She hides the truth from me 01

Septem

about big things" as Mabel says. I was

people think I'm crazy and sick

preserve what little

ave an appointment with the psychologist.

try to jump on me behind her desk. I use my strange sens

s I'm a lit

ght word, it would b

ble to help me is the Doc. He listened to me without asking me questions

y is long and I'm not s

think I've always had this depression, well, since I was in high school for sure. I didn't have

you're gonna g

foot against the as

own at m

think

eed money

Jacob. A more than unhealthy smile crosses

my arm, I push it

t for your s

s life when I thi

take away my custo

ement, Jacob get

ack. And it's not the f

ale l

money

h and slowly make

face and shove my hands into

ts at me f

nderstand myself.When I got custody of her, she was only a year old. I raised her. She has only

onsultations, well the shrink. So I dropped Mabel off at school and here I

ays on the plaqu

the decor of t

of Dr. Haddock. It is fr

usually dark room. The old oak furniture was replaced by varnished cherry wood. A lar

y smell reigns in

a magazine on t

I can't even remember the

y throat and my

the he

ge to run away as if deep down I know

seen her smile at me. But the most disturbing thing is that I can feel her gaze on me all the time, I have the impression that

is t

e no

s been polit

single one of my feelings. I protect myself. I protect myself fro

secretary, I alwa

polite, smiling

ke her condescending looks, I need to show her that I am bet

st in my

s horrifying

hat leads to the chatting room, at least that's wh

he hood of

sed all i

e mys

re but sometimes we don'

ocks fall on

ry part of

l this

is long corridor with walls

s timidly to knock

ss is pa

smile hidden behin

stress rises

y mask of

on the

ope

my throat di

stupor take

le welcome

woman who op

over her left shoulder. She has very little make-up on. She wears ra

eautiful at t

t my kind

man aft

de but she is really b

dentious thoughts, by holding out

a soft electric curren

ic voice titill

ng Mr. Over

ning Doct

it down and then sh

d blankne

nally

tell me abo

eeze

l me "Jackson"

call me Jack i

wns not

riting on he

t like

ike it. As

fessional although I think she

u want to k

at around

rtable with t

o stop as soo

beginning. After that, i

er surpr

expect thi

re of a question a

t going to

did with Doc Haddock. I feel like I'm starting all over a

pretentious

'm 25 years old and I'm depressed and more, acco

vere" by mimicking quota

the small pad of pape

around

ble separates us. A large vase filled with yellow roses, similar to the one in the waiting room, is placed on it. A small desk is in one co

e and more comfortab

onsciously makes all the stres

lulled by the so

e pen against t

d unconsciously closed t

me with a smil

into th

of me clears her throat a

y know that. What I wanted to know is t

n her papers. In that file that the Doc always kep

feel like I'm going back five years. I've fought too har

st getti

should have sa

is cl

m nervous and the little background mus

paper. The sheet fills up. The wor

ther she tirelessly wraps a lock of her

still as polite as ever, although I

ea

I want to get away from here. I want to st

up at this young platinum blonde woman who is my the

oing to ta

yes. I take

a hottie, but she's

do I

ntly and then reg

eyes, a shiver r

You seem to me to be a very normal young man for your

aking fu