Surrender Your Sensations

ayo sa harapan ko. Inikot niya ang upuan ko pat

ert pero mas mukhang ex

bibig niya. Napasinghap ako nang halikan niya ang palad ko habang diretsong nakatingin sa akin. My heart beats

he pleasure," he put both of my hands on

ga mata ko ang kanang kamay niya. Saka ko naramdaman ang nagi

sa antipasyon at kakaibang kiliti sa bandang

uth, sweetie.

o sa balakang niya. I gasped when I felt the fabric of the boxer

g mga kamay niya sa mukha ko. He cupped my cheek. I felt his thumb caressed my bottom lip before he said, "Nganga, Meredith.

usang sumunod ako sa utos niya- ibinuka ko ang aking bibig

sexy with your mout

Rup

aging doble ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko nang maintindihan ko kung ano ang bagay na 'yon. I tasted someth

hear the restraint and desperation in his

uck it like

y mouth- a little softly as if asking for permissio

niya at ang pigil na ungol nang pumasok ang kahabaan niya sa bibig ko. Pero hindi nawala ang pagkaka

k, your mouth

r how to do it. Ibinuka ko nang todo ang bibig ko para hindi sumayad ang ngipin ko. I sucked the head of his length before I moved my

Meredith. Fuck. I

Then he started pumping his hips in and out of my mouth. I was gagging and

oy your dessert. Fu

e as his length was really deep inside my mouth. Pero hindi ko siya pin

... Feel me, sweetie. Yo

Sumalubong sa akin ang naghuhumindik niyang pagkalalaki habang mabilis na nagtataas baba ang kaniyang kamay. Natulala

rokes, he groaned for my name; I stared at hi

i ako umiwas. I was heaving deep sighs as his essence cove

ko- he didn't even bother to lift his boxers again. "And of course I want to know you more." Saka niya kinuha ang layla

shaking hand made its way to his cold-metal piercing. "Know me m

th of my hands on my lap. "But yeah. I want to know you more. I can't disregard

?" Natawa pa ako na ikinangisi niya lang din naman. "Per

, you are a bit of a bitch that da

mack my forehead lightly on his

ugh." Then he tuck some lose s

th anniversary ng greatest l

t siyang ngumiti 'tapos ay kinurot ang tungki ng ilong ko. Tumayo

g mga pinagkainan namin. "I told you I want to know you more. Bakit hindi ka m

re two things that I think

niya pa matanggap ang pagkawala nito. Pero isang bagay ang mahalaga kong natutunan sa buhay after losing someone so dear to me and after being faced by an almost death- the more we nurture and keep the pain by

ihanda na ang mga panghugas ng plato. "I'll clean the dishes since ikaw na ang n

isita kita kaya

iyang bisita. I can

rin kaagad ako. Pumwesto naman siya sa gilid ko- nakasandal

ed to know about you?" he asked

a mag-open na rin siya sa akin. I mean, if we want this fuck-buddy kind of relationship- we should at least make an effort to help each other in knowing one's pain and happiness. Madali lang m

ng ginagawa. "Kahit close ko o kahit kamag-anak ko pa, nahihirapan akong maalala ang mga mukha nila. And that's why hindi

it. Paanong hindi m

n 'yung sabi ng doktor ko." Natawa ako bago binalingan ng tingin si Rupert. Sa ngayon, nakahalukipkip siya habang nakakunot ang noo sa akin. I like him being near to me- because I like seeing his

g niloloko ko lang ang sarili ko. Kasi apektado pa rin ako. Nasasaktan pa rin ako; lalo na sa tuwing nadi-disappoint ko ang mga taong nakapaligid sa akin kasi hindi ko ma

now I hurt her feelings for a couple o

ly do you n

e abstract arts. I can't percept anyone's whole face. It's hard to explain but faces of people I met were like smudged- blurred. K

na naramdaman ko sa aking dibdib. "Alam mo ba na namatay na lang ang nanay ko nang hindi ko man

ee her beautiful smile; and her warm eyes. Pero 'yon lang. Hindi ko nagawang makita ang kabuuan- I was too late to do it b

. It's not your fault that you

humihingi pa rin ako ng sorry kay Mama dahil hin

. Both of his arms wrapped around my waist and then I felt hi

yang mga mata- it was like he's hurt for me; and it seems like he wanted to take away

sa ginagawa ko bago nagbuntong hininga. "I am a cancer surviv

is heavy stare but I didn't look back at

yakap niya sa katawan ko sa

journey came back. "I had to stop from school and focus on my treatment. During that time- I didn't know what to do; I was so devastated. Pero himala- kahit hin

my hair and then I felt his hand started caressi

aan ang sarili na maging mahina sa loob ng mga bisig niya. It's been awhile since I've been trying to be

he cancer symptoms after a treatment. Kapag umabot ng limang taon o higit pa na wala na talagang si

; I don't know if I can survive

y four years pa- mahabang apat na taon na posibleng bumalik ang cancer ko. Sabi nga ng doktor ko, traydor ang sa

ng iharap ni Rupert sa kaniya. He kissed my forehead and then gave me a

kha niya saka hinaplos ang piercing sa labi niya na masasab

the only way I would know it was you,"

sto mo, sweetie

e on his chest. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito na lang ang comfort na nararamdaman ko sa kaniya. But

nned other things- and maybe that's why, I survived,"

hok ko at ang mainit niyang yakap. "Co