Not my wish

[i (January 2. 2005) " so what do you think is the best thing for me to do right now?" I asked dr.smith who was checking my vitals to make sure everything's ok.

 " what I suggest is for you to go home and spend your days happy Emily. Find some friends to hang out with, be a teenager for once until your last day on earth." I sighed and looked down.

" I don't know if I can do that. No one at my high school likes me, they make fun of me and I am very anti social." He smiled at me and patted my head.

" well it's up to you. I know you like drawing, continue with that. Anything that makes you happy." I nodded my head and look at my dad who was sitting beside me with tears in his eyes.

" how long did you say doctor?" Dad asked and I took his hand in mine so I could give him some comfort.

 " a year or two maybe less. So I suggest you let her have some fun, do whatever she wants to and don't baby her too much. It's sad that you'll loose your only child soon and at such young age as well. I just want you to be there for her, if anything happens before that you have my number. Remember I'll always be her doctor." Dad nodded his head and placed a kiss on the back of my hand.

" don't worry angel, we'll get through this together." I wish that was true. I wish I didn't have to leave my dad because he's the only family I have. My mom left him when I was twelve and we've been on our own ever since. now I am sixteen years old and doesn’t have long to live.

" we'll make this work." He nodded his head and started crying, praying to god that he doesn't take his only child from him.