her love his regret

Sitting on the edge of the shore, with the calm sea waves touching her feet, the feeling as if a mom caressing her baby, a sense of serenity seeping through her. she kept thinking about her life, which turned upside down within a period of just two months. she scoffed at her reflection in the water, for the chaos she brought in her life. The air around was cold, retelling her the tale of her memories, which she made with him.

She wished everything that happened to be a dream, is it really a dream? No, a nightmare, at least for her. How she wishes to go back in the past and change her story and this time let him know about her without any secrets.

Peace is the only thing she craved in her life but maybe God doesn't have mercy on her, for he always kept her in the midst of chaos. As the wind brushed her long hairs making some fall on her face, she tucked them back behind her ear and watched back at sea, as the sun neared its horizon. The seawater shining with different colors same as the rainbow.

She took a deep breath as the fresh salty air started calming her, giving her enough strength to face her reality, a reality that is a nightmare to her. A beautiful dream it would have been, if only!

she was aimless for the past four years. A lost wanderer paving in the darkness and finally when she thought her life is going to change, destiny again played its cruel game, just like how her reflection from water is mocking her. Maybe she is not made for happiness. she wanted to go back to her parents and tell them how suffocating she is feeling at this moment, how she want to back off, but her heart craved for him. She has always been happy around him, he is the only person in this world whose arms gave the protection feeling for her, without whom her life had been dark, painful.

Her brain mocked her that he is nothing the way he was in past, he is a completely changed person. she sighed as her gaze fell on her left hand, her engagement ring reminding her of its owner, who is the reason for the whole chaos in her life. But her heart told it wasn't him but her, the reason for her problems, he had been an amazing friend when she is in need of one. She wouldn't lie he is one of the finest men she has ever seen.

He is still the same but more handsome and manly than before with a new addition of anger and a stoic face that forgot its smile, which screamed danger.

They say truly, destiny has its weird ways of bringing two people together in the bond of marriage.

Oh! her marriage is going to have a love for sure but maybe with an equal amount of hatred from the other side. She always thought what made him hate her to this extent, that he doesn't care for her feelings anymore. Weren't they best friends from the start? Her thoughts always kept on lingering from one memory to the other but she couldn't come up with a conclusion.

She still remembers the amount of hatred his eyes conveyed on their engagement day. It's as if he doesn't want to have her around his radius. she still remembers the way his hands roughly held hers, as if he want to give her pain, the same amount of pain his grey eyes conveyed with an equal amount of anger.

A part of her begged her to not do it, to run away from her problems, begging her that she doesn't deserve this, she doesn't deserve his anger. But another part of her heart, the most important one commanded her to give it a try, give him a chance, give her a chance, a chance for her happiness, a chance for their togetherness.

But what she feared is, will she be able to do it alone, when he is not willing to put in the effort. But she is not a coward to run away from situations, her parents taught her to fight back not to hide in fear.

But she knows him well, she is not stupid, he is too smart and intelligent for her understanding. And Abhimanyu Singh Shekhawat is not a person who lets go of people from his life unless he wants them to. He will search for her even if she runs away to hide from all this chaos. So, she accepted her life, how much ever her sane heart wanted to run away and hide from this selfish world, she know she can't do that to her parents.

Moreover, it is not just about them, it's about their family too, their reputation and she knows how the media and tabloids will not leave a chance to spread shit about their families. And hailing from the most successful business families, she knows she has to face both pros and cons. Her parents have done an excellent job in hiding her identity all these years.

She gasped when she felt someone hold her arm from behind and she started struggling to remove them from her when she heard "it's me".

She stopped and relaxed as she know him.

"You scared me you idiot, stop irritating me," she said.

"What are you thinking so deeply," he asked ignoring her earlier statement. If only you knew, she thought in her mind, she knows he is protective towards her and he will fight with even her parents if it is a question of her safety. But did she want to involve him? No.

So she ended up saying nothing. she doesn't like lying to him but she doesn't want to tell him the truth either, so what she found perfect in this situation is silence.

"You know right, I will always stand by you no matter what happens" he conveyed side hugging her. See she knows him better, and she knows it already. This guy is too good to be true, always helping her throughout her life, being there when she needed a shoulder to lean on. This is the reason this duffer is her best friend. He knows her in and out without her conveying anything.

"Someone else does too" screamed her stupid mind.

"Way to spoil my mood," I shouted at her

"What but that's true" my inner mind anything but taunted me.

"I know, you don't have to be a bitch now, let me enjoy my little time" I gave her back

"As you say my lady" she stopped.

Now don't take me as a fool but I love having conversations with my mind more than the outer world. Even though she acts like a bitch sometimes but she gives me better suggestions when needed.

"I know but I wanted this and I wanted us" she let him know about her decision to remove his hand. If only she know what this decision is going to cost her; if only she knew that her decision is going to bring more chaos in her life.

"Let's go back home, it's late and I think it's going to rain soon," he said watching the sky which is covered with grey clouds. His eyes look the same screamed my inner self, ignoring it I walked along with him to the parked car and settled myself in the passenger seat as he drove us back home.

Unknown to them a third person is watching them from distance with his anger-filled eyes, vowing to himself to show them hell in the future.