Back In His Embrace

GIANNA SILVERSTEIN.

" Everything expected has been done but the Kim are still yet to sign the contract. " My assistant, Mr Yu An told me and I sighed.

" You should try more to convince them. You do know we need this more than anything. Our income for the next few months depends on this contract and we can't afford to loose such opportunity. " I said. Not just our income, but the capability of paying our workers too. We already invested much into this and we need it. We had our bank account drained and if we don't get it, I fear that's the end of Queens. Not just the end of Queens, but also the end of my dreams. But if we ever get it, then there's 70% possibility that Queens would rise to a nation wide company. That is if the resources are well managed and analyzed.

As if understanding the outcome that would result with them not signing it or with them signing it, he nodded and gave me an assuring smile. "I'll try my best. " And I have no doubt of that, Mr Yu An has always been my assistant for the past two years since Queens started and I can swear he's the best, possessing the perfect attributes. He's got this natural charm that makes him able to win contracts for the company. Even if I ever die too soon I will definitely have no doubt of Queens' welfare cause I know well he would handle it more better than I.

"Your best should the best." I said and locked gaze with him. I could see that he was willing to do anything and that made me happy.

"Thank you." I said with a small smile and he grinned.

" You would want to eat now, I suppose. You didn't have lunch." Mr Yu An wasn't just an assistant manager, but also like a father at work. Only that we had to be formal where we had to be formal.

"Yes. You're right." He nodded and reached for the intercom to order something for lunch for me. My eyes wandered around. The office had been idle and boring for the last few days now. We couldn't find more contracts except the less difficult one which I had Mr Yu An take care for me. Those ones, I cared less for but we'd really hope for the Kim to sign the contract with us. That was a big fish if we ever get it.

I stopped when my eyes rolled to the two potrait on my desk that has always been there. A feeling ran across me. That feeling you get when you miss someone so much that you begin to hate yourself and they for missing them, but still hurt. It was a picture of Harry, Rose and I. And by it's side was a picture of Harry and I at the funfair. I miss them, so much and it pains that he had to cheat and didn't even try to explain anything to. I broke up with him and he accepted. He didn't say a thing, he only watched me leave his office and didn't come after me since then. I was forced to resign when he even distanced himself away from me.

"They miss you too." Mr Yu An said drawing me out of my thoughts and I realized I was crying. I sniffled and turned to look at him.

"I'm not sure of that. I think they moved on already and they're happy. "I blinked the tears back. It's been two years now. Two fucking years now and nothing, not even a mail or a message from him.

"I don't think so. I think it's rather his ego not making him come apologise." He said in a funny way that made me laughed. I stopped laughing and he smiled, aware of the fact that he had just been able to make me happy again.

"But did you say he cheated and didn't apologise?" He asked and I nodded.

"He did. And he doesn't feel remorseful about it. " I said as a matter of fact. That day, I had walked into his office after seeing the pictures of him in bed with another girl that was sent to me. And in a burning rage, I had called things off between us forgetting the fact that we had a little daughter that needed not only a father, but both parents. I expected him to come after me and try to explain things to me but he didn't. And there, I believed he really meant to cheat and didn't care if I found out about it. It felt like he was soon planning to dump me but I already did. The next day, a part of me felt regretful about just breaking up with him and was beginning to miss him but the other part of me kept reminding me (that) he cheated and deserved some punishment but if he really cared, then he would have appeared to me. I stayed all day crying and refused to come out or even eat. But thanks to Scarlett and Rina, they tried to make me move on. And they half succeeded because if I hadn't moved on, I wouldn't be here as an entrepreneur but still, I know there's a part of me that's reserved for only Harry and my daughter. And that part is the bottom of my heart. I can't think of any other guy that's not Harry. And when I see a little girl of about six, what comes in my mind is Rose. We probably failed in making her a Rose like we had planned, or maybe I did. We hoped to take care of her together and see that she had everything she could ever wished for but Harry wished to spoil her rotten. I had talked to him of not having to spoil Rose for days before he finally made a promise to me. But now, I bet he has spoiled her than that of an angel never to be touched. And she wouldn't miss me. I bet they moved on already. It was never my fault but I'm the one loosing. I'm the looser here.

I've always been sober ever after Harry and Rose walked out of my life or rather, ever since I walked out of their life. I kept my borders with people and had only few in my life. And I never gave a man another chance because I know well I wouldn't be able to love another man as I did to Harry. And I still do love him.

"Anna..." Mr Yu An tapped the back of my palm gently and continuously slowly bringing me back to being conscious of my environment.

"You'll be fine." He whispered and handed me a handkerchief. I smiled at him and took it. I wiped my tears and shoved the material away on the desk.

"Thanks." I said and he nods in acknowledgement. Silence followed and he studied me for a while before leaning back against the chair.

"Do you still think those pictures aren't edited?" He asked.

"Do I have to care?" Of course, no! Edited or not, Harry just didn't care and I shouldn't. It just felt like I was the one who was dumped, obviously because I'm the one still hurting.

"What if he was drugged?" Mr Yu An pushed.

"It doesn't matter. It's been two years and he hasn't even said hi." I pointed out and he nodded.

" You're right. But what about Rose, your daughter? Are you sure she won't be happy if you say hi and hang out with her for just a day?" He asked. That sounds tempting but I don't think it'll work.

" What if she hates me now and already has a new mother for herself?" I'd be humiliated and that is definitely not in my plan; getting embarrassed.

Mr Yu An gave a tight lipped smile and leaned over the table, his fingers clutching each other. "I think you're just scared and making yourself think only the negative way. Why don't we look at it from this corner? What if he still loves you? What if all the girl he has met doesn't make him feel like you do? What if ever since you left, he hasn't had another girl in his life? What if he still wishes you come back? What if he's suddenly turned a sadist..."

" Like me?" I completed and laughed. That's a fairytale; something that might never come to pass. And that's why it would always be after the WHAT IF.

I stopped laughing and held a serious look making him look and feel like a fool.

"What if? Why use what if? Clearly because it's never going to happen. Harry is a lovely guy and everyone likes him. I wasn't his first girlfriend and I can't be his last. He got me to beg him for sex. I begged him to take away my virginity even after me vowing not to have sex until my wedding night. Harry is every girl's sweetheart and he can have every girl he wishes to have. He was a pervert until we fell in love and started dating but now that we're not anymore together, do you still think he'll stick to the bondage- rule of not cheating?" I asked but he said nothing. I looked crazy to him and I know it. This isn't the first time I'll be crazy over Harry and my daughter.

"Of course not!" I answered myself and chuckled. I was going crazy already, you needn't tell me that.

"Harry is cool and he has moved on! Else he would have tried to make things work once again!" I yelled at no one in particular. I hate myself that I can't stop loving him. I wish I could taunt him. I really need to. To show him he's not the only one that can move on after break up. I continued yelling shits and cursing Harry wherever he might be. I wish it could get to him so he would know just how angry I am and how much I need him back in my life.

"Gianna!" Mr Yu An snapped and grabbed my wrist forcefully stopping me. I stopped with a sigh and twisted my lips angrily. Just a bit more drama and I would destroy things.

He cautioned me with his eyes and I bit my bottom lip and nodded. I will try to be a good girl and not let my anger get the best of me. He gave a small smile and dropped my hand back slowly.

"I'm fine." I assured him despite knowing I'm no close to being fine.

"You're going to be." He corrected and stood up.

" I'll see what to do to make them sign the contract, I promise. " He said and I gave a nod.

" Mr Yu. " I called when he was about to leave and he turned to me.

"Any problem?" He asked. We're back to being formal.

" Thanks. " I gave him a smile and he smiled back too.

"Thanks for letting me." With that, he walked out of the office and I watched him do before sighing out a smile. What could I have been without someone like him? Miserable! He isn't just helping me with my company, he also helps me with my personal life despite having his own personal life.

Blackpink's ' I bet you wanna' played faintly as I approached the doorstep and I bet it's only Scarlett home because if Rina was ever home, then Scarlett wouldn't ever be able to play her music so loud. Rina and Scarlett hardly get along or do a thing without fighting or exchanging words. They had different preferences but there was something else attached to it than just preferences. It was hatred. They hated each other but there was no way I'm letting either of them leave me. They're the best people in my life ever since my break up with Harry together with Mr Yu An.

I opened the front door unannounced and walked in. I found Scarlett making out with Johan, her new boyfriend and rolled my eyes. That was something Rina hated Scarlett for.

"I guess you guys have to stop that thing and find a room for yourself 'cause I'm home right now and there's no way you're both gonna make me jealous or miss Harry the more!" I shouted, announcing my arrival and the both of them pulled away.

"Hey, sis. You're back." Her cheeks turned red from embarrassment and I giggled. Wow. A little sister is in love for the first time. But one thing for sure, this isn't her last boyfriend. Scarlett had a good luck charm when it comes to men and she uses it to her advantage. Always changing them like outfits and making them provide everything she wants and needs.

"Get a room for yourself." I winked and ran up the stairs. I entered my room and shut my door with a bang. Rina isn't home yet, long day at work, I guess. I started undressing and had shower before changing into a simple wear; a black tank top and red mini skirt. I untied my hair and slipped into my flip flops. I ran down the stairs and walked into the kitchen. I found pancakes and eggs for me and I grinned. What a sent angel is Scarlett. I quickly dished some out of hunger and started eating.

"Gi!!!" Rina called, barging into my room when I set to retire to bed. It's obvious she was just getting back from cause she still had her uniform on.

"What's up? You look 90% happy." I said and she grinned.

"Give it a guess!" She ordered and I rolled my eyes.

" Tell me already." I demanded.

" Zayn finally asked me out!" She yelled and I screamed out a ' OMG! '. I covered my mouth, remembering it's night but I didn't stop gasping.

"Really?" I asked when I released my mouth. She nodded and I pulled her to a hug immediately. She laughed and hugged me back. I pulled away but we still held that huge grin.

" Finally. I'm so happy for you." I said and she grinned harder.

"Me too. But don't you think something is missing." She said and I raised a brow.

" What? You want him down on his knees so soon?" I asked and she chuckled.

"What!? No. That's not it. What I meant was that you need a boyfriend too. Scarlett has Jonah, I have Zayn and you need another..."

" Oh. I'm so tired..." I drew and laid on the bed pretending to be asleep.

"Anna, stop the pretense act and listen to what I have to say." She urged but I only yawned and grabbed a pillow. I hugged the pillow and turned around.

"Humph!" I heard her sighed angrily and stood up.

" I have work tomorrow." I told her managing to hide a grin. Rina thinks and knows I'm not happy and she thinks I'll be happy with a boyfriend.

"I just wanted to tell you I saw Harry and Rose at the hospital today." What!? Harry and Rose at the hospital!? Is anything wrong!?

" Good night. Sweet dreams." I wanted to shout ' Wait!' but she was already out. I sighed and tried to close my eyes but I was disturbed. Harry and Rose in the hospital!? My God! What if anyone of them is sick or hurt!? God, I can't afford to loose any of them! They should be safe for me, please.

And here I am thinking like we're still together. I can't lie I miss them and I wouldn't like for anything to happen to anyone of them even if they moved on already.

When I woke up the next day, Rina and Scarlett were nowhere to be found in the house. I bet Rina already went to work but Scarlett, that nigga never work. I got dressed, had a simple breakfast and left for work.

"I got an update from the Kim." Mr Yu An said and I had high hopes immediately.

" What's it about?" I asked.

"The CEO wants to meet and have a deal with you personally. "A deal? Personally? Why would he want to meet or have a deal with me? Or maybe I'm over thinking this.

"When?" I asked. We really need this contract and there's no way I'm saying no.

"Today's is great. Just great." He said and I nodded. Today!

"My boss said you should come in." The secretary said and I nodded. I headed to the office of the CEO of Kim's company. I noticed something strange the moment I walked in, the workers won't stop boring holes at me. They looked at me like they were all surprised and shocked to see me and I knew something was definitely wrong somewhere. I tried to ignore their stares but it only made me freak out the more they all gathered to look at me like I had stitches at my bum. The secretary's own was even worse. She stared at me with some sort of hatred and irritation and I couldn't fathom why.

I tapped my knuckles on the CEO's office door and I heard a husky, familiar reply. I twisted the door knob and slowly opened it. I was welcomed with that familiar posh scent that filled my nostrils and sent this familiar triggering feeling down my body.

"Miss Gianna Silverstein." That very familiar voice. WTH! I mean WTF is he doing here. I tensed and turned around to the direction where the voice came from. There, just right on the CEO'S chair, he was seated, like the fucking CEO. My ex. My first boyfriend ever. The father of my child. The man I was supposed to hate but still love. The only man who knew how to make me wet and pleading with just his words.