Finding Me.

Old and sad, that's how I feel on a daily, it's not

vibe,nor a mood,nor a phase, it's me.

A girl who has been through so much emotionally, it's now hard to feel things, and even when I do,it takes up so much of my mind,soul and body, that at the end of the day,I feel Older and still sad.Nothing new, nothing changed.

I think I used to be a happy child,can't really remember,I think I used to be a golden girl, can't even understand myself anymore, I think I used to live but now am wishing and hoping and praying and imagining, but not living.

I dive into novels,animes, kdramas and all that to stay okay,but Lord knows am not,Am far from that.Am depressed,I finally admit it to myself,cos no amount of imagination can take away that reality.I want to be better,I really do but who cares,No one, not even my family.

I have been labelled by everyone as that moody,angry,frowny face girl who might never find happiness, maybe I won't,at this point I really don't care anymore, am just passing through life.But I want to be better,no scratch that,am going to be better.

So this is me, trying to develop myself and get better.