In Search of Redemption

around me; Antonio, Dad, Geisa... I then understood what ha

hat's it? Have I

ision... How could I know where to go? I eventually collapsed from exhaustion. And that's how I stayed. Lying face down on the fluffy grass. I couldn't stop crying. I didn't want to die. Not yet... I couldn't be dead. I still had many plans for the future... Projects I started and didn't finish... Deadlines and trips with days to go... I couldn't stay there. It was impossible to accept that I would never see the people I loved again. It was ironic! Pure irony to think that after having mourned my loved ones, I was now mourning

ng. The chances were slim and I eventually dismissed the idea. Even if it were possible to return, I would never get to see them, who knows in which family I would be born? I wouldn't recognize them. And my fiancé would be too old by the time he finally reached adulthood and certainly married. I came to the conclusion that death is really the end. End of the past, end of dreams, end of hope for the future, end of sharing the tastes and sorrows of life. I lost everything! The people I love, my past, my future, my projects... Everything was left behind. It is horribl

g Mom and tell her not to cry anymore, that death was just a passage and that when her time came I would be waiting for her... If I had known w

lf so much, dear... Yo

nd there were Dad and Antonio. I didn't see Ge

Ho

re very confused and need to learn and understan

wanted to see my family again? Or was it a hunch? Or coincidence

always mean something. And answering your question; we k

w do you

arm and we started walki

ing of your new condition. That is the first step. Things here, we are le

I can

ster than you

u left us? We have suffered your loss

nd I confess that it all hurt my soul. It was a real torture not to be able to go back and console everyone, saying

en, having a normal life, full of small joys and occasional problems of everyday life. Those dreams were interrupted. I feel as if my whole

ay, but then we discover and understand that the death of the body does not mean the e

usion, I have all the time in the world t

lked over a

but... I wouldn't be happy like you imagine. You would be very sick, Liza. Anyway

f from the embrace. "After all, she was a healthy young woman. Yo

cancer. You would find out

here. Not from Antonio's perspective. He was kind, but he was also very fatalistic. I myself had seen people get cured

alked along a road lined with grass and flanked by pleasantly scented trees, where the flowers competed in equality of beauty. This path led us to an imposi

I will leave you in the care of Antonio, he will accompany you." My father said looking in wonder at the mansion. It was as if he was seeing it for the fi

ew I should let him go. I didn't have strong enou

eir call, and that is my task here. Maybe you will have yours too

ept us apart for too long? Haven't I suffered enough of your absence?"

here, we will always be together. As long as it takes." He said and kissing on my forehead, he left. As I watched him walk away I f

tel reception. The same people coming and going, the same buzz, porters taking and bringing bags, a restaurant with couples chatting, while the

air of weariness as if he

t name on purpose. Showing him that I di

with a smile on his lips. Only then did I realize how beautiful he was... He had black hair and eyes and dark skin that cont

have fun... And not everyone takes the attitude you did. Some jump up h

e' and I can't believe y

ve no sense of humor." He s

de of his ma

ng too hard. Why don't

calm down from their hysteria, they both looked at each other, sad and serious. Then I understood. Everyone there has a feeling of emptine

mself. "And I want you to know

also a pleasure to

ur chart filled out in the be

much work, I'd p

Even because, I will ask y

se of burea

ld be able to accept the new situation. So you keep that balance, until the person gets used to it and understands that they can be happy on a new plane." He said and became

be reincarnated? It shouldn't be a place of long

seasons..." He said and turned to Antonio. "Antonio, would you please escort Lisa to her room?" Marco asked han

... Is he

art to him, since he sh

hall we

t's

iosity grew and I couldn't

tell me w

but I noticed the glow of understanding soon af

an... I had the feeling th

ir. "But I'm not allowed to talk about that subject.

probably nothing i

was in my own room in the earthly home. I went to the window and was pleased to know that I had a view of the front of the mansion. Then I took a closer look at the room that consisted of a dressing table, a nightstand, a closet, and I was happy to open it and see all my clothes and even a doll that I kept from the many I had. And m

t's to you

ssed, leaning on the doorway. I wondered how long he had been watching me. I looked around for Antonio, remembering him for the first time since I entered the room. I didn't like the interruption of that man. I don't know what expression my face had,

I would never forget if I had actually seen him before. His presence seemed to fill the room and complete what was missing inside me. And that d

are

Gabr

d a lot of determination, but not for good. I felt a lot of persuasive energy and even some strong negative feelings coming from him, how could negative feelings coexist there? After all, is this a place of good people? Maybe I was just confused. It was better not to rush to judgments of character. For a second, that

ection?" He inquired between

en my eyes off him since he arrived. I felt dislike for him, not because of anything he said, but becau

ngel as you just suggested..."

es I'm not sick, but I might end up getting sick if I keep looking at your face." I returned in the same sarcastic tone. Despi

you, but unfortunately for you, here, it's me who decides whether you

one mad? Get

esides, you look exhausted, I thought a bath was a good ide

but I don't need you

laug

ou're thinking. After all you are as dirty as yo

e because they were a different color of gray, looked like a polluted river. My clothes were all torn and dirty.... But of course it was! After all, I had an accident! I went back to the door, from which he had not come out, and standing right in front of him, I l