STARLIGHT SCARS

It was going to be the birthday that would never come.

Daddy had meticulously arranged our trip to Disneyland, telling Mommy that her pretending to be sad would never happen because his little princess would only turn 10 once.

He sneered at her, sticking out his tongue at her for being unable to accompany us on our fantastic journey because she had to work. I put my arms around Daddy and started laughing uncontrollably, all the while my parents were deep in their never-ending argumentation, which was always entertaining to see.

I didn't even get a wink of sleep that night. Excitedly, I lay awake and stared at my customized Disney princess calendar, getting ready to mark the most important day on it: my birthday.

When I got up at five in the morning, my dad and I immediately had a plate full of pancakes, followed by my all-time favorite hot chocolate. When I was ready, Mommy and I waited in the hallway for Daddy to carry our suitcase downstairs. I opened the front door and let the light flow into the hallway, pale and peach, then shaded my eyes from the rising sun.

"Hurry up Daddy! I want to meet Mickey and Mini Mouse and Cinderella!"

As Daddy threw our bag down the corridor, Mommy gave him a sharp yell when it came to a stop at the bottom of the stairs, causing a loud rumbling laughter to fill the space. To the sound of his car keys rustling, he sloped down the stairs.

He brushed my chestnut curls and slid passed me onto the porch, saying, "Easy there, baby!"

I smiled at Mommy's bewildered look as her gaze followed Daddy to his car. The last time I ever saw Mom smile the same unfettered grin she always let slip around Daddy, she grinned at him with the all too familiar caring, loving, and thankful smile they shared. He was the only one who could make her smile like that.

In an attempt to catch her attention, I pulled at the hem of her nightgown.

"Yes, honey?" she asked, grudgingly tearing her husband's bright, pale blue eyes away to look down at me.

I kissed her cheek as she knelt and let her arms wrap around me like a bear embrace.

"Enjoy your weekend and look after your daddy. Sometimes he forgets that he's a grown man."

"I heard that! Seraphina-baby tell your Mommy to stop being a meanie!"

I glanced at the tall man's approaching face and laughed quietly when he gave Mommy a sarcastic scowl. Daddy's chestnut curls shifted upon his forehead and his shirt rippled in a breeze gentler than a feather's kiss. He had the sun directly behind him, illuminating every lock with a glaring brightness that caused me to shade my eyes.

"We're not kids anymore Thomas."

That made Mommy smile with malicious intent.

She let out a little cry, "No, no, Thomas stay away from me!" as Daddy buried his face in her pale blonde hair and sank his fingers into her side, his chest rumbling with a loud laugh.

As he tormented Mommy, his amber eyes gleamed from the tangle of her fair hair, and winked at me.

"Your turn Seraphina-baby!"

Warm hands brushed my sides and neck, and I screamed.

Still a victim of Daddy's gigantic fingers, I cried frantically as I was lifted off the ground and onto his shoulder. "Stop tickling me!"

My frantic squeals were interrupted by a second voice, "Thomas, give her a break!"

I sent Mommy a beseeching glance while crying and gasping for air, and then I closed my eyes and laughed uncontrollably.

"That's enough," Mommy said, shoving Daddy away and giving him a cruel look.

Mommy's pale blue eyes melted as she clasped her hand to her mouth to stop herself from laughing at the constipated appearance and crossed golden eyes; nonetheless, I couldn't help but giggle when Daddy looked at her with a sheepish smile from behind his heavy lashes.

"Awwn lighten up Lucy. It's Seraphina's birthday!"

Then Mommy was pulled into a bone-crushing embrace, and her determination wavered.

Daddy whispered in her hair, "You expect us to act like old people, even though we're not even thirty."

Withdrawing, he embraced her cheeks and bent slightly till he was facing her at eye level. A somber expression took the place of any hint of humor.

"Are you sure you'll be okay by yourself?"

Mommy nodded, tearing her attention from his and meeting me with a smile.

She gave him a gentle glance. "Don't worry about me. Just enjoy yourselves."

I would have braced myself if I had anticipated it, but I screamed as soon as his lips touched hers. They grinned shyly as they jerked back, startled.

I covered my eyes, and the image burned into my consciousness, "That's gross, Daddy!"

"Oh don't be silly Sera! You'll have to put up with Tyrone's kisses. I mean, the kid adores you and you like him back and-"

My cheeks heated and Mommy muted Daddy's remarks. My cheeks flushed at the mention of my best friend's identical brother. I gave myself a mental pat on the back for even bringing out the Valentine's card my dad sent me seven months ago, since now he would never stop making fun of me when Kelvin and Tyrone Davis came over to play.

Reluctantly, he untangled his arms from Mommy's waist and clapped his hands together. "Okay, let's hit the road, kiddo."

Grasping my hand in his, he guided me to the car while whispering. Daddy bent over and inclined his head to the left, staring lovingly at me just before he opened the passenger door for me.

"Wanna know a secret about being in love kiddo?"

I looked at the green moss ring around his eye, pulled into those pools of molten gold lava, and then shook my head angrily in disgust.

"Love is for losers!"

He put a hand on my shoulder and grinned, saying, "There's still much for you to learn," before getting to his full height. "There's never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment..."

I pretended to gag when he trailed off and looked at Mommy, who was wiping tears from her eyes. He had a silly, melancholy smile on his lips. I tried repeating what he had said in my head, but I was at a loss for words.

Blinking once, then again, I stared at him, bewildered.

"Huh?"

"Never mind, Sera," he said, allowing me to get into the passenger seat and put on my seat belt.

As I wound down the window, I let the early sun warm my cheeks while I peered up at the flimsy peach clouds speckled with purple. It hit me again, this time with a frightening yet exuberant sense of expectation and excitement that made me gasp for air.

I had a Disneyland trip planned! We were finally able to finance the trip of my dreams after all these years!

Mommy padded towards the car and leaned through my window just as the engine started, making sure my seat belt was securely fastened before giving me one last kiss on my cheek. She darted over to Daddy's window and fussed a lot, asking all sorts of things. She let out a sigh of relief as she pulled on his seat belt.

"Seraphina, make sure your father keeps his seat belt on and his eyes on the road. We both know how he tends to start daydreaming at any given moment."

Upon meeting those melting eyes, I chuckled heartily as they crossed.

Daddy griped, "Lucy, stop worrying we'll be perfectly fine. It's only a six-hour drive," while Mommy fussed over his hair through the windshield of his automobile.

She stopped and stroked the furrow between her brows until it vanished. "Only? How can I not worry when you have the mental capabilities of a teenager? You're reckless Tom," she said. "Just remember to stay safe and make sure that Seraphina eats everything in her packed lunch. Call me when you guys check into the hotel. Okay?"

Daddy mimicked her nervous tone, "Okay Mom," as she planted one more, lingering kiss on him.

"I love you, Thomas."

I looked aside as Daddy ran his palm over her cheek and said, "Gross!"

"I love you too Lucy."

I was getting annoyed with them again because they were doing that cutesy "staring at each other in silence" thing.

Pale blue eyes met my golden ones as she backed away. I gave my mother's messy hair one more look and memorized it as she brushed her fingers through it, sweeping it past her shoulders just the way Daddy liked.

"Look after yourself and your father. I love you, Seraphina."

"I love you too Mom."

She called after the car as Daddy pulled out of the driveway, giving her a wink.