The Lost Lycan

"I don't like her."

I was in my room when Adam was engrossed in conversation with his friends, I caught bits of words that sent a chill down my spine.

My hand, poised to knock gently, froze in mid-air as I overheard those disheartening remarks from my supposed future mate. Clutched in my trembling fingers was a carefully prepared meal, a dish his parents had assured me was one of his favorites. I had hoped to surprise him, but little did I know that I would be the one taken aback.

My heart sank as Adam's unkind words echoed in my mind. This wasn't the first time I had heard him speak disparagingly about me. He had never been keen on the idea of us being together, always questioning why he should be forced to marry me out of all the women in our pack. His disdain was not a secret, and he made it known to my face.

"She's like a weak child, constantly in need of protection. I refuse to have someone so feeble as my partner. I despise her very existence," he uttered callously.

With a forced smile now replaced by profound sadness, I bit my lower lip, willing my emotions to stay in check. Deep down, I had always known that he would never truly accept me as his future mate. I had strived to meet his standards, but I was never enough, and I never would be.

Soon, he would ascend to become an Alpha, and for me to be a worthy Luna, he expected me to match the strength of his mother. Those were the words he frequently hurled at me whenever the topic of marriage arose. But as a mere human, how could I ever become like his mother? I lacked any trace of werewolf blood in my veins.

From my earliest memories, I had felt like a burden to my adoptive parents, though they loved me wholeheartedly despite not being their biological child. Sadly, my presence brought them shame and disappointment. They suffered because of me, and I couldn't escape the sense that I was unwanted in our pack.

Time and again, they pushed me away, regarding me as a stain on their lineage. Though each hurtful word wounded me deeply, I bore it all, yearning to prove myself worthy. But this time, I couldn't hold back the tears welling in my eyes.

Adam's degrading remarks struck at the core of my soul, leaving an indelible mark. How could I ignore his hurtful words when they came from the person I loved the most? He meant everything to me, but all he desired was to cast me aside.

Was I not worthy?

"I will be the happiest person when that pathetic weak girl disappears. I don't want to see her anymore. I hope she goes somewhere and never comes back." I felt his words. He was not joking. He wanted me to disappear.

I put down the food and ran while my tears flowed like a river. I loved him, but I knew in myself he would never feel the same as long as he saw me as someone who couldn't match his mother's power.

I was just a human, a loser, and a disgrace to the pack. I had been fantasizing about being the strong and beautiful Alpha's Luna, until one day, he pinched my chin with a look of disdain and said to me cruelly, "I reject you as my Luna. A lowly human like you only deserves to die."

And my heart was shattered instantly. While my tears flowed, I saw Adam's lips curve and show me his cruel smile. He hated me that much and wanted me to die.

Without any hesitation, he said those words in front of me. Without a second thought, he didn't even consider my feelings.

My heart skipped for a moment. I wanted to tell him about what I felt for him, but he just rejected me and even wished me to die.

"You are not that important. A weak human like you was like garbage that was easy to be thrown." He brought his face closer to me. "I didn't want you to be my Luna. I rejected your whole being. Just die. I wanted you gone, weak human."

Adam had everything that every woman wanted. Strong, independent, powerful, handsome. He was good at everything. Maybe I needed to accept that there was some other girl out there who would match his expectations and become a better Luna. And that girl was not me.