Laura's Hope

ivid. I considered telling my parents, but decided against it, knowing I would be questioned

uld be a very

positive effect, not a negative although I wasn't so sure. I knew I should have agreed to go to s

irror, relived that the girl in the reflection had more color to her skin. I was so skinny...it made my gut clench, and want to eat out the whole house; instead I rolled

ep, her pretty face curious. I almost s

last night." She smiled, l

her head and continued down the stairs, greeting my dad with a kiss on the cheek before slipping thr

After a moment I began to lowly sing along, finding myself enjoying the song a

had me singing along lowly as the familiar tunes came back. I hadn't listened to music in forever, but I used

n. The stares were something I’d never get used to. With a goodbye I sat at one of the courtyards outside tables, smiling with relief as Isaac sat beside me. Althoug

ed. Isaac was cute, but geeky was a

ow’s it

me then as he went on and on about Luke Skywalker and Darth Vader. I pretende

and I thought he was looking at us, but before I knew for sure he looked away. Only then did I realize Bastien sat beside him, his pose relaxed as he spoke to the pretty br

he was fixated on the boy with the blonde hair. The boy who was walking right towards us with purpose in his blue eyes and my stom

y gaze then his green eyes oddly confused. I noticed before he looked at

ack at the blonde, but he was already too close to t

her y---," I

ing. I stared with curiosity as the guy all but ignored my

s gaze. Isaac was the type of guy who was f

ge t

ductively. I looked between the two, wondering if maybe they had something and

because Isaac was so nerdy him being into guys hadn’t crossed my m

give Isaac time to put himself together. People stared, gazes bu

ce, his blue eyes disinterested. Not that

in, he touched it lightly, an acknowledgement. Nausea hit me and I stumbled backwards, biting my lip and looking over my shoulder to see if anyone was still s

me I looked over to Isaac

hunger in those blue eyes as he watched my friend. I felt like I was

going. Nice seeing you

, not turning to face me which was another unusual thing. Before I hit the hall ways I risked a backwards glance at Bastien to

rsation before we entered class. "Isaac...is your conversations with Ja

like me. They don't go for guys at all," he said in a small voice. It broke my heart th

hy

e me anyway." I wished I could hug him, to make him feel better a

nking about it, if Jason really had taken a like to Isaac he would forget what anyone thought and m

s covered arm with my hand. It felt wrong, so after about two seconds I pulled back, looking away. When

to, I was just concerned," I told him almost desperately, I didn't wa

you get me?" I wished I could have said yes, but I didn't get understand. I slowly shook my head, and Isaac smiled half heartedly. Moving a

and when he opened his green eyes they were glassy, emotionless emeralds. Again, I wished I wasn’t so useless, that I could help, but what he was saying had

makes Brad Pitts look worthless and then your fashion, plus you're so smart. High school just sucks," I gru

e papers that she didn't notice me. Bastien was in his seat again, his hazel eyes watching me as I contemplated whether or not to s

nto the seat, trying not to noti

tight navy blue V-neck, denim jeans that hung lowly on his hips, along with dress shoes. The dress shoes didn't belong with the causality of the outfit but since he looked

hrough it, finding that French was very similar to Spanish, using gender nouns; just

. His dark hair spilled lightly on the table and his head was on the desk, hazel eyes closed and thick eyelashes castin

smooth it away. That’s when I noticed how close I'd gotten to him, so close that I smelled how wonderful he smelle

ntertaining about Mr. Lacriox?" I blushed qui

s..." It was a palpable lie so I didn't mind when Mrs. Dev. tsked me, facing the board to continue the lesso

trying to stop. The class hour continued slowly as Mrs. Dev lectured until the bell rung. With an a

g pace with me although I

d knowing if I looked over, I’d got

than watch him and his girlfriend suck faces. The emotions I felt hit me hard in the chest and for a sec

ing beside me, unease masking the atmosphere around us until I could no longer stand it. I stopped in the middle of

l gaze met mine, pleading and wide. Reminding me of a little

knew it to. He ran his hand through his messy locks making my fingers twitch to feel those si

y was he going through so much trouble to drive me home? Didn't his girlfriend need a ride?

his eyes boring into my back. I suppressed a little shi

r about anything and everything. I found it was nice as I wa

ourth block without problems, probably because t

rking lot. Unsure if I should wait, I shrugged, standi

r side anyway. Glancing back one last time before sitting inside, still I didn’t see him so… Exactly w

and dread coiled in my stomach as I realize

to talk to him again my consci