"For you I would go through everything, I would go back and fourth between the moon and earth." he said looking at me straight in the eyes, I did try to avoid eye contact but those eyes, they are like a magnet. Wait how did we get here? Let me take you through my story and my husband's story, I know we are not married yet but he calls me his wife, sweet I know.
Chapter 1 Diary of Ayanda
Ayanda Mkozola's Point of view.
As soon as I arrived home I slowly placed my school bag on the chair that was near my bedroom's door and took off my school shoes and threw myself on the bed trying to sleep but I couldn't.
I just can't really sleep unless I take this pills this stupid pills. I looked at them as they were on my bed.
Why did I have to be born with Bipolar? Does anyone at school know that I have Bipolar? I don't really think they know because I know they would treat me differently just like how everyone at my previous school started treating me differently after finding out about my condition.
Others stopped talking with me while others started gossiping about me saying I'm crazy and I don't deserve to seat near them or go to the same school they go to but I never did let that get into my mind.
My friends too started speaking ill about me and it hit me that maybe I am crazy and this pills are the cause of all this and I stopped taking them.
After stopping to take these pills my mind started showing me things and giving me many thoughts. I couldn't really handle this but my parents didn't notice at first until they were called at school that I stabbed my friend with pen well not a friend anymore.
My parents rushed to school and the school wanted to take me to a school hearing but they later found out about my condition and told my parents to take me to hospital so that I can be treated properly.
A few weeks I came back to school better but no one wanted to be near me and that's when it dawned to me that I am alone and will always be alone since I was born.
No matter how much I tried to apologize and amend for my mistakes no one wanted to listen.
I started isolating myself from everyone even at home. I stopped being the Ayanda that was always on their business when I'm happy and that's when my parents decided to take me out of that school and take me to this school.
As soon as I arrived at this school I got all the attention I ever needed and wanted. All the boys wanted and still wants my attention.
I'll be doing my school work and when I turn, a guy will be looking at me like I'm the most beautiful woman on earth.
After learning and knowing about Enzokuhle wait my Enzokuhle, I started seeing life differently. Imagine seating near your future husband everyday.
Enzokuhle is sweet, funny, perfect, a genius, gentle, handsome, thoughtful and all the other things you could ever think of.
Every time when I think of Enzokuhle my heart becomes happy really happy.
I once thought that Maria wants Enzokuhle and I tried getting close to her till I realized that she doesn't want him. I became really happy since she was doing herself a very big favor by not even looking at my Enzokuhle that way because he belongs to me and Maria is not even beautiful as me.
I got off my bed and went to my wardrobe taking out my denim short with my blue shirt, my white all star and took my camera going to do my hobby.
As I was about to step outside I heard my mom calling me and I stopped looking back, "You can't go on an empty stomach eat this fat cake and I hope you took your pills" as she said this I nodded with my head since my mouth was full with the fat cake she just stuffed into my mouth.
I waved at her and took a taxi.
As soon as I arrived at my destination I payed the driver and looked all around before taking out my phone checking my Enzokuhle's location and saw it.
I followed his location till I saw him walking alone with his jacket hiding him.
I kept on taking pictures of him making sure he doesn't notice me just like I always do till I saw a girl calling him but he didn't dare to look back and in my mind I was like that's my Enzokuhle.
The girl didn't give up and poked him till he looked at her.
I didn't really hear what the girl said to him but I became angry as I saw the girl kissing him and him kissing her back.
I wanted to go straight to them to tell that girl to back off from my man but the way my heart was hurting, I just stood there stuck with no thoughts in my mind but pain and pain in my heart.
Tears started falling from my face and I couldn't find a way to walk away since my legs were too numb to walk.
Doesn't Enzokuhle remember the time we shared?
Doesn't he?
Instead of walking away as I saw them holding hands, I followed them till they got into Enzokuhle's place.
I saw Enzokuhle trying to hold back but the girl kissed his neck till he gave in again.
I continued to look and my mind was filled with so much anger.
I looked one time at the girl and my mind remembered her from the previous school we went to together.
She was one of my friends till I heard her gossiping about me.
Kwanele, there's no way you're going to get my Enzokuhle while I'm still here.
I ran and took a taxi.
As soon as I arrived home I didn't go and tell my mother that I've arrived, I just went straight to my room closing the door slowly so that my mother won't think I'm having another episode as if this pills help me.
I looked at the pills before taking them to the toilet. As I was flushing those pills I started feeling happier and I went to my room taking out my laptop hacking Kwanele's facebook account so that I can be able to free my Enzokuhle from that wicked witch that is crazy.
Kwanele is pregnant? Well she is.
After seeing she is pregnant. My mind became more happier since I will be able to free my Enzokuhle from her crazy self because in this way me and Enzokuhle will be together forever.
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