Surrender Your Sensations

me, take down my 'bataan' and then let's forge

time. This is also my way of living this life with lesser pain. I mean the less the people I love, the easier for me to get by and maybe when time

and my parents, I

ck, right? I mean, hindi ko naman na gugustuhing may mangyari ulit sa aming dalawa pagkatapos ng gabing 'to. Ma

ndo unit niya, ni-lock ang pinto 'tapos ay isinandal ang katawan ko

nst the door. There was a generous distance between our fa

naaalala?" he asked, his

naman niru-rule out ang posibilidad na 'yon. Because of my prosopagnosia, there are a lot of peo

I asked casually before wrap

ng mga braso ko sa kaniyang baywang saka humakbang paatras mula sa akin. Kaag

perfume," namulsa siya bago napatango-tango sa akin,

ing my arms over my chest. "I said that ea

ng tinutukoy niya pero wa

ut managed to have a safe distance between us. The atmosphere is too heavy to disregard anymore. If we will be closer with each other, we'll surely all over each ot

pa ang tungkol sa pagkikita namin noon pe

ng sagot ko. Tinalikuran niya ako at nagsimula n

to be sober enough and remember the night

aming nag-uusap tungkol sa isang business d

, vintage vases all over the place and a grand piano just over the left most corner of the living room; beautiful interior design of his place- with expensive chande

ng sofa. Across me was a big jigsaw puzzle in a frame and hanging by the wall. It was an image of a cl

ti ko naman. Indeed, he's a guy coming from a very w

bet would take a lot of time to complete. Don't tell me Rupert did this puzzle? Oh gosh. Ang galing niya kung gano'n. He might be smart then. Nag-aaral pa ba siya? He looked

e. And nope, I'm not that genius a

heck. Almost six thousand ang puzzle pieces na 'yan? That's a lot." I took a sip of my beer and then turn my

ya. I did the same before averting

chills. I don't know if it's because of the alcohol I consumed but the puzzle co

upo rito sa sofa habang nakatingin sa akin ang clown na 'yan." I took a gulp of my beer before I put

exhibit of rare puzzle works by different people. And that piece was called by the woman who made it as 'Trauma'." Ipinatong niya ang isang braso sa sandalan

ang mga hita ko. There's this aching feeling again in bet

owns," sabi ko bago kusang umawang ang

now why I bought her piece?" He place

like her? Is s

aking katawan. I placed my right hand on his chest befo

has a

kiss was harsh and demanding. Mabilis akong kinapos ng hininga nang pasukin ng dila niya ang bibig ko. I was trying to push him t

g dalawang kamay ko sa leeg

at pumisil sa hita ko. Hindi ko magawang umungol nang m

and my body ignited with desire and need when he kneels in front of me- then spreading my l

lawang kamay sa magkabila kong tuhod. Tumingala siya sa akin at napa

wan ko at sobrang bilis na ng tibok ng aking puso dahil sa posisyon namin. I could feel a stingin pain on my lips because he obviously suck it like it was a c

a aking hita na mas nagpatindi sa pananabik at init

t na ng bibig niya ang mga dibdib ko. I even pushed my hip

m his forehead down to his nose and then to his soft lips. "I learned that the best thing to do when yourself is doubtful to do somethin

ck to know we're on the same age." Then his right hand hold my wrist and brought my hand in

at na lang sinisips

-night-stand became even stron

the things I am

psip niya. Pagkatapos no'n ay tinagpo niya ang tingin ko. Huminga ako nang malalim nang ang isang ka

ing becam

all

ang lalong pinagtitindi ng an

t with all my might.

pababa ang panloob ko hanggang sa tuluyang mahubad 'yon. Napaawang ang bibig ko sa

malapit. I gasped when my wet core get in contact with his torso. I bit my already swollen b

o hindi. His hands were steady on my hips as he looked up to me, o

ore I bring you to

really turns me on ju

t is

a bad

a kaniyang sinabi. I was speech

y. No commitment. Just

i ako. "