once I decide not to love you, I will not change my mind, even if you kneel or kill yourself. I will not give you another chance. Her pride that's normally gigantic, wanted to reclaim its post. She lost it, when she decide to love Sheldon.

"The only regret that I have is, I cant totally get rid of you since your Bernice sister and disgustingly look exactly like Bernice. Your always on her shadow so she can't have spotlight for herself."

"Too bad for her." she glared at him. This is the last time that I will allow myself to feel the pain but she wont cry and be more pitiful in front of him. After today, they wont exist in my world.

Good riddance! Still proud and head held high, she exit, Sheldon's office.

She failed but she wont regret her action. Contrary to what other thinks of her, she doesn't put herself above everyone. She knows that, she cant get everything that she want, that she needs to work harder for something that she really want. So there will be no regret at the end.

It's Sheldon birthday today.

Last year, she's busy to find the best gift for him but today she lazily lying on the bed. She has a gift for him in her drawer but she's not planning to give it to Sheldon. She decided not to attend his birthday party as part of her healing and forgetting process. It wont do her good, if she can see his handsome face and charming smile that is directed to her sister only.

They can be together, for all I care. Hmmmp! Frowning while imagining the annoying scenario in her head.

Knock...knock...

Come in! she shouted, too lazy to get up.

Mrs. Holland, her loving nanny, enter with a red dress in hand.

Eunice, your dress for tonight. I'll hang it in your wardrobe room. Would you like me to contact your favourite hairdresser....

"No need." She cut off Mrs Holland. "I'm not gonna attend the party, you can throw that dress. I wont be needing it anymore." She pouted while looking at the dress. She designed the dress with Sheldon on her mind and heart, and she don't need a reminder of her heartache.

"You can wear it or give it to Mina." Mina is Mrs Holland's niece. "I've heard that she will be attending her highschool prom. It will look good on her, with a little adjustment."

Goodness! Mrs Holland exclaimed, when she heard her instruction. "It wont fit on me but Mina can wear it. Are you sure, this dress is very beautiful and I know, you prepared it just for Sheldon. Mrs Holland is well aware of her feelings for Sheldon since she was young, because everytime that Sheldon and Bernice excludes her in their games, she always cry secretly in Mrs Holland's arms.

I decided to let them be and forget about my feelings for Sheldon. So from now on Nans, no mention of Sheldon's name in front of me. Tell the others please.