Give me time.

w loved and supported I felt. We spent days adoring each other, blessing our hearts with compliments, reminding each other of the endless supports we would always give. Many things

but I fell harder or you could say I was rushing into something I had little or no knowledge of. I remember how he used to assure me and how h

re the ride started. Was it something I said? Was it a mistake he made? Why didn't everything just continue beautifully? I remember how I would go to his football matches just to cheer and support my love. I would go out of my way and try to make time for him, I would walk under the rain just to see his face, I would walk past his street just to get a glance at him and everytime I did it, It just felt so right. There was an immense satisfaction every single time and every single day of my life in that short while, he was all I could think about, he was the only thing I saw. I heard people talking about how perfect we were and how good looking our child would look. I was always private so the fact that almost everyone knew about us was kinda uncomfortable. I wasn't going to hide him though, I just wanted a private bond between us. No denying anything but also lowkey. I used to act like a hard girl whenever he acted like he was a baby in love, but it wasn't in a toxic way though, it was in the most beautiful way ever. The first time we went on a break, I couldn't live normally. I would always wonder what he was doing and even when I threatened to block him (I would have never dared to though) when he was having issues with his homie because of me, he still sulked about it like a pure child. He thought I was picking sides and I tried to make it clear I wasn't because he was obviously in the wrong. I got his message from his friend saying "if you wanna block me, it's fine but don't unblock me ever!" That was when I realized. I hurt my poor baby so much and he wasn't even replying my texts. I called but he just watched it ring. He picked up once and told me he was busy but I knew he was lying because he sounded upset. Gave him like 23 missed calls after and I couldn't help but start crying. It pierced my heart so much and I didn't even wanna imagine him going away from me like that. I was literally looking so scary and my eyes were so reddish coz I had wept so much. 2 days went by and we were still not perfectly okay. My pain turned into anger when I learnt that he had told his friend a day back that I wasn't his "wifey" anymore. No no no! I wasn't going to take that, I took it so personal! I sent a paragraph telling him I got his message and I questioned him about the wifey stuff and at the end of the paragraph, I made it clear that I was going to stop trying because I was literally so drained at that point. The reply I got two minutes later made me laugh so much! He got so scared that he tried explaining things. "You know I say stupid things when I'm upset and that Jayden! He has such a big mouth. Mama I'm sorry, please forgive me. 🥹". I was literally so touched but I wasn't going to make it so easy like brah! I never cried so miserably before! I was on my way to church at that time (yeah I'm a church girl, God's baby.) so I had to keep my phone inside my bag. After the prayer meeting, I picked up my phone and of course! It was the love of my life apologizing and hitting walls lol. I was done being dramatic so I reassured him that it was okay. "Baby it's okay, we're cool now. ❤️" i let him know that I wasn't going to stop being his wifey just because he said it, and that I was on my way home so